how ar?

haiyo
i dunno what do do eh how sia...
actually also nothing much de la
im just a bit worried
WHAT IF...
but should be........nothing de right?
argh.
whatever la. let nature takes its course haha
hopefully all goes...well.

anyway merry christmas...eve everyone!! :D
i received a card from someone today
she say cannot tell XXXXXXXX LOL
i personally think its ok
but anyway i was SOOOO surprised and damn touched leh
when i got it today! :D
SHE DAMN NICE :D LOVE HER SO MUCH :D:D:D:D
hehe

cleaned my room today.
wipe walls floor windows
tiring sia hahaha but ok la
chat with friend a lot today
quite fun hehe :P

PPL HAPPY COUNTDOWN TO CHRISTMAS!! :D:D

&^%$&^#%$*!%

猪头猪脑猪尾巴
白痴智障大笨蛋
*&*%^#@*&%*@#^(#%
argh

no matter how gd mood i was
when i come home ar
a while gone le.
immediately turn into terrible irritable mood -.-
argh.
i was soooo happy just now de leh!

today was so fun de leh!
met jiaqing
supposed to study
but quite fail la
he say he forgot everything le
then he didnt rly study
then we talktalktalk LOL
then 3+ started listening to my ipod de music
he browse thru see what he know ma
then he play some sing a bit etc
then like that until 6 eh LOL
then go home.
i only managed to go 1 essay outline today...
but it was fun...
so long nvr talk to casually with someone
esp is guy. even more rare.
was rly nice coz he super chatty
but then come home then sianz le. haiz.

i rly cannot take it leh wts.
cried again little bit only la though
coz i was telling myself not to cry
not worth it
sheesh.
although i keep thinking i shouldnt mind
it shouldnt affect me
but.
argh.
idiot.
im scolding myself la.
dumbo eh.
haiz.

i wan to grow up.
i wan to do what i wan
i wan to live as "FOO SI HUI"
not just as their child.
i don't want to live their ideals
i wan to live my own life...
but even if i grow up
they probably wont stop controlling me
...
it sucks eh
i rly dunno what im living for eh
according to what they wan me to do/be
im supposed to study hard
and not get too involved with other stuff
don't waste money don't need have too much fun
relax once in a while can liao. playing com is probably enough.
then study hardhard go uni
maybe study even more
and take high degree
and get a gd job tt pays high
even if i hate the job
dun care. pay high can liao.
and then what else???
married got kid raise them up then leave the world soon.
whats the pt of a life like this?

two days ago
tt night i also cant rmb why i was thinking of this la
i wasnt in an emo mood
it just suddenly came to my mind i think.
i wsa thinking sth tt i've tot about a lot of times...
whats the meaning of life haha
i since damn long ago will think about this once in a while de la
but i nvr found my answer.
the life described above is the only thing i can imagine.
but life is just this one try
there isnt a second chance.
its just these years..
i just want to have no regrets and
do whatever i want to do
not that dont study la
i wan to survive too...
but...
argh.
i think i dont fit into this world.
it doesnt suit me...
why is everything about being better than others?
whats wrong with not being the best?
im not an ambitious person
i never was
and i dont want to be either
its so tiring...
im a lazy pig
i just want to go what i wan
and enjoy life
and be happy.
tt's more than enough.
but i guess it would just be a dream.......

(btw just add a little thing
ytd went udders with mr ang and veron
eat iceee creeaaammm :D
it was great
quite fun
coz veron was amazingly amusing hehe
then when we on the bus
we were saying tj no shuai ge
mr ang say cannot be so shallow LOL
then i say "you also what"
veron copy me haha
it was comical LOL hehe
aiya eye candy only what
also not like looking for bf haha... :P)

Contacts

Bought contacts le! Last weekend(:
Gng get it tmr
Ive been bugging my parents damn long for it
Haha but now ar
My eyebags look obvious leh haha
Got dark eye circles
Coz I almost every day sleep after 2 this hols hahaha
So ar I scared wear contacts very obvious-.-
But I bug them so long
They finally let me buy
They sure kill me if I say dun wan le haha
So nvm lor
Wear lor:D

Bought lots clothes previous weekend too!!!!
Bega at century square
So many very nice clothes that day!
They every week got new stock de
So see luck also
Coz not always got suitable clothes
But I recommend girls go take a look
Can fit my mum age also hahhaha
Fit all ages :P
Nice leh the clothes
Me and my mum spent 200++ there almost 300
I bought 3 tops 1 skirt 1 dress
The dress is nice
Looks like top+skirt but is not hahaha
My mum bought 2 tops and a pants I think o.O
But she want share my clothes -.-
She say she also can wear
But dad say I wear nicer
She wear weird hahahhahaha
But she insists on sharing
So whatever lor hahhaha
I want wear my new clothes sia
So nice!
I so long nvr buy new clothes de leh!!
But mum dun let
She say new yr then can wear!!!! -.-
I can't wait!!! Hahhaah

HELLO

ok haha
it's been veryveryvery long since i last posted...
i think...

well there were a lot of days
when i had stuff to post
when i really wanted to post sth.
but then i didnt la
i guess i was lazy... :P
anyway.
here i am again.
doubt i will be very hardworking blogging la
but once in a while ba...

mum caught me with my ipod this morning
coz i forgot off it ytd night
when i listening music :(
she scold me again
now she bad mood again.
our house very take turns de
me n mum
dad and mum
me n dad etc. -.-
anyway mum say every night gng confiscate my ipod
morning then give me back
crap eh!!
i feel like hiding it every night -.-
but i will probably get nagged at even more.
whatever la
take then take lor:(
AHHHHHHHHHHHH my dear music!!
music is my LIFEE
i CANNOT survive without it.
seriously.
lols.

just watched KO3anguo.
damn long. took a few days.
damn nice haha.
i actually tot it was a dumb lame stupid show
but i realised its not :D
anyway.
im addicted to a song in the show.
the main song for the main characs la.
够爱!!! :D
im seriously obsessed with it LOL
and im in love with the couple in the show too
this happens sometimes
with some show.
like ur beautiful.
i was in love with that couple too.
so anyway i saved lots of photos of them on my com
and my ipod ytd.
LOL :D
damn rock!
now my wallpaper on ipod n com
all them liao hehe
THEY SO ROCK :D
anyway ytd night downloaded all the theme songs ma
till now...played...45 times liao.
and still playing ^^
it wasnt on replay in the day la
but now it is hehe
i love the song <3333
够爱！ :D:D:D:D

我穿梭 金星木星水星火星土星 追寻
追寻你 时间滴滴答 滴答答答滴身影

我穿梭 金星木星水星火星土星 追寻
追寻你 时间滴滴答 滴答答答滴身影

指头还残留 你为我擦的指甲油
没想透 你好像说过 你和我会不会有以后

世界一直一直变 地球不停的转动
在你的时空 我从未退缩懦弱
当我靠在你耳朵 只想轻轻对你说
我的温柔 只想让你都拥有

我的爱只能够 让你一个人独自拥有
我的灵和魂魄 不停守候在你心门口
我的伤和眼泪 化为乌有 为你而流
藏在无边无际小小宇宙 爱你的我

OS：你听见了吗？我为你唱的这首歌
是为了要证明 我为了你存在的意义

世界一直一直变 地球不停的转动
在你的时空 我从未退缩懦弱
当我靠在你耳朵 只想轻轻对你说
我的温柔 只想让你都拥有

我的爱只能够 让你一个人独自拥有
我的灵和魂魄 不停守候在你心门口
我的伤和眼泪 化为乌有 为你而流
藏在无边无际小小宇宙 爱你的我

爱你的我 不能停止脉搏
为了爱你奋斗 就请你让我说出口

爱只能够 让你一个人独自拥有
我的灵和魂魄 不停守候在你心门口
我的伤和眼泪 化为乌有 为你而流
藏在无边无际小小宇宙 爱你的我 哦~
爱你的我 哦~
爱你的我 哦~
我穿梭 金星木星水星火星土星 追寻
追寻你 时间滴滴答 滴答答答滴身影

我穿梭 金星木星水星火星土星 追寻
追寻你 时间滴滴答 滴答答答滴身影

我穿梭 金星木星水星火星土星 追寻
追寻你 时间滴滴答 滴答答答滴身影

yepp theres the lyrics.
i shall go search for the song to post on the blog.. :D:D:D
im sharing my obsession LOL.
got another song from the show also damn nice :D
same person sing de
曾沛慈 ROCKS :D:D I LOVE HER LA HER VOICE DAMN NICE
AND SHE ACT DAMN WELL
AND SHE QUITE CUTE QUITE CHIO HAHA :D
:D:D:D:D
the other song is 泪了
the other songs not bad also of coz
these 2 best ba to me :D:D:D

ok i think of sth else then come bk haha
for now see u :D:D
and IM LOOKING FORWARD TO UDDERS
AND I SHALL GO LOOK AT STREETDIRECTORY NOW......

INTERESTING GP lecture today! HAHA:D

gp lesture today
was sooooo INTERESTING!!!
Anyway i was hungry this morning
coz my breakfast only consisted of
1 piese of bread
and half cup of milk.
coz i hate bread haha.
sooo i went macs to get fries and cokelight.
and smuggled it into LT3 LOL
wellwell
managed to finish it quickly la
and then put it on the floor
lucky nvr get caught.
MS ONG WAS LECTURER TODAY EH
i heard lots of grumbles from everywhr around me HAHA
all didnt want her to lecture
heh.
she is really nice person de!
but she rly cant teach
i cant defend her on that issue
even her favvv student godwin agrees ^^
yupps. sadly.

anyway somehow tech prob
so she gave out handouts for us read first
2 articles.
about 2 sex scandals wor..
1 is nyp tammy video that was leaked in 2006
one is the recent acjc girls scandal.
yea i raised an eyebrow at the articles
i was thinking...what are we going to talk about today??
for gp lecture??? o.O
well i didnt quite see the link as yet.
afterwards
she say tech prob (actually just screen purplish la -.-)
so ask us all to move to lt2 with the others
yupps so we went there and join the rest
they were watching a video.

the video was interesting.
quite sad la some parts
and a few parts so funny la
it was channel newsasia
interviewing a few ppl from girls home and 1 from boys home.
yupps about family problems
teenage problems
stuff like why they did it.
whose fault.
parents control.
whether it was right to send them to family court (by parents!!)
etcetc.
quite interesting..
i cant remember the first funny part la
second was the girl saying
she told her mum that its her own fault not her mum fault
coz is she do wrongly
so funny la
she was saying stuff like
her mum very nice to her
let her do everything she wan (HER MUM NOT GD BTW LOL. say later.)
yet she like tt.
last time she can eat all she wants
now she wan eat potato chips also cannot.
must wait parents visit then can eat.
funny part was when she was talking about she miss the food outside.
she said stuff like
she missed food such as macs and a lot a lot la
ppl started laughing
then all started laughing
ok i describe very poorly but well it was quite funny.
the way she said it.
the first one was funnier but i cant rmb.
anyway i was saying. her mum.
wth lor
they interviewed the girl who said that
it was a big blow to her when she did badly in sec sku.
she was a 'smart express stream student' as the cna said.
so when she started failing subs in sec sku
she gave up on her studies.
and the thing is when she gave up on her studies
her parents gave up on her!!!
tt's totally wth lor.
they didnt even TRYYY to help her
TRYY to control her leh.

they interviewed her mum
then her mum said stuff like
the girl dun wna study they also bo bian.
then she say she actually not that bad girl
just dun wan study and dun come home
oh ya this part we laughed too.
ONLY dun come home.
wow. this mum so liberal ya??
then there was a commotion whenthe interviewer asked her
"she dont study.......(i cant rmb what she said
but anyway she listed a few wrongdoings of that girl)
and always dun come home, and you think it's not bad enough???"
she looked appalled.
i heard jollin they all scold the mum behind me lols
coz the mum actually felt that she couldnt control her
she said she couldnt control her further.
she actually said FURTHER lols.
so kim jolin that grp say
she wasnt even CONTROLLING AT ALL
where got FURTHER to talk about.
well. true.
that mum...well. i dunno what to say about her.
the video also showed how the girls have changed
in the girls home.
they learned the right ways
and turned over a new leaf(:

after tt the lecturer also cited an example
she say ten years ago
(btw she looked very young. i was surprised she taught for >10 yrs!!!)
she had a student. sec 3 student.
from a neighbourhood sku which have many trouble students.
that girl was quite a smart girl.
that girl told her one day that she wanted to quit sku.
she was shocked so asked her why.
she say she need to go work
support her family.
the cher tried to convince her not to.
say no future and wont earn much anyway
coz she wan to go kfc work
$3.50/hr! coz 15 yrs old underage ma only there can.
earn $600-$700+ max a mth cant support family anyway!
so cher tried ask her stay
she say can help her get financial aid or sth.
the girl say she have no choice
cher ask her y must her quit sku
she say she is the oldest among 9 CHILDREN at home.
NINE LEH
WOW. haiyo. cher was shocked of coz to hear tt.
we were too.
anyway so cher ask her
why her mum dun go work
U KNOW WHAT SHE SAY???
SHE ANSWERED:"she can't. she's pregnant again"
WTH IS WRONG WITH HER MUM???
so cher asked her
what about her dad?
it's a dumb ques since it cant be with the same dad
that the 10 children came from. 95% not possible.
anyway so she said that
her dad is not with her mum anymore
the 10 children had 3 dads apparently and
all were not with her mum already!
wow. poor girl
i think that mum is really weird
but mainly i think that the mum is verrrrryyyyy IMMATURE
and VERRRYYY DUMB.
and the guys who were with her
are VERRRRYYY evil and )(&#$*(^@@*&%(#
totally cheat her de what!!!!
wth lor all for pleasure only tsktsk.
well just my conjecture but i think
the woman wanted to find a gd father for her kids la
but she failed.
but she really should have stopped having kids.
isnt there sth called contraception anyway -.-
whatever. ANYWAY BACK TO THE LECTUREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

after that cher ask us nominate someone from each class
someone with their own mind own thinking someone...mature?
yupps then got ~6 ppl sabo-ed down.
then audience were told to aim questions at them
regarding either the sex scandals or the video.
first question was "did u watch the 10min video?"
WTH RIGHT LOL everyone laughed LOL
second question was "why did you think the girls did it?"
LOL the guy who was asked looked awkward and we laughed LOL
then the cher skipped both questions of coz HAHA
anyway the whole thing was just DAMN SUPER FUNNY HAHAHAH
a lot of jokers la
after that it got more serious la
but atmosphere was pretty light throughout la
pretty lively i guess.
there was a second round.
more serious le
about parental control.
yupps answers were better coz ppl who went down were more serious.
godwin was sabo-ed by us :P
well he likes to give his opinions ma
and we expected him to use chim words again.
he did la but not much.
anyway it was a really interesting lecture.

most interesting part was actually the teachers!! LOL
the lecturer was a lady.
the one that looked rly young. 20+
but is in fact not that young de.
LOL well and then got another guy one join her ma.
that guy quite cute LOL thats not the pt
anyway.
at one pt of time
coz still discussing the sex scandals part
then the guy said sth like
when sth like tt happen
usu the girl is seen in a worse light.
then the girl snatched his mic and complained about tt statement
then the guy tried explaining himself
IT WAS DAMN FUNNY
COZ HE MENTIONED ER-HEM LOL
who's erhem?? can you guess is who? that made everyone laugh??
lalala. well.
he said that imagine..
in tjc...
something like that happened in the toilet
and was caught by...........MR TONG
just here everyone laughed damn long hahahaha
mr tong is such a...popular figure!!! :D:D:D
so he had a hard time continuing
anyway he said
in a situation like this
usu ppl will think the girl very...cheap
but will look at the guy and think "oo that guy ar..."
he raised his eyebrow a bit weirdly LOL
i think he's trying to say ppl will see the guy as..
erm someone pro or sth -.-
whatever la then there was a little debate there.
the 'panel' of students were asked to voice their opinions.
they were asked for their opinions on such situations
one guy said "they shouldnt have done it in sku"
LOL THAT'S NOT THE PT IS IT?
damn fail eh today education
cher looked exasperated lols
she ask him "so anywhr else can ar?
so they very dumb coz is in sku??"
LOL THEN WE LAUGHED AGAIN HAHAHAHA
ya then he dunno how say so he was like
nodding and then "...at least...get a room"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
DMAN COMICAL LA HAHAHAHA
then ar next guy said sth like "very dumb" la
cher nodded asked him continue
but he ended with "get a room" too HAHAHAHA
it was just damn comical
the cher laughing la
but she look like she wan faint le LOL
i mean.
what is the world becoming???? HAHAHAHAHA
there were some proper answers but just shortshort
nothing much.
all just anyhow crap thru de.
heez i cant rmb much liao la.
there were a lot funny parts.
but then anyway
second part.
more about video being leaked out
the guy talk a lot about nowadays privacy prob
say we no privacy nowadays.
the students were asked a lot about
whether they think we mature enough to handle new media
whether tjcians ok etc
and a lot issues were raised.
someone mentioned about stomp
ppl taking pics put online
is that considered infringing privacy? the guy asked.
yes of coz. we ans LOL
anyway they mentioned one quite a few times
about girls too fat still wear so short skirts de
ppl take pic put up. SO MEAN LOR. tsk -.-
then i went stomp
and saw that recently very recently got similar de!
got one on singaporeseen about one fat lady
wearing verrry...revealing clothes.
but ppl was criticising for that article la
they say she still appeared confident.
say nowadays ppl care a lot about what ppl think of them
but she didnt care.
it was mentioned she from china anyway i think
sg de wont dare ba? o.O
well who knows.
anywy a lot talk about it lor
stomp facebook etc
the girl cher cited another example of her student
she say posted that she kissed another girl. on facebook.
the cher saw la and she found it outrageous
(jollin actually asked how she know it's not just lyrics?
anyway tt grp was daaammnn critical the whole time.
no wonder they hate everyone...)
anyway she was telling us
some employers very smart now
dun need referrals
they go web search our info etc
so when that student went uni 3rd yr apply internship ar
she asked her to take tt post down.
and she did. well.
she asked the panel what was the most embarrasing thing
they posted online
but come on who will say anything -.-
yupps they kept quiet
passing the mic to the end and back again LOL

a lot crap la today lecture.
ok hehe something else
about the er-hem person HEHE
aiya well.
nowadays the young chers ppl like mr XXX ^^ and that guy ^^
and mr XXXX ^^ etcetcetc LOL
very liberal in tots liao hehe
they openly voice their opinions even in front of students haha
it's nice lor.
not so fake ^^
but that guy a bit...LOL la.
when he was talking about privacy ar
he say nowadays ppl no privacy
not like last time girls not allowed to go out at all
THEN THE MAIN THING COMES
he said
last time girls go out must wear skirts that are ankle length
****MR TONG IS BRINGING US BACK TO THAT TIME RIGHT?****
he mentioned the 5cm above knee thing
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WHOLE LECTURE HALL LAUGHED LIKE CRAZY LA
HAHAHAHA DAMN FUNNY LA
he damn dare say lor!
tt was second time he mentioned mr tong!!!
THIRD TIME WAS JUST KILLER MAN
if mr tong know he probably die or sth
not sure if i should mention here anot
coz he say.........................well.
ok anyway say so much liao might as well righT!!!!
anyway also die.
he say sku got bso blog surveying sth.
means they look at students blogs de wor!
he say cannot say coz supposed to be secret lols. hehe.
he cant find this blog can he?????
PLEASE DUN.
i dun wan die so early. i still got a future to carve LOL
LOL ah anyway.
the girl cher also say at her previous sku
they print out posts from students blogs
then when the students have bad records or what
they will show it to their parents wor
WAHH SEHHHH
NOWADAYS AHHHHHHHHHHHH TSKTSKTKTSK
THEY STILL SAY CANNOT INFRINGE PRIVACY
ISNT THIS INFRINGING OUR PRIVACY????
we are just recording daily lives
and grumbling about some stuff
and voicing some opinions etc here what
wth lor like tt no wonder we totally no privacy lor
EVEN SKUS CHECK our BLOOOOGSSSS LIAO!!
BEHIND OUR BACKS SUMMORE
tsktsk.
sounds like mr ang's daily activities eh!!! LOLOLOLOLOL
HAHAHAHA
whatever.
diff consequences. haha.

well tt ends my post about the very interesting lecture ^^
HAHAHA
oh ya
anyway at the end
the guy say this lecture is about "youth"
which he tot is interesting as a starter
next lecture on thurs
would show a video about whether man really landed on moon
or whether it was usa media tricking everyone.
tt was bewildering.
u mean...they cheated the whole world?
and man NEVER landed on moon???
how's that possible??
well we'll see............................

fine im a pig

yes im a pig
whatever :P
theres a lot to say
but im too lazy to think
then write la.
i mean type.
well so yupps
say bye to the pig.
i'll be here still of coz
when i feel like it ^^

021110

hello. haha
sunday ms ang bdae!
wished her happy bdae
and she was rly happy
she said she touched
say she very long nvr meet
such a sweet student like me HAHAHA :P
i was happy to hear tt of coz ^^
but i didnt think it was much la
i prepared present summore!
today passed it to her.
went with veron to give her during first period
coz skip chem ma haha.
then ask her come out staff room
LUCKY SHE NVR ASK WHY LOL
coz i wouldnt know what excuse to give
then yepp
gave it to her
and she was damn touched!!
can see from her face LOL
rly nice to see her surprised face
and she kept saying she rly very touched
kept saying thank u hahaha
^^ so nice heez.
glad she liked it.
she msged me in the afternoon too
tell me thank you ask me if it is XXX
then i say ya hope she like it
she say of coz she like it hahaahhaha ^^
then i say she 100x nicer than mr ang
(sent that to him too LOLLL)
then she say ya but he funnier
then i say he also very nice la
they 2 my fav cher
then she say thx for making her day again heez ^^

hmm i wanted post sth but forgot again......
let me thinnnnnnnnnkkkkkkkkkk
oh and mr ang's blog is updated LOL
MR ANG, HOW MANY PEOPLE READ UR BLOG???
ALL THAT WORK IS DIRECTED TO...??? hahahaha
but fine la all the stuff
im looking forward to holidays. in a way.
i mean. there's no sku!
but well gotta study.
any suggestions for gd studying place??
either go shuting that cc there
or go carol study room LOLLLL
no choice then go sku library -.-
nono. no choice then go carol there haha

hmm what i wanted to say!!!!!
chem lesson today. followed by pw.break.
erm maths lecture was quite fun. towards the end la.
in btw, she ask a girl hugging red bag to wake up
we all tot is shubei LOL
she also tot is her
lucky not...i just closed my eyes too LOL
hahaha but woke up after tt.
at the end got the dunno what door theory pretty cool ^^

next period. op. cancel. so just prepare op stuff.
then lunch.
well anyway i was prac-ing my speech during pw
so very loud
coz we laughed a bit etc
class was very noisy
and elaine was nearby lols
so she was with her grp
discussing i guess
and she glared here.
lunchtime she dunno doing what
me zhenyan veron talking
laughing a bit
then she cover her ears lols.
i not as sensitive as before so didnt rly cared
but i did try to tone down
i wasn't hurt but i was irritated. slightly haha.
but it was fine
coz i know she like peace.
so i dun like sit too near her...
i dun wanna disturb her every pw lesson..
but my grp is like tt de ma -.-
they like to digress too
and elaine complained about us being too loud
and yet not talking about pw before. on her blog haha.
well. well. that wasnt me :P
hmm after tt is free periods. 2.
went library
finished quite a lot of the cll book.
QUITE NICE :D:D:D:D:D was pretty absorbed :D
then op.
yingen grp only 2 ppl today so they didnt do today
another free period
me n zhenyan went crazy
stand in front tried prac
but very high so could do variation and vol and everything LOL
next period
liou jing grp.
our observing cher today came too ask us if we want bring forward ours
so we went diff room.
and mr tong went their classroom watch their grp LOL suay :P
gd in a way la......
our cher was funny. sarcastic ms nansi
she keep imitating us speak
I WAS TOO FAST AGAIN
rly need work on pace, enunciation, articulation.
and stop looking at my cue cards
she say i know my script well
dunno why still keep look at script when there is no need to
maybe coz i have it in my hand
so habit keep look
though i know what to say.
but i think i was nervous
i wasnt rly tt familiar with my script haha.
she asked gd questions for q&a too!
after tt
to avoid someone
i went library with zhenyan
veron joined us
then i finishd my cll book
the ending DAMN DUMB
NO ENDING DE ENDING LOR
the 2 ppl fighting ma
then 1 could kill the other liao
last strike.
then all the tots about whether he should or should not.
should. why.
should not. why.
then END THERE
WTH???
SO IS KILL OR NVR KILL???
crap -.-
lousy ending :P
but that author is a classic 武侠 writer.
very famous. 金庸 famous for them.
he's rly good la...
cher say he was the only one
who is studied when he still alive
haha coz the other classics is studies
only after the authors died
but this guy still alive!

cannot rmb whatever i wanted to write.
but anyway maths got assignment.
3 promo papers i think.
and got vector notes liao.
just now veron on bus tell me
sth like...
"aiya u get the maths assignment
sure finish by tonight right!"
then i roll my eye at her and say
'RIGHT! ur the mugger, NOT ME
it's soo absurd to say that!"
if i have time i would start on it
but i wouldnt finish it.
and anyway no time la
pw haven edit finish my video.
still need prepare cll for tmr......................

Audi

I like playing Audi
Always did
Since years ago
But I hate losing
Rly
So it's rly irritating to play with my cousin
Zp la
He ar -.-
Not that he pro keep winning eh
Its just it's competitive
Like both rly wan win lols haha
Just that I'm the sore loser-.-
I rly siao liao
Play also can play until pek chek -.-
Zzz
Just now play until feel like smashing the keyboard
Hahahhha sot
Coz it's rly irritating to keep miss miss miss
Damn zzzz de leh!!
Hand not listening to instructions haha
Irritating.
Then he playing very well
Over there chaining perfects zzz
And I pek chek over missing ah
He still over there harping on not getting his high score -.-
Pretty irritating
Told him to shut up lols
That's rare I seldom do that to him
We are rather close cousins
But he's rly irritating sometimes -.-
Felt like telling him to watch his mouth sometimes
Very insensitive person...sometimes.
Well he dc-ed so while waiting I come post haha
But he doesn't look like he's coming back o.O
Oh he's bk

secret! :X

these few days busy with pw
havent been posting much.
lazy le also
tt mr ang already stopped posting
on his blog
for quite long liao haha
no fun de nth to see le hahahaha

anyway i was thinking
i haven't been keeping anything from
readers of this blog, have i?
everything also post.
gd also post bad also post.
everything post.
haven't been a problem
here de ppl trustworthy
i hope. hahaha :P

but there is always things
that we cant tell everyone right...
only shuting know currently.
haha.
something...erm...nice??
ok maybe not nice.
it's really super damn irritating sometimes
seldom rly nice
but it's usu fine.
dun rly know what to do.
it's not exactly the first time it has happened.
few times le actually.
but diff.
this time, my attitude is diff.
i grow up le ok
i dun anyhow le hahahaha
now i think before i act...
but this makes things complicated.................

lazy

wanted to post about just now de
but aiya suan le la
haiz.

anyway my phone rly gonna spoil le lor
com also!!!
cham sia haha
need quick buy lappy liao
phone need use at least half a yr more...

tip thing
i ws inspired by the lady to stay on
but then
after seeing my allocation....
CLEMENTI
NO PAY
9-5
MUST WEAR RED
NEED INTEREST IN ART/MUSIC
etcetc
then sianz liao.

come home
tell mum
nvr say whr
just say very far
then she ask me dun go
i also considering.
after some tot.
i was already thinking of withdrawing anyway
haha so....well.
im withdrawing then.
shall NOT think abt gd things involved haha

leave me alone!!!

I REALLY FEEL LIKE
STOP BEING NICE
AND JUST SHOUT AT THOSE TWO
TO LEAVE ME ALONE MAN~~~~~~~~
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
SUPER IRRITATING EHHHH
haiyo.
my bad la
shouldnt have been nice in the first place
then wont lead them on
now i also dunno what to do liao
zzzzzzzzzzzz

:((((

Today woke up at 8
left at 9.30
met friends
shall skip the details. secret. haha.

then 12+ supposed to meet shuting
tt idiot pig late for 1 whole hour
and 30 mins dun pick up phone )#(%(@*&%(*@#*%
i was worried lor
i scared she dunno what happened
coz phone dun pick up
and so long nvr appear
lucky she finally pick up
say reach le
in the end took another 10 mins to reach lols
then dun let me eat lunch
ask me go buy stuff with her first
my stomach already growled for 1 hr lor haha
nvm i very nice de haha
so went buy her pw stuff some art stuff
i took my revenge happily
suaned her like crazy the whollle time LOL
all the way till we parted today LOL
it was fun((:

come home
was late so mum angry
naggednagged. only 6pm lor for goodness sake.
whatever man just ignored her
spoil my day immediately AS USUAL
whatever.
after tt it was better le so dun care.

then after dinner
do wr.
DAMN SHIT WTH
IM FUMING MAD MAN
WTH LA THEY ALL
THEY HAVE MORE TIME AND LESS WORK THAN ME LEH
MUST THEY DO THIS TO ME????
OUT TO KILL ME LOR SERIOUSLY
THIS KIND OF WORK
tt day zhekang and sherm wasnt arnd
to listen to ms ong say about wr stuff
so FINE. though i did write stuff down for them le.
whatever
just now i used shuting laptop see sherm's part
just browsed thru la
then saw one part she should change but didnt.
damn zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
but she always like tt so i not so big reaction.
just now open zk de chapter 1.
nothing much to change in the first place
so nothing wrong. fine. ok
i was still happily doing.
then chapter 2.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
she highlight parts she changed and stuff
then she highlighted parts that NEED substantiation
BUT has NO substantiation
so she highlight is to tell me i need find for tt is it????
what the crap
EVERYTIME EVERY SINGLE TIME
they give me wr ar
also like tt de.
i ALWAYS have to find evidence for them
the footnotes got damn alot
more than half i find de lor-.-
yea they agreed and they know
tt's about it they aren't improving.
susan not tt efficient member usu also
she always dun give me evi de
always her part that needs evi also la.
so i was just slightly irritated.
sherm volunteered to help
when i put on my display name ask them
stop giving me THEIR work lols
thanks. but she wasnt able to give me usable ones.
susan was there to listen to ms ong tt day leh!!!
ms ong got mention structure dunno how many times lor
then she got say one part need shift in front etc
BUT SUSAN DIDNT LOR ZZZZZZZZZZZZ
leave for me do again. zzzzzzzzzzzz

anyway i was thinking
they all give me problems sia
zhenyan de wont ba?
she best member liao
take initiative and everything de
so i didnt rly think will
summore she also listened attentively that day
and she got actual copy of comments summore
she usu will see everything de
IN THE END LEH
ZZZZZZZZZZZz
EVEN ZHENYAN
EVEN MY BEST MEMBER MISSED OUT STUFF FOR ME TO DO :(
but it's not that big thing la actually.
it's just that
it felt damn horrible leh
they all like tt
i havent seen zk de chapter 5
but i dun wanna see le la :(
so upset lor

so i went complain to shuting
with a lot of )(*%(*@%(^@(#$(#*& hahahaha
then we were planning to assassinate our pw members
coz she also grp leader hahahaha poor thing de lor :P
anyway i was just damn irritated.
then mr ang was telling me he went udders again LOL
LIFE UNFAIR SIA!! LOL
then he say after reservist
will treat me n veron to udders!
i saw le i burst into tears sia -.-
me sot le.
no la coz i was very irritated and upset at tt time
then suddenly felt very touched lols.
thank you cher haha (;
mr ang best cher ever hahahaha :D:D:D
anyway i shall calm down and continue on the stupid wr.
im so gonna crap it thru and get pw over and done with.
don't YOU dare come haunt me again
AND PLEASE. come on i want my A.....................
it's such a waste if i dun get an A.................
if i can actually predict i wont get an A
i would just stop doing man..............zzzzzzzzzz

H3

Ahhhh can't decide btw nus n ntu modules!!!!

Complicated ar...

Today started out with me being late to meet with jos haha
But lucky nvr late for sku
And it was raining so heavily lor haha
Anyway nth impt

Maths lecture
It felt rlyrly gd to see my name up there
Other than the fact tt it was on the last page and it was the third last name
Haha well better than nth.
And ms ang say she proud of me wor
I was rly happy to hear tt^^
Mr ang say he was too
Though he expected me to do much better
Say I hvent put in enough effort
Which is true of cozzzzz
Well.
I know.
And as usual I'm easily affected haha
So after sku I tot about it
And decided I shall do maths tonight haha
I have decide to do at least a bit of work everyday
I dunno how much I'll do
But I hope I won't go a day doing zero work
If free then do more lo...
Hope it helps

Just now in sku
Collected cll notes for the rest etc la
Then after tt
Zhenyan take the box hit my head
Definitely got sound what
BUT IT DIDN'T SOUND HOLLOW LOR hahahha
Anyway she say it's empty &(@$:$@@;$/
Hahhahahahha damn funny
So I tried to hit her back
And I succeeded
I say hers produced same sound
She say hers is got material de ok
Insist mine empty LOL hahaa
Then afterwards I told her
I will win her in mct
See who head empty hmph
LOL I was just playing arnd
But it was a nice tot
I will win her(:
I say this time is nvr study lor
She say she also haha
Whatever!! Dun care!!! I can do it!!!

I got drop form and h3 appeal form today
Filled it in and handed in to mr ng liao le
Tmr he will pass to my tutors
I scared they dun approve of my h3 ehhh
:( they say at least 13 grade pts needed
I 12 only ehh
And grades dun meet criteria either
How:(
Zhenyan can leh
Ver say she can meet the 13 pts thing also wor
So gd:(

Char also wan take h3
Think she applying for maths too
We were disussing see nus or ntu de better
I'm not sure either
But I tot ntu won't disrupt lessons
So I tell her go for ntu wor
dunno leh

OH SHIT I FORGOT STATE MY CHOICE ON THE PAPER
LOL SO DUMBBBBB HOW SIAAAA
Zzz Tmr shall do sth about it...

Anyway after tt sth happened
It's quite...lols
Aiya I believe it won't last so Im not very affected
But for now it's a bit weird
Its rly weird
But aiya not rly a bad thing
I promised myself to stay away de
So well I'm fine with it
I haven't swayed yet haha
All the best heez


AHH I'M WORRIED ABOUT MY H3 FORM!!
Oh and I'm dropping chem completely wor...
Hope it's not the wrong decision...

haizzzzzzzz

supposed to be quite a gd day
why i end up crying again?
so no surprise de
i very irritated at myself sia
everything also cry
so useless
very dumb eh
cry what cry la
everything also cry
water very precious de leh.........
zzzzzzzzzzz

but seriously............zzzzzz
so tired.
i feel damn tired.
when i was studying in sku
i was happy
i willingly studied
happily
rly studied.
did my notes
although slow
but i did it
and i did it willingly
everything was great
i seldom studied so relaxed.
it was great.
it helps being relaxed and happy
i realise tt's what keeps me going.
the only way to study is being stress-free.
really.

coz just now my mum come ask me those
then she saw me watch show
come complain again
i rly felt so upset.
so tired.
mentally.
so i paused the show.
called her name slowly
turned to her
and said in an exasperated/tired tone
tell her.
u know, i studied for 3+ hours just now eh
and it's just after exams eh
MUST U DO THIS TO ME???

i scared i lose the mood to study eh
tt MUST NOT happen
but i scared......
coz she's giving me stress again
i very scared.
argh :(
:'(
i hate the feeling.
stress.
rly.
it's rly killing me sometimes.
and she didnt even have to say much

to me
the only way i can study well
is when I myself WANT to study
whenever they start pushing me
start pressing
and scolding me
i cant do it anymore
it's always like tt
since young.
but they just nvr get it........
:'(

rly feel like telling them
不要这样，不要再管我的学业，
我宁愿自己读，自己逼自己，
我还有朋友的帮助，
你们逼我只会让我更读不下去，很累。
这会弄巧反拙而已。。。够了。。。

no break

haiz.
before exam
i told my mum
that after exam
i will still be quite busy
thx to pw.

but these few days quite slack
i come home keep watch show lols
then just now
she ask why nth do de
keep watch show
no work meh
i tot u say u very busy?
so i ask her
u wan me keep do work dun rest at all isit
then she nvr say anything
she wasnt harsh la
but i was rly tired
i was supposed to go bathe
but i was rly tired
so just sit on the sofa and relax lols
i do work lor.
i studied in sku le lor...
i got study de lor
at home cant study de
might as well dun waste my time.
and i also wan some break la...
tired leh.
i am so not satisfied with my results either...
then she came in a while ago again
ask me
whether one A can go uni
i say dunno
she say go ask cher
i totally dunno what to say
so she expect me to get this for As
great
thanks
tt totally helps
tts sooooo nice of her
so encouraging
wow.
great.

my decision

well i wanted to post
another HOWHOWHOW post haha
coz i dunno wan drop chem to h1 or completely
but then i guess i have come to my decision.
i tot for a while.
and i talked to mrs low just now too.
after the chers' meeting
it was funny coz i walk past the doors
to lt3 or lt4
then all the chers swarm out haha
quite scary

anyway talked to her
she said the usual stuff la actually
she say content is really pretty heavy
she expected me to do much better than what i did this time
coz jct wasnt tt bad
but then. well. lols
she say i, like many others, lack practice
yepp i agree
i practically didnt study
wellwell.
she say if i can push myself to work hard
i can do it de
she say if i have the time and willing to push
then h1 is fine.
she's fine with me taking h1.
but if not and anyway no use to future course
then forget it. just drop.

well i wanna conc on other subs. rly.
actually i would gladly drop econs instead
but then it's more possible to come into use
so yea shall keep econs
and i will throw chem away.
im not sure of my decision yet actually
but more or less la.
i scared i sway still
but i know once i rly decide
i wont regret coz it's my decision in the end
i dun like regret
but before tt
i need to confirm my decision.

anyway tt's it.
bye chem. tt's my decision for now.
hope it doesnt change.
before it change i should quickly go get drop form LOL

I AM GOING TO APPEAL FOR H3 MATHS
SERIOUSLY
i dun care la.
without chem my grades are ADD/D lols
char AAAB/C wor
see she so pro haha
not bad leh she econs still B lols.
im in char's portal acc HAHAHAHA
hack her acc
coz i know her ic hahahaha
damn pro lehhhhhh
her physics is 98%!!!!
WA econs 94%!!!!
maths 92% i 95% :D:D:D
but all damn gd ehh haha tsktsk..
think she wan h3 too
either maths or chem i think
o.O
i told her take maths with me hahaha :D
then can everything ask her help hehe
and it would be nice to go lesson with her agn.
its been so long(:

OH YA
TODAY DAMNNNNN
i dunno is funny or scary la
at first it was funny
i laughed like crazy at them
but then it got so scary
i was freaking out LOL
sudden change.
well from the beginning...

pw op lesson
wanshan group present
today is MS ANG observe again! :D
i wrote comments for them again haha
before tt i was damn tired
oh waitwait rewind.

before tt was chem lecture.
i wanted to pon and stay in library study
or read my cll book
in the end they scare me say
scully mr tong come etc
nobody stay with me
in the end i went lecture too
slept for 75% of the lecture as usual.
i can never stay awake for a chem lecture seriously.
ok. once i did. actually did. lols
yea lor so i slept
then go pw lesson
still damn tired coz i just woke up LOL

yea so super tired.
so i ask ying en if still need write comments
she see i very tired
she say its ok tired then nvm
so i a bit softhearted liao LOL
was considering.
then kailun come say MUST WRITE MUST WRITE
i was like WTH???
so bu ke qi de tsk
i doing a favour here ok! haha
but thinking of the other 3 nice ppl
i still wrote for them ^^
i like being nice
although zhenyan keep suaning me
say be nice to them no use de
they wont appreciate
be nice to them still get bullied de
whats the pt etc
lols i tell her
be nice to others not to get anything back
it's called being NICE
it doesnt necessarily have to be seen as a favour
lols ((:

anyway.
after their presentation.
half the class gone
susan suddenly made a suggestion to us
she say wan bring our actual comic
and show to examiners for our op
zhenyan say no pt
she say no use
etc
then they started arguing
just light argument nth much
i tried to think
see which side i agree with
but i ok with both haha
so i shut up
listen to their argument
see who can convince me haha

then it got slightly heated
so i tell zhekang they fighting
i was laughing already LOL
coz actually not very tense la
just argument it's pretty comical
they werent actually fighting
it was loud and fast but light atmosphere relatively
then ms ang left the class halfway thru.
she didnt realise anything i guess haha
then become zhekang and zhenyan argue
i was still laughing quite badly
but then i saw shermaine using her laptop
with earphones and all lols wth
how can she 置身事外?? it's her grp members quarreling here.
so i shouted at her tell her they arguing
ask her make her stand etc
she seesee a while
say aiya just let them argue la
then went back do her thing -.-
ahhh ignore her la
i continued laughing at them LOL
after tt zhenyan tell me she wasnt angry de la
just playing arnd also
trying to get her pt thru at the same time
haha
yea still pretty light n funny atmosphere
slightly tense

then it got more and more heated
but still ok.
i was getting a little worried.
and everyone was staring at them
asking them cool down
they shouting over kim's head LOL
damn funny kim looked scared HAHA
then things got bad
when susan suddenly came over and joined in
she was damn agitated la
zzzzzzzzzzz
super agitated lor her.
practically shouting
so zhenyan got mad too
then well zhenyan got so angry she just took her stuff and left
she said they wasnt listening to her pt
and she dont agree with their pt either
then she left
nvr wait for me even :( haha
anyway by then i was freaked out
our group always had tt tension
but first time break out de.
i was scared lols.
anyway i went find zhenyan
and i heard miranda say "our group is kailun and wanshan.
they fight de lor" LOL
damn funny. i know about tt hahahahaha.
those two are practically enemies now.
LOL wanshan usu very nice
but when come to kailun
she rly can be sooo sarcastic i was shocked HAHA
but nice one man :D hahahaha

anyway i found zhenyan
we discussed
i think me n zhenyan much closer by now
and i think im a pro at dealing with her anger liao LOL
appeased her easily.
tt time zhekang made her angry
during pw meeting ma
i noe how de la
so i just continue discuss with zhenyan
she still looked a bit pissed but she will answer and help
tt insensitive zhekang still tell me
sth like later then do. she cannot do work with angry ppl
then ask zhenyan appease or sth
i was like LOL leave it to me man hahahahaha
no la i didnt say tt i tot that. hahahaha
anyway i just continued
and things were fine haha
zhenyan's an amazing person.
an all-work person.
she very serious about work de.
so its easy.
if ur serious she will be
and she will be fine ^^
she's a nice person. really haha

then after sku
i studied with her.
ytd too.
today did a lot
coz dismiss early ma
oh ya wanshan told us civics is at 1.20pm sia
so we tot still damn long time
so went library study
in the end
12.58 she call me
say civics is at 1250
she say wrongly LOL
then we chiong there hahahaha
but nth much
i just saw them all arnd mr ng's com
looking at grades
coz morning when i see
gp not out
but by then all out
mr ng say all promote worrrr
but shermaine say she maybe wan drop out lols.
i tot of sth horrible lols
i tot "then why come and join our pw in the first place"
LOL damn mean
but well not like she did totally nth
without her we will hve slightly more work after all
i should scold myself for tt tot hahahaha
whatever la.

so we ended at 1.18
and went library study cll
till 3+ i meet mrs low
then study again
till 4.50+
then left
but i damn slow
zhenyan completed one poem
i not even halfway thru my 古文
hahahaha but i feel accomplished
coz i didnt feel sianz at all doing cll just now
i was tired and i slept a bit in btw
20-30 mins i think
zhenyan did too. before me haha
but we rly did work(:
it was nice :D
sku library rly gd for studying
but then hols come bk so troublesome
i rly gotta find somewhr else tt's rly conducive............
anu suggestions?
shuting tt time de place would be gd............
but then dunno can go anot..........

should i? should i not?

should i withdraw from tip?
i need study eh...............zzz
i dunno leh howhowhow
SHOULD I WITHDRAW?
if u were me, would u?
with these results,
would u go on an internship for one whole mth?
well can learn things there la
but 1 mth eh..
can use to study eh.........

anyway im so happy with gp :D:D:D:D:D
i tot i off topic
i tot its ruined. screwed.
but well i didnt do extremely well
but it's gd enough :D:D:D

appreciation

first sth beside the topic

HOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
i never know how to say no lols
a bit too late leh how ar
but then actually i think ok de leh
but my friends say better not leh -.-
aiyo how sia hahahaha
suan le la i think....................
SHOULD BE OK RIGHT??!?!?! argh.
nvm. crapcrap. haha
ANYWAY TOPIC!

today pe damn suck!!!
ran to east coast and back
maybe coz too long nvr run le
maybe coz breakfast
i couldnt run
ran with carol there
walked almost half the way
reach there almost died
a bit nauseous
coming back
i 90% walk lols.
couldnt take it la
almost vomited eh
walkwalk still ok
when stop at traffic light
felt super nauseous
reached sku left a bit chiong back lor
walked to the bags there sat down
when getting up to leave
nauseous again
ugh damn ugh haha
stupid pe!!
stupid ecp!
felt so uncomfortable just now
still need change into uni eh! tsk.

gp ar i realised the ques i wrote
I WAS THE ONLY ONE IN CLASS WHO WROTE
lols i already regretted anyway
coz its quite tough
i think i off topic le tskk zzz

anyway my post title today
APPRECIATION!
today pw op
wanshan group and veron group.
i wrote comments for them while i listened
questioned a lot stuff
picked up stuff
commented quite a lot.
wrote down on paper ma
after wanshan they all finished
i passed to them
they looked so touched wow.
i just...wanted to do lols.
scared bored or sth ba or just suddenly feeling nice hahahaha
didnt think they would be so happy haha
i passed to wanshan she see le
give ying en
ying en call me and say thank you looking rly surprised eh!
LOL i was so touched by their act of appreciation.
i appreciate their appreciation haha.
veron's grp
i passed to jiaying
she look at it then looked 'WOW' too hahahaha
then she asked who write de
i say me
and she said tahnk you sincerely too! wow....
i was surprised.
i nvr tot it was tt big deal at all...
i was so happy hahahahaha
it really feels great to be appreciated.
though i nvr meant for it lols((:
glad they liked it. glad they found it useful
i still scared they feel offended or sth lols :P

cham

die la results so bad :(((

Haiz

Zhenyan angry again:(
She this few days also very bad mood
Easily angry
Esp coz of PW...
She's very intolerant of Shermaine already lols
Haiz what to do
But...
She angry ar like scolding me as well eh
:(

moody

I'm like already in a damn bad mood today
and my dad has to add fuel to it
wts.
today a lot of near-crying
and veryshort crying lols.
no real crying la
mostly just teary
pms la haha

maths was gd i guess
kailun didnt say anything surprisingly
i was worried coz she was sitting behind me
but luckily nth :D
zhenyan did well too((:

cll sucks
seriously.
i tot i can do ok for tt de leh
so damn disappointing
really.
result of not studying.
44/100. nice.
and so many 60+ and 70+ around
im worried even more moderation
can i pass???
i was relying on this to pass!
shit la.
hopefully plus jct de can pass la
since pretty close to passing.
h3 probably no hope.
but i'll still try.
no harm trying ma.

anyway was in a bad mood today in sku
got quite pissed a few times
coz we went library as a class during gp
cher say gp post mortem all go borrow books
there got 3 classes sia
so crowded haha
anyway we took books le
then go queue to borrow
so long queue lor
then veron behind me ma
she say she got lesson after lunch
we break ma
so i say let her go first la since we longer time
but then she going lunch with us anyway
then i say suan le lor
going tgt anyway
then she say i 假好心
wth ok lor whatever lor
then i just shut up lor
she know i not happy la
then keep pushing me from behind -.-
wan 撒娇 ar???
haha but i smiled la hehe
irritating ver haha
haiya
反正就是today keep mood swings la
a bit also unhappy
then next sec ok le -.-
pms sia LOL

i was upset about cll for a pretty long time
but anyway ms ang say i can still try
she will fill in anything she can
so yea try lor.

pw elaine group do op
mr ng watch
he damn critical
so scary
but actually its gd
with criticism comes improvement
but he last teacher to see ours leh
zzz we wont be able to change much le
by the time he see ours
hope its gd by then...........
but elaine grp so poor thing just now
he say their project like no project
only got pilot test wor lols
quite cham.
but true lor. a lot of grp also leh...

just now come home
i was still moody haha
then i forgot what happened also
just not very happy la then go into toilet
close door
cried a bit
just a liiiittlle bit
outburst. twice.
sot le me.
cut wrong wire -.-

oh ya before tt
i sit at my desk play monopoly on my ipod again.
play game leh also got teary once LOL
coz when ur in bad mood
nth goes smoothly
everything appears horrible
so i was losing what
then i scolded myself say why ppl can i cannot.
then i got upset
coz i tot about maths and cll and everything
i was thinking
why ppl could get 90+ for maths i couldnt
why ppl can get 60+ 70+ for cll i couldnt
and i got teary.
zzzz then i scold myself for being dumb
think of that for what dumb use -.-
i just have to work harder......really........
really really harder.................. :'(

then just now
~10 mins ago
our house phone line sot again
it's always like tt
suddenly like cut off like tt
cannot call or receive call
the line is DAMN lousyt
then need off the modem and re-on
anyway my dad did that
and he sot
go bang bang bang the modem on the table
i was using his monitor and my com ma
his monitor already more or less spoil lor
table shake a bit then ir black out
so when he bang ar
it blacked out again
then i was like wthhhhhh
bang what bang la
u bang will ok meh zzzz
then he went crazy
go reset the com
no rxn
he bang the computer -.-
still nth
and then he kicked it
WTH LOR WHATS WRONG WITH HIM
anyway he tortured the computer until it came alive la
i was telling him
my work tmr need hand in de eh wth
then i tear again
crap.
argh.
very bad mood today. really.
and then everything has to happen today.
i cant rmb if there's anything else...

shuting msn me ask me jy and i teary again lols -.-
i really owe a lot to my friends ((:

saw carol in sku
she very upset ytd about chem
she did very badly i think
she didnt say how much
but she very sad
she hugged me in the LT lols
so i was trying to comfort her
today saw her
she ask me about maths
i say ok lor
then she hug me again
say quite bad
i say got pass de right
she say ya la
then i say ok what!!
then told her must go j2 with me ar! haha
scully become i cant go...... -.-


CHOY :P

hope

today gave elaine her card and stars etc
and i realised
those who did the least talked the most and loudest
they are nice of coz
express themselves
but isnt it always just words???
o.O
anyway
i was thinking of the meaning of this thing
coz i dunno how effective it will be
it's definitely not as gd as practical help
but she's happy and touched
gd enough.
didnt waste my time folding stars for her
when i could have went for lunch.
didnt waste my time smsing everyone
quite a few helped
very nice ppl
some nvr do anything but as i said
talked the loudest
the huggy ppl lor
went hug her and everything lols
they werent even bothered at all at first.
but well
hope she's ok.
hope the class will be ok.
all the best to 3010(:

i keep telling my friends
i supposed to 和好 with elaine
but i haven't because the reason we split
is because our characters clash
even if we he hao i think will split again anyway
so i just left it as it is.
but deep in.
i wonder.
is that the only reason?
im not sure also.
i cant say what the other reason is
i also dunno what it is
there is just the little doubt there
maybe pride? or fear?
but i am confident
i do care for her
i do care my friends lor...
at least i tot i did to her last time
maybe i didnt do everything
but i did all i can and i can say
i did more than anyone else in class lor.
if we are friends again. lols.
things like her bag being left alone at upper gallery
wont happen de.....
i wont leave it there :(
if i saw it that day i would have at least
told veron they all or sth
but anyway what was she expecting???
i mean
she sat with kailun they all leh
FEI HUA
of coz they wont take for her
lols not everyone cares and kailun definitely doesnt.
aiya dun care la.
my attitude towards her is ever-changing
and complicated
before i sort it out properly im not doing anything
coz sometimes i feel quite irritated
feel like gurumbling and complaining bout her
sometimes still see her as a friend
and feel like helping her or sth lols
but well. she's not happy with me still.
tt day pw in KI room 2
our grp was pretty noisy
lols and well she was very annoyed lols.
not my fault la
there are ppl in the group who digress non stop ma
i tried my best to stop them la..........

anyway today got back econs 1 essay
and chem essay too
econs 13/25
cher was lenient if not part 2 sure get 0 or 1 mark
then die lols.
chem essay bad only 11/40
hongwen and jos got 10/40
carol said she did very badly and for mcq too
but i dunno how much
char got 31/40
lalala~i can only say
she's char after all.
she may not be the best like BEST
but she's always among the best ppl.
tt's her.
every subject eh.
she died for econs in jct la
wonder this time how.
haiz. she's so her
our clique's pride hehe

Sth to add

Cher say he also dun like kailun
Coz her attitude etc wor
Lols nice haha
Ok la I usu ok de
Just sometimes it gets really annoying only la..
Cher say I'm cheerful and easygoing LOL
HAHAHA nice
But I like to grumble eh
Always emoemo then grumble grumble
But after tt then ok liao
Haha :D
I made ms ang day today by calling her pretty
Haha coz she very pretty today haha
So funny
I ask her tell mr ang she very pretty is he no taste
Then she say later he cannot take it so better not
So I say ya he old man weak heart LOL
Then she told him and he come question me HAHA so funny la :D

Cher broke a lot rules for me ya?
Haha tts y his students all praise him
Saw weizong ytd he also say cher damn nice lols
He said too nice haha
Yea true la too nice
^^ thanks cher hehe:D

烦啊烦啊。。。

好烦啊
怎么每次这样就来打华语呢？
或许华语更适合发泄吧。。。
不过今天。不想那样
不知道为什么但是。。。
算了

My pt is I shall type in el
Damn crap day
Well it started out ok
I wasnt late for sku
38 came slightly earlier even
So I reached slightly earlier
Gd thing
Then after that got the news from Cher
I'm honestly not happy with it
But...wasnt very upset. Not for long la.
It was gd enough. Just that...
Still diappointing...
I expected more though I know can't reach my goal
But...whatever
This is insignificant compared to... I dunno what...
I can still jy (:

After tt
Filmed skit
Took quite a few tries
But anyway it's done
And I have to do editing...
Shit la
I'm worried I can't do a gd job
This isn't a casual thing
This is for OP eh
Must be gd...

I wonder how a DEAD NONLIVING thing
Like PW can be so damn irritating and annoying
And why are some ppl unaffected by it
Argh
Argh

Yesterday
Zhenyan grumbled a lot about Shermaine lols
Coz she was in a really bad mood
And Susan was not arnd (at first uncontactable)
Shermaine there equals not there
It doesn't make a diff.
Seriously.
I know. But what can I do?!!!
Haiz
And u know what?
She wrote us a note each...........
LOL??? When I read it
I totally dunno how to respond
I totally felt like rolling my eyes.....
But I controlled not to
Zk say I looked pissed
Then I laughed and say no la
Then I observed zhenyans expression when she read it
Lols nice same as mine.
Yea gd we felt the same.
Lols she apologized.
For being able to help much when her ahgong passed away
Say will do more though not much left
Say she can help edit wr etc
Lols ok. Well she always say stuff like tt
And that is the least she should apologize for
Her ahgong pass away is can understand de
Is other times tt is really annoying....
And she ALWAYS tell me she can help will help
But never see her take initiative before...
And her work also substandard de
For goodness sake
She CAN do better than tt de!
She really can.
When she actually helps when we arnd
Like researching some quote for us today
She can give gd work de
But usu it's just no gd.
Give me additional work only.

Just now we went KI room 2 for PW after filming ma.
Then she on her laptop I say I wan see if can edit usin her com
She tell me ok. Wait ar.
So I wait.
Then she say she do sth first then I org
Then she plug in her earpiece into the laptop
And shared it with zk
And watched I dunno what
For I dunno how long
I ask her three times while she watch she just waitarwaitar
Crap-.-
Then after tt I went dunno whr
Should toilet or lunch la
Come back
Saw her on her laptop on another table
I was like what's she doing???
Coz we supposed to be solving Q&A questions.
Then I strain my eyes a bit
Nice she on fb chatting.
....
After tt she realize I'm back
Then she turn and tell her what she found
Wth? Found le cannot tell first ar?
Wait for what? Wait tmr meh
Summore not even usable
Must we evaluate the source for her??
That quote is by an unknown person leh of coz cannot la
Then she go find another quote
While switching to fb few times in btw
Haiz.
I ignored her la
Then we just think for Q&A lor
Lucky I nvr believe her note ytd lols
Not trustworthy...

Then TIP interview
I was nervous haha
Could feel my heart beating really fast
But ok la
I didn't answer much actually
First question i dunno how answer
Then after the first person
I know what to say le
So I wanted raise hand
But too late
So someone else answered
Then the interviewer nvr ask if we wan answer anot le leh
So too bad
Second question hmm I didn't rly answer ba
But anyway he linked it to exp
So I did answer
Say my cca de mentoring etc
Then he check if we can commit or anot etc lor
29/11 to 24/12 wor. Normal working hours.
Lols I ok la.
Then somehow he say one of the companies
There's only two I think
The learninglab ar
Wan science students
I was like wth?????
Then I only left 50% chance??
O.O crap lols
Whatever. Good luck.

After tt went back the room where the class was
Everyone slacking
They say finished Q&A le
So I ok lor
Meeting ms ong at 245 so everyone just slack
Till 245 lols.

245 meet her
Get back our WR
lols well.
Quite a bit of problems
Ok quite a lot
And we already exceeded word limit by a loooot
Yet need add so much stuff
I can predict trouble.
Then cher say hand in by Friday
We were like HUHHHH
So short time!!!!
Argh
Totally wth
Throughout the meeting
Shermaine so distracted
Coz she got some meeting after tt
She was late so she SMS them
Then they called etc la
Then she left early
Dunno how much she listened
Her part largest problem le
Coz of her substandard work that I totally wan vomit blood at
That I didn't bother editing tt day lols

Yet she still like tt
I really dunno what to do le la
Howhowhow
Wan give her more work but scared she don't do it well...
Hope she do her chapter 4 evaluation WELLLLLL Argh
Don't they realize wr and op is 40% each????
Dun screw it up plz...

Just the thought of them handing it in late to me
And I'll have to look thru every word of it
For dunno how many times
To edit and cut short xxxx
They only need do their part for WR
I need do video editing while I wait for them to finish
Then I need chief edit WR in whole
and then probably find some way to put video into ppt
Haiz ppt push to someone else la
Just the thought of all of it is giving me a headache
I dunno why I felt so annoyed
Super annoyed
Whole trip home
Just annoyed
Angry expression haha
And I speed walk home annoyed lols
Till
I bought a drink
Then I stroll
Drag feet lols -.-
Haiz felt damn sianz I think
How can a NONLIVING thing be soooo annoying???
PW IS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME ANS EMOTIONS AND BRAIN JUICES!!!!!

hi peeps

yepp hi haha.
well.

i forgot to add in the previous post.
right before our cll exam
she still talking about chem ma -.-
then she say say le better
then i was like but ppl around her hear till very fan leh
then she was like 折磨别人比折磨自己好
wth????
so selfish thinking ya? o.O
lols anyway enough about her.
im not irritated about her anymore
just stating.

friday went with parents to see doctor
coz mum tt time leg injured still havent fully recover
still pain i think
now the other leg also pain wor
she say hands also start aching haha
i tell her ya old liao old liao...
we went very early much earlier than appointment time
near heartland mall
so we went mall and walked a bit
then mum went doctor
me n dad walk a bit more
nvr talk la nth to say to him
then he walkwalkwalk left the mall
i saw him walk into guardian ma
so i just stroll stroll
then went in
but he gone le leh
then dunno whr he go to
also dun care me
in the end i call him
then found him
then realised he was going to my mum there le leh
the clinic there.
it was the first time i there leh
so i dunno my way around
he going find my mum liao
i not with him he also dun care wor?
wth
i was thinking
i might as well just really get lose
sit there
see how long he take to realise im gone
then bother to call me
-.-
whatever. then just ignore him after tt.
what can i say...

oh ya when we were in the mall
we went cold storage i dunno for what dumb use
then i saw an...interesting? scene
3...siblings i think.
then the brother tell the younger sister to go find their mum
very fiercely
the sister look so scared and innocent
then blurblur de nvr say anything
the elder sister beside the brother tell him
wan go buy dog food
younger sister say also wan go
brother scold her
say cannot.
ask her go away go find their mum
say they are enemies
LOL????? so bully sia?!?!?!
lols -.-

anyway.

then today.
my group come my house for pw
shermaine not here AGAIN
im quite used to her absence liao -.-
this time she has piano AND ballet lessons
i wonder y she taking them at this age
but whatever.
always valid reasons. what can i say.
anyway so we edit ppt and script lor
went kfc eat
then continue
zk let us watch a video
damn cool
a girl called charice
go listen to her duet with Celine Dion
at the Madison Square Garden or sth
DAMN COOL
her voice.......POWERRRR :D
then halfway
suddenly my com sot
monitor suddenly off
pc still working lor
so standstill for a while
till about a while later
dad came home
change monitor for me
then we finished. at 4.30.
surfed net till ~5
then let them sing k at my house!!!
till 5.30 zk left
the rest sang till 6.15 haha
they all can sing so well!
then i dun dare sing with them
coz i sing not nice haha
but i did la a bit. haha. :D

Well well...

Promos just totally suck lols
ok other than maths. ok no.
including maths.
especially chem
DAMN SCREWED FOR CHEM:(
argh.
i left soooo much blanks that i had time to 'finish' the paper
see. dunno how do. skip
next. also dunno. skip.
and hence i ended up trying everything in time
but there are just sooo many blanks
i dun see how i can reach >45. seriously
im 100% relying on moderation. i just want to pass.
MAYBEEE can get 30++ so yea gd luck gd luck gd luck.

after chem
was with zhenyan and kailun
i really really really got damn super irritated and annoyed
at one point la
other than that i was ok. i just ignored what she was saying.
but it was really...........
she kept harping on how badly she did.
and she doesnt believe when we say we also screwed it up
she INSISTS for a few hours HOUURRSS till the next paper
that she screwed it up terribly
and she's the ONLY ONE
that we'll do well still
wth.

i was so upset leh
i ALWAYS mean what i say
when i say things like i REALLY screwed it up
when i estimate what i think i will get.
i dun exaggerate lor.
although i wasnt happy with my maths
but at least i can still tell them honestly that
i think i might get A. that i think it should.....be ok.
if nothing serious goes wrong la
anyway. i dun see the point of faking it what.
i always tell them i nvr study.
as in i tell them the actual situation de leh
exactly how much i studied
and how little time i used to study
its true what. ive always been a slacker
my gd friends know it
they dont believe when i say i studied lor lols
ironic.
wth lor
always thwart whatever i say
not like i lie to them then i will do better what.
so since i say i nvr study
i must score badly to prove to them meh.
not my fault they are not learning the right way
so they dun score well what.
im not even comparing.
what i say is in my opinion only what
i dun compare with them lor.

damn irritating
she kept going on and on
that one line
"怎么办？essay没有时间做就lose30多分了leh！！”
okok fine I GET IT
can you please stop it -.-
she say nvm la its ok
BUT NOT FOR A FEW HHHOUUURSS RIGHT
argh
and we also did badly eh
and she can ignore us and go on about herself
though we stopped her quite a few times
argh couldnt she just conc on the next paper...???
we were trying to do last minute studying eh
since we all didnt study the previous night
lols. all do chem only.
then she keep saying
i no need study also can do well etc
we studying cll ma got one part i say i haven touch yet
then she was like:"等一下成绩出来又不像没有读过"
.........................
but it's a fact that i nvr study what.
i dunno what are friends for anymore
or are they even my friends -.-
coz i have to watch my mouth SERIOUSLY around them
too bad veron doesnt take same combi as me....haiz.
haiz i dunno how to explain la actually
but for me.
i really couldnt take it.
so i messaged char n veron about it
say they dun believe whatever i say.

VERON WAS EQUALLY IRRITATING LA
she say sth like "i bet you spend the whole night studying for cll right"
for goodness sake i JUST said i didnt. crap.
CHARLYNN ROCKS(:
i really love them. my gd friends.
coz i say they dun believe me and that i screwed chem terribly
that it was the worst paper i ever took.
she replied me:"I believe you (: and hopefully wont fail la."
sth like tt.
so heartwarming...............
just a simple "i believe you" was great lols
coz they know im a slacker hehe.
my gd friends rock(:
that day i actually dropped a tear lols
when kailun suddenly say the "思慧不用读也可以考得很好的"
please define 很好...
anyway they didnt see. luckily.
was in a terrible mood argh.
but i was still all smiles with them
i wonder how i did it.
the bad mood flew away as fast as it came la.
couldnt do anything about it anyway.
tt's how she is and i will tolerate it. or at least i'll learn to.
haiz.

anyway after cll
went macs with godwin and veron
i bought icecream
veron also plus a burger
godwin only fries
then we talked and laughed a lot
gossiped a bit i guess? o.O
anyway it was damn funny
me n veron suan godwin A LOT HAHA
coz he has an ego larger than the whole Earth-.-
so we kept shrinking his ego hahahahaha

today went out with my gd friends
love them hahahaha
it was really...great to have fun with them again.
with them there's no end to laughter.
we just kept laughing hehe
belated celeb for char and shuting too hehe
we were soooo NOT discreet in the card writing HAHA
but anyway cake was great
lunch was great
and KBOC WAS SUPER ULTRA FAB
everytime also damn fun when go kbox
shuting kept shouting
and we all did too at high parts
DAMN FUN
hahahaha
they all say voice sure no gd le
but i didnt feel any strain eh
coz my voice was loud in the first place hehe
so didnt have to strain hahahahahaha :P
anyway it was just so super fun
coz i got 1for1 discount card for today
so it was the cheapest time at kbox yippee!
i was afraid to go there today
coz damn ex
lucky got that card! :D
ahhhh i dun wanna come home.
haiz.

promos was terrible
then ytd JUST finish promos only
then dinner.
then havent even got to have a break leh
dad ask me wash dishes.
tt's like his ONNNLYY job leh
all he do is slack in front of the tv after work eh
only thing he do is wash dishes ehhhh!!!
then always want to shirk even this job -.-
come on la give me a break.
i couldnt wait to sit down in my room and have a good rest
and watch my show, relaxed.
after so long.

today come home.
aiya only he home ma.
i dunno why. i always get super impatient at him.
he just keeps on saying unnecessary stuff
damn crap stuff
i came home he ask me eat already?
i say no. dun wan eat. not hungry.
then he ask what i eat just now
i say nothing
then he say dun anyhow drink what ppl give u
later ppl drug u
do i look like i went to a club or sth -.-
so i say we went to a ROOM with ONLY me n my friends.
then he say ya. dont anyhow play with strangers. etc la.
i just walked into my room
...trying not to show too much irritation
then he was like say a bit u also unhappy ar.
so i tell him:"fei hua what. why would i talk to the strangers??"
thn he nvr answer me.
come on. i got brains to think.

anyway after tt he unhappy with me dao me
so i go switch off the charger
coz he charging his phone using mine. hmph
it was childish but whatever
just felt irritated. a bit 示威 la :P
anyway after tt we both not happy la whatever.
and go bathe then got stuff to wash eh.
damn sianz.

haiz only break i have is that few hours i had today...
haiz.
coz after bathing
zhenyan msg me ask me for tmr meeting plans.................
argh i just didnt want to think about pw...........
sick of it
totally sick of it.
today meixuan suddenly say be pw leader so relaxed
coz she is one too
i was like WHAT?????
relaxed ur head la.
but well she's a domineering person
so she probably can control her grp
haiz. i cant.
but now better le
zhenyan is very hardworking at pw now
mmuch more than me coz i just feel like slacking now hehe.
i wan to let them do more now.
i've had enough. really tired.
ok i just wan to be irresponsible for once la lols.
these few days very mood swing
dont want do anything
just wanna do what i want
thats all.

OH SHIT.
mum just came home and......
OH it's my dad's bdae today~
right right right.
well it's his chinese bdae
and i nvr knew when his chinese bdae was.
only know his el one.
they forgot mine before also lor
and they NEVER really celebrated mine before anyway
only...when i was...5?

my mum like to get presents from me
though she also says otherwise -.-
but she NEVER gave me anything.
never lols
but i treasure my bdaes eh.........
haiz
nvm i dun like to expect anything from them anymore
i just hope they wont expect anything from me........

they always make me sound like a bad daughter
who doesnt care about them at all
and who will not support them when i grow up
but.
actually i tot about it before
i dunno why but anyway i did.
i tot about after i married hehe
coz im their only child.
although married le should be like go to the guy side
but i hope they can live with us.
coz they very old le ma even now
by that time even older.
i cant leave the two of them alone what
i not that mean.
they are still my parents
and im always generous with my money hehe
its not a gd thing
coz im quite a spendthrift
but anyway
i will give them money de lor
and im hoping i can earn enough
to give them more and still have enough for myself hehe
anyway tts the future.
the three of us just totally clash.
diff to have peace at home.
characters totally clash.
cant tolerate each other haha.
but not that we dun care for each other.
its just bad temper.
haiz.
ok. whatever. dun wan think. i shall go destress.
haiz. today was so wonderful till i returned home...............

Damn dumb

I dunno why but I'm in an ultra bad mood lols
Ok it's bcos of maths
But they all will kill me if they see this
I can't say anything to them :(
They will hate me lols
Veron was telling me
They worrying for their pass yet I worrying for my A
Thing is I can get A I not worrying
I'm just ultra upset that I didn't reach 90
That I didn't reach my goal

Well but it's a nice experience
Thanks to mr ang
Who encouraged me a lot this time
I actually felt like I can do it
First time I rly set proper goals
But looks like it's still too high.........
Wanted my name to be up there on the list
But not just there but on the first page
Asking for too much right?
Hope jos won't kill me after seeing this but anyway
No one to tell to le
They don't understand...

To me maths is everything lols
I always do badly for a lot subs
Usu maths best but not 100% all the time
But yet I still feel worst for not doing as well as expected for maths
P6 78/100 I cried in class and got hated more than I already was
I rmb last yr think is prelims or sth
Coz I usu will know an estimate of my marks de
I finished the maths paper
And I was damn depressed the whole trip home
Almost cried on the bus
I didn't do very well
Though better than a lot of them
But it was really upsetting:(
I always say
If I can't even do maths well
Then I have nothing left

Veron asked me this afternoon
Why my maths so gd
Then I say coz the rest not gd
But she n wanshan disagree
Wanshan say I quite balanced what
I didn't say anything I think
But I disagreeeeeeee
Is passing everything considered gd at the sub already????
Sorry I have higher expectations then...

Just now the question 5 REALLY CAN DO DE EH
SO SIMPLE DE LEH
WHY I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO DO???!!?!??
So irritated at myself.................I could have gotten 90 de
Might have
Not so sure about the pnc question either
But at least I squeezed an answer out.

Dumbdumbdumb la

I really will doubt if I can handle h3 le leh...
Although it's much better than handling chem
Well I like chem but it's too heavy for me
Anyway although h3 is better but it's not a h2 subject after all
If any h2 die how????
So I must do well for my h2 subs and my h3 maths!

Shouldn't we improve every time? :(
I did promo 09 and got 86 while ms ang was lenient
I should improve :((( but I doubt I did....

Anyway this is a good lesson
I told myself to buck up and do better the next time
But I'm in a super upset mood now
Wanted grumble to my mum
So I bought bubble tea home though I know she will scold
I wanted her to ask y I buy
Then I will say I'm in a bad mood
But I came home and house got guest-.-
So I didnt say anything n got scolded
After tt she ask again haha
I say I'm in a bad mood
Wanted her to say sth nice for once JUST ONCE
She never did before and so she didn't today
She asked why then I say coz exams
Then she didn't ask le
All she did was say things like
Exam then must buy bubble tea meh
Don't u know it's not gd for health? Etcetc
Super irritating
I gng bathe ma so I quickly close the door and I somehow started crying
Crap!!!!
I was already moody
Just this once wanted to hear sth nice from her
Another too high expectations....
I just said I'm in a bad mood
And she started nagging wth nice...
Upset sia.

Should be studying super hard now
Since I didn't prepare much for cll and nth for chem
But I rly can't make myself read it eh
I feel like taking out some maths and do lols
Argh since I can't get 90 for maths
I probably have to get at least C for the rest of the subs?
Try.
But hopeless lor
D or E I happy le lor
It's not maths

It's ironic
Those well not like I'm happy with a pass
Just that I know I can only manage near pas or sth
So I dun care
Maths I A still 100x more upset lols
Actually usu not so exaggerating
Probably hoped too much ma
High hopes high disappointment
But I'm not giving up yet.

It's been damn long since I got a 90 n above score
For any exam
I wanted this to be that once
But it didnt happen
Next time mct or maybe jct
I want to make it happen...............
I hope it won't be too high hopes again.
Well today is pretty demoralising I'm not sure why...

对了

对了
有人说我不应该这样。。。
说我不可以什么都告诉他
因为不知道他在想什么
不知道他把我想成怎样
说始终有距离
但是。。。

有朋友真好。。。呵呵

有朋友真好

刚才知道原由了后
我想了挺多的
虽然我会一直联想到她的缺点
但最后
我决定不想那么多
尽量改变
不是为了她
是为了身边每一个人
也为了我自己
绝对不会是为了她
我倒要感谢她告诉我这些
让我有机会变得更好(:

因为我发现除了她
我身边的朋友包括wanshan也是同意的
其实她没有说出来但她说她们并不介意
同个意思啦。。。
所以我刚才就在想
我从以前就一直这样做错吗？
于是我就sms给shuting和joscelin和meixuan
问她们我对她们而言是怎样的人

真是选对人了呵呵
shuting的答案真棒:P
她说：
You like to respond to things in your own way,
by showing an alternative to what your friends say
you make people feel dumb.
you behave like an auntie but you are quite easygoing
sometime thinks a lot but sometimes quite sensitive.
nice to a certain extent if you don't open your mouth
but that's what characterise you.
you are kind really. and smart.
hanging out with you makes me feel awesome cause i know
i have a ugly encyclopedia ard who always laugh a lot

I just love her answer
but anyway i ask her no bad pts meh
then she say:
Well you just like to talk.
it's been two long years having you suddenly barge in
with your act smart comments which actually make sense after all
and you are loud but i'm loud too.
just go for a plastic surgery
i might have forgotten your bad points. will try to recall.

SHUTING ROCKS :D:D:D
HAHA 真棒呀！呵呵
下一个回复的是joscelin
她说不知道要怎么说她问我为什么突然问
所以我就大概告诉她了反正她是知情的
她的答案也不错呵呵:P
她说：Huh like that also cannot? I thought very normal?
why she like that also not happy?
我说她很注重respect etc
然后joscelin又说：
but also cannot like that then angry with you
coz everybody is different...
i first time heard of this. angry coz she thinks u disrespectful...

虽然我不觉得我没错
但是她们的答案还是让我的心安定下来了呵呵
因为她们的答案
我觉得我有信心改掉坏习惯了
我觉得我能够更忍受一切了
我觉得我可以放下身段去跟她道歉
我觉得我可以再努力和她做朋友了
因为有她们的存在(:

过后我大概问上瘾了:P
就再问了carol 和 charlynn :P
然后carol回答了
她也说不知道怎样说但她说:
in general: you are a nice person
我现在完全不理会她们的话里有几分真实
但我相信她们不会说谎的啦尤其是shuting
shuting决不会撒这种谎的
carol问我为什么会这样问我跟她说
有人说我disrespectful嘛
then她说really meh? must be you too good in suaning le la haha...
:P lols :P

charlynn just replied le.
irritating girl la she i knew it man dumb reply LOL
coz i msg them starting with "eh pig..."
LOL
so she reply say
??! a bad girl who calls such a pretty girl a pig:)
pretty girl your head la LOL
so charlynn. hehe.
anyway im over it le
so dun bother
im now just asking for fun

but seriously.
i like to know what ppl think of me...
esp my friends coz they are whom im around all the time.
i always say dun gossip behind my back
got anything just tell me.
at least give me a chance to explain myself
IF there is a misunderstanding
if not then give me a chance to change...

there's so many sides to me already so sianz
everytime must treat everyone differently
tot i could at least be who i am
no need so fake when with my friends
no need force myself to be what i am not.
but whatever.
i dun wan let my other friends awkward or unhappy
because of the two of us le.
wanshan in btw us so poor thing.
dun wan give her more trouble...
she say just now after mr ang talk to elaine
elaine emo thru chem mass remedial
after that she told wanshan that
she not rly really hate me
just cant stand my character lols
and wanshan also mentioned
asking me we want continue like tt for 1 more yr meh
lols wont be nice if tt's the case.

veron they all also dun like it lols.
today after pe
elaine say wan go good news
i go sit with kailun in canteen ma
the rest all went with her
before they left i saw them
then lols apparently
they only go coz elaine wants to go.
veron was looking at me with a 'im sorry' face
then she was like cuddling onto me LOL
anyway she was saying im with you de but...
lols then i was like nvm la its ok
(oh ya ying en they all found her very touchy hahahahahaha:P)

lols tough being in the middle
but i nvr want them to choose
so better if we become friends again.
and anyway i used to think we can be gd frends
sadly she doesnt think the same.
well. even if not gd friends
at least normal classmates?
just not this.
lols anyway dun think le

but anyway 我真不明白我们为什么要活到这么辛苦
生活已经够累够惨了的还要顾虑这些
zzzz

不管了
反正I shall change as much as i can
with my friends' support hehe :P
and see what happens
let nature take its course
顺其自然！

oh well anyway cher say she said
she doesnt hate me
its just that she doesnt like it.
and knows i very nice
and she will speak to me if necessary
lols i dunno what to say.
still. 顺其自然

SO TIREDDDDDD

Saturday read 泡沫之夏 till 5am
sunday read another 小说 2hrs
till ~4 then sleep
and then ytd do wr do until 2+.
slept at 3. zzz
serious lack of sleep lols
today need do eom.
again late sleep.
gd luck to me.
lols today in sku just kept falling asleep again -.-
even slightly dozed off in maths eh
first time. will be LAST TIME TOO!!!!!
felt bad towards ms ang
I WILL NVR FALL ASLEEP IN MATHS AGAIN!!
today just a litttttle la <1min ok. haha.
coz zhenyan poked me to wake me like immediately LOL :P
ah so tired
today a lot ALOT free periods
from about 1050 break until 210 lols
i slept for like 20-30 mins i think
but no diff eh
still tired. eyes still pain after tt.
still lack of sleep. serious lack of sleep lols
then pe lesson
was quite fun
we played captains ball
mostly the chinese group
plus godwin
tehn after tt zk and sharmaine joined in
lols :D
i was in elaine's group lols
she didnt pass to me much if she could
but still got de la
no choice ma.
oh ya maths lecture SO DAMN FUNNY HAHAHAHA
but ms ang ar like in cahoots with mr ang like tt
'volunteered' him
but nvr ask him go down SO SIANZ
will be nice seeing mr ang doing that dumb action LOL
anyway mr ang sabo jiahong from his class de
who went down with two friends
3 jokers
DAMN FUNNY HAHAHAHAHA
everyone had a good laugh :D
jokers. seems like a fun class. envy them ehhh haha
cher loves them too. too bad he's leaving them soon
well. life's like this. hahaha too bad
hope get better class next yr lor~
i think a class usu better with proper mix of boys and girls
one like ours is far from ideal lols
a lot prob
no fun no bonding. lols.

anyway well ytd wanshan told me le
she say elaine told her why she angry.
well she say ask me pretend i dunno
say dun mention to anyone and on anywhr...
butbutbut
no one else will come here...righT??
i dun want implicate wanshan o.O
but -.-
anyway i dun bitch about ppl de lor...
i mean like sometimes we'll grumble to our friends what
everyone will and so does she.
the most i did was just grumble grumble
i nvr rly got like. angry. with her.
why would i like bitch about her
i wonder which of her ggdddd friend told her tt
anyway no matter i was grumbling or bitching
i didnt talked bad about her before she got angry with me wat
or did i?
to the two reading this haha
before tt i didnt right? o.O
i cant rmb
i didnt mean any offense or anything no matter when anyway
and she say i keep referring to her on fb irritated her a lot
well before she got angry I NEVER talked about her on fb
seriously.
i even went to check my past statuses. i rly nvr did
she probably think too much la -.- zzz
to her im a lousy person. full stop.
whatever. i dun care.
we not suitable for gd friends de
coz she nvr knows how to trust her friends
and treat them as friends.
she's like rly pissed lols
her blog still talking about me bitching about her
say everyone dun understand etc
haiz. i only started talking about her after she got angry
...right? lols
anyway in any case i nvr rly very angry with her eh.
随便啦
顺其自然好了(:

101th post

i just realised this is my 101th post here(: lols
anyway.

i should be starred in the live version of "despicable me"
if there is ever one.
seems like everyone's angry with me in a way or another
maybe i should be in "detestable me"
...

Zzz

Everytime I decide not to bother
Its raised again....
Haiz
This time is quite...scary.
I feel like I'm waiting for my verdict sia
Wanshan say she know why Elaine angry with me le...
Say after sku tell me
She say she can understand why she pissed off eh
How
Haiz
What I do?
Like so serious like tt:(
Argh just when I gave up bothering...

家里的气氛好讨厌

对了忘了提
（近天特别想用华语呵呵）
家里的气氛好奇怪
好讨厌
一向来都是他们两个闹别扭的
常吵架但最近
他们虽然还会吵
但不那么多了
是好事但妈妈把苗头指向我
整天有事没事对我发飙
真是的她似乎真的很不放心我
很不信任我。。。
一直怕我做错事haiz
真是的我没那么坏好不好
我还是单纯的好不好
虽然我没有那么纯洁没有一些人的但纯
但握没那么糟啊！
受不了她
真想看到我出事才甘心吗？？？
这家越来越不像家了
在家的感觉以点也不好。。。

还有
Cher竟然说看得懂我写的多数哦
真是糟糕-.-

好感伤

不知道为什么
今天总感觉非常的感伤
觉得感触良多
突然想起好多好多的事
大概是因为刚刚把“泡沫之夏”读完吧
昨天开始阅读下载到ipod里的书
即可迷上了它
这故事是如此奇特、特别
而又是那么感伤、凄美的
扣人心弦，令我欲罢不能
昨晚一读就读到差不多凌晨五点钟左右
听到爸爸的闹钟想起才去睡
今早一起来又开始读
不久前刚把它读完
它是多棒、多美、多奇特的故事啊
真令人爱不释手呀。。。

故事里的人物都使命运不断捉弄的对象
受尽各种折磨全身遍体鳞伤了
却还是一直受着伤
故事的主人翁们
都是多么令人怜惜的
他们都带上好多好多层的面具
伪装着自己，尤其是女主角
带着厚厚的面具生活不轻易让人走入她的心里
他们都不轻易相信他人都缺乏安全感
这样的几个人聚在一起都一起受伤了
而且还是冷酷残忍的互相伤害
令人为他们感到悲伤、惋惜
女主角其是是多么棒的女生呀
真的很棒的
而且又聪明又美如天仙。。。
她表现得是多么的坚强
内心却比任何人还脆弱的
她的弟弟是她一生中最爱的人
是她的精神支柱
当弟弟离开人世后她的伪装都顿时彻底碎了
她崩溃了失去希望了失去动力了迷迷糊糊的疯了
幸好她身边还有一直由始至终都深爱她的人
她才恢复了
总之这是多么离奇的故事
紧紧扣住了我的心弦
牵动我的情绪我的感伤。。。
看完故事结局算是十分圆满的吧
虽然另一位男主角很可怜，一生中被抛弃好几次
心已禁不起任何伤害
但他应该会慢慢放开吧，学会珍惜身边除了她以外的人
但愿如此
因为另外的两个人终于的到幸福了的到他们应得的幸福了
祝他们永远幸福才好呀。。。

看完故事我真觉得空虚呀呵呵
突然想了好多好多好多好多。。。

想起去年打工的情形
那段时光
是快乐的是满足的是很棒的是我无法忘记的
在那里我认识了他们。。。
我一直以来都不太懂得交际
人际关系上总是处理不当
在社交圈子里我是失败者
但是面对“晚辈” 也就是我的juniors
我总是能自然地和他们认识交谈。
除了好朋友们就只有他们
我也不知道究竟是因为什么。。。
因此去年十二月因为有那两个调皮捣蛋鬼女生
虽然是同辈但因为她们所以我过的很愉快
后来今年一月
有新人加入了！首先是wp吧

我还清楚记得他刚到时我不在店里
回到店里时推开休息室的门
就看见他们聚在那里
Celest 他们
当然还有wp了
不知道会看见他所以我愣住了
呆在那里看着他真失态呀
还被他们笑说我花痴了呢呵呵
很有趣的一天呵呵
反正当时挺尴尬的啦呵呵 :P

后来又继续工作
看着他傻傻的因为是新来的什么都不会
负责带他的shuhan正忙着
她之前只是稍微教了她一些罢了
我默默地观察着呵呵
因为我对新人总是特别有兴趣的呵呵

看着他折衣服的样子挺滑稽的慢吞吞的
很仔细地折真搞笑
实在看不下去了
我便走向他告诉他
以他这样的折法折到明天都没完哈哈
然后便大概地示范了快速折法让他学着
没待太久只是示范了一次便走掉了
但还是在观察
他有试着学习但始终没能学好呵呵
我的举动以及目光所在都被那三个同辈八卦鬼看在眼里
纷纷来取笑我说我喜欢他之类的
但我并没有哦！我真的只是纯粹对新人一律感兴趣罢了
日子这样过我也不及的详情了
只是记得我们越混越熟越走越近了
好像是因为那天和他一样的午餐时间吧
没有特别畅谈但是有随便聊聊的乱聊聊
我还记得中间有人进来休息室见我被逗笑
有取笑我了但我已想不起我当时是在笑什么了呵呵
还有另一次一起吃午餐呢
我们吃完后我跟着他
到对面买果汁喝了
走了一段路。
那是我们已经算是挺熟了吧
我一直捉弄他的他也爱捉弄我
后来我们就开始一直吵吵闹闹
记得有一天闹的比较凶呵呵
很好玩的一天呢！
我们就一直吵吵闹闹
晚上收店后他最后一个换衣服
我们都赶着离开呢我就拼命地催他呵呵
一直催已之催
我之前在抹地呢还把拖把伸进他在的更衣室里呵呵
他大叫起来以为我要开他的门
真是的我可不是变态好不好！还其他人有起哄了。。。
我后来甚至把其他的灯都关了逼他赶快出来呵呵
他一直大叫要我等一后来他说要找一天报仇
但那是我们已经是快离开了的了
所以我说他大概没机会了呵呵
原本我的确对他有好感我不否认
但那是一闪而过的
后来只把他当朋友呢

但是万事不如愿呀
那天看到facebook 上他说他好像喜欢上谁了
我们这些八卦族便好奇极了
她们说应该是说我吧但我不觉得
我说应该是shuhan吧她们说有那个可能
虽然他小她一岁呵呵
但他们走得挺近的常聊天大笑
但是她是有男朋友的耶。。。
所以为了搞清楚我们便决定问他

我给他发了简讯
Joyce 好像也发了
他说了同样的话
他都叫我们去照镜
那人就是了真是的
我原本是吓到的
但知道他发给我们同样的回答时
才知道他是胡说的
再问他时他还是坚持
但我不肯信
他说是在开joyce的玩笑但没有骗我
我可很好骗的所以便问joyce怎么办
因为wp问我喜不喜欢他！
什么情况嘛！我是傻瓜总搞不清心里的想法
Joyce说告诉他我喜欢他会安全一点
如果他说是在开玩笑而不喜欢我我可以说我也是开玩笑
就这样算了但当时我好像忘了想
万一他说真的喜欢我呢？反正我就说喜欢他
而他真的就说他喜欢我耶吓死人了呵呵
我更不知所措了
什么情况嘛！！！
没办法就这样了反正他也没说什么了
我也许对他还有好感我自己并不清楚
但我认为那是纯粹对于朋友的好感的
因为我们和的来嘛！怎么办呢？
真是的
反正他就认定我喜欢他啦
那天我忘了是几时
好像是隔天他放假不用做工
我得呆到四点半
他说要来接我呢我就说好啊

他到的时候挺轰动的呵呵
因为其他人已经有点怀疑我们了
而且放假天没事不会到店里来的
所以他们一直狐疑地看我们呵呵
他没和他们说什么也没和我说什么
到休息室里和他们聊开了
May 和 shuhan 和我在外头做工
她们似乎在讨论什么
后来想套我话呢呵呵
她们就说了怎么放假天这么难得不用来店里
他却会来了呢？而且时间是四点多
我好像也快下班了。。。
是怎么回事呢呵呵我就佯装不知道啊转过头偷笑
呵呵心里怪尴尬的有一点开心呵呵
之前我告诉过priscilla 说他会来接我
所以她有帮我解围呵呵万分感谢呀！:P
我到休息室里看他们聊得乐得很
他也没怎么理我
我起身
道别
开门
离他都没动静
这么担心被发现吗？
我不知道反正我就发简讯跟他说我要走了
要他快点。。。他让我等一分钟他就出来了
在外面等着我便与伟杰闲聊了（weijie 也是重要的新人呵呵）
wp 出来后我们一起离开了
去搭地铁
我们住在新加坡的两端但他却陪我搭到我那边
说那是他第二次到tampines 呢我当时真惊讶
在地铁上他和我乱聊了很多
其实我没说什么啦都是他主动聊的
一直到抵达为止
然后我就带他在tampines 随便走了毕竟他很少来嘛
然后他陪我到我搭车的地方告诉我很多他的事
说他在中学时是坏学生呵呵
那时他在ite 读书呢
那天就这样

后来在点里说真的有点尴尬
因为他太不主动真不像男生哼:P
他似乎都不想让人知道
我都不知道我们是什么关系了
我不喜欢那种暧昧的
Joyce说她问过他为什么我们没有交往呵呵
他说没信心再交往呢
所以是想就这样吗？？？
不想有发展就干脆不要告诉我说喜欢我嘛
真是的搞得我不知所措的。。。
但我们还是常聊天通过简讯的
他偶尔嘴巴很甜呵呵但还好
那时从未和他通过电话在店里也没说什么
他倒没当面说过喜欢我的
我也不在意因为那样是在太尴尬
他一个大男人高大的却真害羞真是的
令人失望呵呵
相对之下mattheus 后来追求priscilla时就超级主动呵呵
我们那时快开学了快离开那里了
离开的前一天我有和他发简讯
说了一些事然后我就一时不知怎么的大概疯了
我就说“为什么（什么什么的我忘了说什么了）？我又不是你的谁”
握大概猜得到他的反应的
真如我所想的他问我要做他的谁呵呵
我说不知道啊那要看他把我当谁了
啊现在想起来就真后悔
搞什么暧昧嘛真是没事惹事啦
反正就交往了啦隔天告诉那两个八卦婆
她们也有点吓到了哈哈
那天也是最后一天做工了
晚上下了班大家一起去吃晚餐
走去目的地时他们一直捉弄我们呢
因为知道了所以要我们走在一起还要我们牵手呢
我哪敢！我就一直粘着chiewping 呵呵
他们拼命把我们拉在一起但没成功
该死的他竟也那么抗拒
虽然我是不赞成
但那是因为我害羞啊人家是女生也！！
他干吗比女生别扭啊大男生害什么羞啦受不了
到了那里他们就硬逼债我们坐在一起哈哈
无所谓啦我们没说话呢
吃完他们要玩游戏我就觉得糟了不会吧。。。呵呵
他们要玩真心话大冒险(truth or dare) 耶我坚决反对
但被驳回了真是的
当然第一个中的就是我都不知道是不是故意的
我想不起来了
反正我选了真心话
他们想了想问我我们交往多久了
就知道一定官我们的事有关！
我不好意思说就让priscilla帮我回答
她就说一天
他们爱玩故意整我们
说已经过十二点所以是两天
什么嘛！！！
Priscilla帮我求情说是她讲错
但她们分明是故意整人哪管这么多
要求我受罚
本来要我们接吻真受不了他们
我可绝对不肯啦他也不肯
还好有may帮我说话因为她为人母嘛
所已觉得不要太过火我们还小呵呵
是啊所以改成要我们牵手
啊~搞什么嘛整人大行动吗？？？
他也不知道害什么羞啦没人肯主动啦
后来好像我们其中一位伸出手另外一个才伸过去
碰了一下就拿走了呵呵尴尬呀:P
后来我忘了顺序是中谁了
他也中了一次耶
他们要我问问题我不要
他们就问他喜欢我什么
他说喜欢我全部哦
说实在的我稍微愣了但没什么大反应的
我是个不容易相信这种甜言蜜语的人
我猜疑的想
他大概是因为想不出到地喜欢我什么才会那样答吧？
我宁愿他说几个理由听听
但我又或许会认为他喜欢的不是真正的我
因为我有很多面孔
反正就这样过了
Priacilla 和 mattheus 都中过的都被整呵呵
Pris 被问了什么我不大清楚了
不过matt呵呵他们问他喜欢谁
他大胆大声地喊道:"priscilla!"
超大胆的宣言呀！
她倒尴尬极了也没说什么
过后我们离开了走回原来的路
在巴士站停下要拍照
我们总共拍了好几张呢
她们又起哄要我和wp拍
所以拍就拍啊
然后她们说要他把手hold我的腰
但幸亏没那样真是恐怖的一群人呀
他只是把手搭上我的肩了就那样拍了张照
呵呵后悔莫及因为照片上了网被不该看到的人看到了
我不知道是谁反正就是有人看到了后来让我妈发现-.-
那天joyce的爸爸载我们三个女生回家
一路上说了很多priscilla也心请复杂不知道怎么办
呵呵

过后就开学了
Priscilla 最后似乎是答应mattheus交往了吧
因为他一直找她对她甜言蜜语什么的哄着她呵呵
他们亲密得很呢哈哈进展很快的
我和wp倒没什么只是单纯传简讯而已呵呵
开学的第一个星期好像是星期五
我们四人一起出去哦
去tm那里闲逛
主要时间都花在toys 'r' us里了
Priscilla像大孩子一样玩得不亦乐乎
不时尖叫一下好搞笑
Wp倒不喜欢在里面待着大概觉得幼稚吧呵呵
对了忘了提我们。。。牵手了哦
在进去之前就牵了呵呵真不好意思说
进去后有放开后来有没有牵我也不记得了
然后我们就回了嘛
他陪我搭车哦我没让他下车因为那辆车会绕回总站的
就这样告别
唯一一次最接近约会的了呵呵
后来就没了
一次我和charlynn carol去bugis呵呵
他们吵着要找他所以我带她们去BHG了
他当时一个人在那里看着
我没敢过去让她们自己去看呵呵
不过那里是买婴儿衣服的
她们在那边指指点点一直瞄他
我看不下去了就走过去跟他打招呼
然后就把她们拉走
他惊讶地看着我但是笑着的
Carol被我硬拉走喊过去:再见sihui的男朋友
惹来charlynn的一阵笑声
啊真给她们气死了啦呵呵
后来就没见到他了只传简讯
没过多久我妈发现了
不知道哪个欠扁的人看了照片说我们很亲密
说我中四会考考不太好是不是受他影响
真是气死人
不过我妈训了我一顿后我就真和他分手了
很冷血吧？
但我本来就不觉得自己多喜欢他呀
不想这样下去所以那时其实已经在考虑分手的
妈妈的组绕是个借口而已
但我并没有以妈妈为理由
我给了他好几个理由说我们不适合说我上学忙等
一直觉得对他好愧疚哦直到后来facebook看到一些他的status
好像又有女生的出现因为他不可能是在说我的
过不久那里就传来他有女朋友的消息了不过才一个星期就没了
我就在想我是不是被骗了啊？难道他是花花公子？
那我倒不必愧疚啊。事情就这样结束了。
后来好像也只见了他一面而已
是回去找weijie的时候
好了换人物

到了述说weijie的时候了
不过我已经打得很懒了
而且以前已经在这里谈过他的事了
基本上就是我害店里的一件昂贵的jacket被偷时
他安慰我让我打他毫不还手还拍我的头安慰我
像个哥哥一样令我很感动
后来回去找他和他去走走
一直捉弄他呵呵闲聊了很久呢
我和他们俩都挺投缘的能成好朋友的呵呵
不过都没行因为我的这位大哥哥回马来西亚读书了
他和女朋友幸福快乐在一起了呵呵
那天走走去吃午餐我弄脏皮包
他替我去买纸巾跑去跑回
找不到纸巾而跑了好远
我又感动了呵呵我的好哥哥对我真好
有个哥哥真好呵呵可惜他回国了
好想念我的好哥哥呀。。。

那段时间大概就是这样了
美好的时光总过的快回想起来还很快乐呢(:

今天我还想了其他事的
我想了cher呵呵
觉得真感激他。。。
他对我来说是贵人所以我讨厌妈妈那样看他
那样看我。。。反正就很感激他
庆幸遇到他
我想真的把他当朋友
但不知道他会不会呢？
他不会看华语的所以我才敢打这些呵呵
希望就算我们没了师生关系还能保持联络
能成为朋友但会不会是太奢侈的希望呢？
我只是觉得很少有人对我那么好
这个贵人我不想忘记
要记得曾有遇到过这么个好老师
又是与我投缘的老师
像朋友一样的老师
虽然他没有那么信任我了
会嘱咐我不准把他说的说出去
但他还是会告诉我的告诉我很多
感激他呵呵希望他尽快达到他一直努力向着的目标
他的。。。梦想吧？
祝他成功！还有要跟他说谢谢你！呵呵
难得的一天呀。。。

刚刚发简讯给老师呵呵
说我又来烦他了呵呵
也确定了他不能读华语呵呵
好感动因为他说虽然他不想承认
他还挺想念我的讨人厌的哈哈哈哈哈
好搞笑
虽然是想念讨人厌的我
但被想念我还是开心的呵呵:D