i tot ytd was bad
today was worse
they both saw me cry lols.
bad.
really. lols.
today cry damn long sia lols...
i had so much to write here
but it's hard to get everything back.
i dun wan to anyway.
basically
my dad is a SUPER petty person
ytd dun wan spell camera for him only leh
then he went crazy today
so small thing...tsk
mum found out mardi gras cash with me
so she asked me why i go i/c money stuff etc
coz she say i very irresponsible
money just put on the table like tt very dangerous
later at sku also like that then cham
but it's at home what!!
then she say she almost threw it away but coz got coins
then she realise it's money.
coz it's packed in the polay cake package lols.
haiyo but they shouldnt be touching my things
and they shouldnt be throwing away my stuff o.O
anyway then dad also join in wth...
wth one line mum one line dad continuous
zzz -.-
then i say u think wan go uni rly just need results ar
then my mum shut up
my dad wth got worse.
say what i think he dunno anything ar etc
ya what. he rly doesnt know what.
then i go bathe
cried so super hard in there
come out ar
he ask me hand over my atm card sia
give lor big deal
then he ask for phone n ipod
WTH U CRAZY AR
i sot then give him la.
over my dead body man.
so i hold both on my hands tightly dun let him take
he say he'll get it anyway
wahtever u can try.
my mum then come into my room
close door
lecture me tsk.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
oh and he talked about mr ang thing again
coz i say thurs go tuition again.
wth lor
scared i fall in love with him meh
-.-
i not as blind as his wife HAHA jkjk
but SERIOUSLY!
siao one
i was like haiyo they think too much la
can go be scriptwriter le la.
she keep saying in case ma
then say i dun listen to them etc
say anything happen i ownself responsible
dun ask them clear up after me
so i keep telling her
NOTHING WILL HAPPEN LA
life not bad enough meh
must go imagine it worse than now
haiz.
烦阿烦，活着真烦...haiz.
then dinnertime
i wanted charge my ipod
but scare dad go take it
so i go lock it in my cupboard and
keep key in my pocket lols
i was being careful lor...
im not the only one who's become
very dependent of my ipod...
wanshan and elaine also LOL
today damn funny.
5 mins before chem lecture started
wanshan asked for my ipod
i was like WTH??? few mins left only leh!!!
i was thinking she's crazy
then elaine also ask
LOL???? HAHA damn funny...
anyway i slept thru half the lecture lols.
in front awake behind awake middle sleeping.
as usual.
:P
oh where was i.
erm ya dinner
after dinner he tell me
next time use com do work
off msn
cannot watch shows
latest 11.30pm must off
if not he going cut cable again.
wth lor.
*rolls eyes* x10000000
it feels so familiar
must be the 1000 times im hearing stuff like that.
*rolls eyes again*
then after dinner he gave me back my atm card.
he's so him man.
it's so his behaviour
EVERYTIME also like that.
few days later
after he appeased le ar
come tell me he scold me he also not happy de
stuff like that.
crap la.
so not happy then dun do it la.
why get angry over such a dumb thing man
make me cry until i cant see properly now lols
ok not that bad just eyes a little bit more tired
than it already is....
haiyo...
everything is bad like tt...
and ar
i dunno y la
now HOLS leh
ppl can relax and watch shows
and still do work what
why cant i?
why do my parents expect me to do work the whole day???
tt's so unfair.
they keep comparing me with others
then why dun they compare themselves? o.O
haiz
tt's too high expectations for them man...
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
im in a killing mood
let me murder someone
argh nvm that won't help
damn it la
i dunno what to say even.
crap.
relax...
haiz.
anyway.
ytd co concert
it was great.
they did a gd job
gave flowers to sarah elaine joscelin
havent pay mr ang back yet hehe. :P
as an erhu player
i specially took note of erhu only
they did pretty well la.
quite pro
but it just takes practice
it's all like this
erhu especially is not that that difficult.
it just takes practice :D
i miss my erhu................... :(
but i still wont go touch it de la :P
oh ya b4 concert.
mr ang send us go SCH from bedok interchange
veron damn bad with directions hehe
told her meet at bus stop oppo interchange
then she go wrong one -.-
anyway then coz cher drive us past bugis
so hehe we made him stop there
then we went food court for dinner
i went bossini say hi first
but only say charleen (morning went parkway say hi
on my way home from translation competition too! haha)
the rest went home le
think sook han was inside but i didnt wait la
i left for my dinner :D
and then veron couldnt find where they were sitting at -.-
LOL damn funny.
she actually has a tracking device in her phone
so that she can be found if she gets lost
LOL damn bad with directions apparently
then cher didnt noe how go SCH from there
see directory sia
i also seesee la but didnt manage to help
he found his way arnd. sianz.
cannot laugh at him hehe :P
after co concert he bring us home
he dropped shermaine first
then he changed cd to s.h.e. songs!! :D:D
not bad he got quite a lot! :D
he wanted to drive me home from expressway
but i dunno that way.
so i tried guiding him the way i know
the way dad usu goes o.O
not exactly but ya i was sort of on the right track
but he didnt trust me -.-
tsk~
i only made 1 mistake!!
oh and a few minor ones hehe :p
i ok with directions de lor!
usually la anyway.im better than a lot ppl.
tt's gd enough :p
but shermaine's pretty gd! haha
today morning
edited gpp that zhenyan sent me
it's still no gd.
so send shermaine
she didnt edit sia
wth lor.
it's NOT perfect can.
cant they put in more effort??
i BET $100000 this wont be approved yet.
aiya what they wan me do sia
argh dun care.
i going to submit it le.
we'll just keep editing the gpp till end of pw
and fail it together.
yay let's all die together~
we'll need a big enough coffin.
then afternoon
dad asked me go sing karaoke lols.
coz home got system.
he started singing la i went bathe
come out then my turn hehe
but i sing not nice
anyhow la.
quite fun though.
sang jj songs and s.h.e. songs
the system not very gd
coz the database not as gd as outside de
but it's free :D
and music not bad
dad on aircon summore
so haha not bad le la :P
then mum walk past me say
u a lot of time ar still playplayplay...
wth.
i so wanted to roll my eyes.
she also what
whole day complain say very tired
so much work to do
no time to rest
say we bully her
she do until no free time
then why is she always with my ipod? -.-
why is she always with my ipod IN FRONT OF TV
AND SITTING ON THE BED?
while i doing work.
lala~yea she's SOOOOO poor thing.
my life is 1000000 times better man
i bully her all day that i suck.
whatever. i cant be bothered
no matter how much i would have cared
it would all fade when things
are repeated SO MUCH.
after dinner i watching show on my ipod
then she scold me.
zzzz hols just started leh :(
cannot slack at all meh
EVERYTIME i slack a bit she also like that
no life man.
jc life is not a life anyway
but still.
argh irritating.
then my dad beside me using com
WORSE STILL
noisy leh
mum scold me he still add fuel
JOKINGLY.
ya like i care he jokin or not.
it still is adding fuel.
my mum always like that de
happy a while then like that
happy a while then like that
repeat that 100 times
and u'll get my point.
life is the same everyday.
she's like this everyday.
sianz. whats so difficult about being happier?
why cant she learn to let go of small things
and see just the big pictures
why cant she care about what she REALLY should
and ignore things she shouldnt?
like why can she be disturbed by mr ang's existence
when there's totally no reason to? -.-
tt pissed me off ytd coz she say so much
that it really was getting on my nerves.
i know she mean well. but still.
she doesnt understand me at all. :(
is she really my mum?
morning i telling her
co concert got invite dance ppl to dance
then she ask me accusingly
so u also went down to dance la?
i was like wth???
what kind of person m i to her?!?!?!
crap.
argh.
seriously.
to her. im a
terrible person
terrible student
terrible daughter
haiz. yea la.
i know.
i suck.
fine i get your point.
my ipod full le memory full
yet i didnt delete the games she want
coz i know she want to play
today i go buy the full version for her summore
but she doesnt know anything man
if she really think im that bad ar
maybe i should be that bad to prove her right?
maybe she will be happier seeing me rebel.
wth.
she scold me for slacking le
and then took my ipod to play with watching tv now leh
sianz.
yesyesyes i noe
im a jc student
i got exams after hols.
but CAN'T I PLAY AT ALL?????
i want my life back!!!!
it's hols after all.......
i will study.......really.....
but before that...... :(
wan me study hard then leave me alone man.
im not totally without self discipline ok!
but i need to be in the right mood
then i can chiong
at least
i FINALLY get a BREAK from school leh
and she wants to deprive me of that little break.
even thurs last day of sku damn tiring
thanks to mardi gras
then friday got pulled out by her go temple
nvr do anything
ytd go competition then concert
ytd i go dinner then dirtied my white pants ma
this morning she ask me to wash it leh
i totally rolled my eyes lor
she didnt see it la coz i was back facing her
i kept quiet didnt say anything
i felt like screaming but whatever
coz after that she ask me about sku again
and ask me buck up etcetc
yea i should
then u leave the rest to urself can anot.
tsk.
maybe she's a superwoman in disguise
tt's y she expects her daughter to be one too.
when i was young
my family was happier...
dad will help mum with things at home
mum did sort of everything..with dad's help la
but she nvr did complain
we went out more often
though they quarrelled so often.
quarrels started increasing over the years.
dad now dun help at all
mum doing lesser yet she's complaining more
clothes are getting washed at half the speed of before
tables are wiped half as often
her work is half of before
she goes out with her fren double of before
but her complains is x4 of last time.
PLUS she expects me to do even more
when MY WORK is increasing now.
yay.
i should quit school
and do household chores at home
so they can both retire.
haiz.
usu parents tell others
about how great their kids are
no matter how bad they are
they wont make them sound that bad
my mum so opposite.
all she talks about is bad stuff
and makes me sounds damn damn bad.
i dunno what i do sia seriously.
i didnt commit any heavenly crime
i didnt do anything bad or what on purpose
i try my best to help her
i try to be gd le.
im just a lazy pig.
what's wrong with that?
im her child.
so it's not entirely my fault.
EH WAIT.
TMR IS MONDAY.
DAMN IT.
BAD. VERY BAD.
SIANZ.
TMR GOT SKU.
i wan to sleep and not wake up tmr.......................................................................................................................................................................
argh nvm that won't help
damn it la
i dunno what to say even.
crap.
relax...
haiz.
anyway.
ytd co concert
it was great.
they did a gd job
gave flowers to sarah elaine joscelin
havent pay mr ang back yet hehe. :P
as an erhu player
i specially took note of erhu only
they did pretty well la.
quite pro
but it just takes practice
it's all like this
erhu especially is not that that difficult.
it just takes practice :D
i miss my erhu................... :(
but i still wont go touch it de la :P
oh ya b4 concert.
mr ang send us go SCH from bedok interchange
veron damn bad with directions hehe
told her meet at bus stop oppo interchange
then she go wrong one -.-
anyway then coz cher drive us past bugis
so hehe we made him stop there
then we went food court for dinner
i went bossini say hi first
but only say charleen (morning went parkway say hi
on my way home from translation competition too! haha)
the rest went home le
think sook han was inside but i didnt wait la
i left for my dinner :D
and then veron couldnt find where they were sitting at -.-
LOL damn funny.
she actually has a tracking device in her phone
so that she can be found if she gets lost
LOL damn bad with directions apparently
then cher didnt noe how go SCH from there
see directory sia
i also seesee la but didnt manage to help
he found his way arnd. sianz.
cannot laugh at him hehe :P
after co concert he bring us home
he dropped shermaine first
then he changed cd to s.h.e. songs!! :D:D
not bad he got quite a lot! :D
he wanted to drive me home from expressway
but i dunno that way.
so i tried guiding him the way i know
the way dad usu goes o.O
not exactly but ya i was sort of on the right track
but he didnt trust me -.-
tsk~
i only made 1 mistake!!
oh and a few minor ones hehe :p
i ok with directions de lor!
usually la anyway.im better than a lot ppl.
tt's gd enough :p
but shermaine's pretty gd! haha
today morning
edited gpp that zhenyan sent me
it's still no gd.
so send shermaine
she didnt edit sia
wth lor.
it's NOT perfect can.
cant they put in more effort??
i BET $100000 this wont be approved yet.
aiya what they wan me do sia
argh dun care.
i going to submit it le.
we'll just keep editing the gpp till end of pw
and fail it together.
yay let's all die together~
we'll need a big enough coffin.
then afternoon
dad asked me go sing karaoke lols.
coz home got system.
he started singing la i went bathe
come out then my turn hehe
but i sing not nice
anyhow la.
quite fun though.
sang jj songs and s.h.e. songs
the system not very gd
coz the database not as gd as outside de
but it's free :D
and music not bad
dad on aircon summore
so haha not bad le la :P
then mum walk past me say
u a lot of time ar still playplayplay...
wth.
i so wanted to roll my eyes.
she also what
whole day complain say very tired
so much work to do
no time to rest
say we bully her
she do until no free time
then why is she always with my ipod? -.-
why is she always with my ipod IN FRONT OF TV
AND SITTING ON THE BED?
while i doing work.
lala~yea she's SOOOOO poor thing.
my life is 1000000 times better man
i bully her all day that i suck.
whatever. i cant be bothered
no matter how much i would have cared
it would all fade when things
are repeated SO MUCH.
after dinner i watching show on my ipod
then she scold me.
zzzz hols just started leh :(
cannot slack at all meh
EVERYTIME i slack a bit she also like that
no life man.
jc life is not a life anyway
but still.
argh irritating.
then my dad beside me using com
WORSE STILL
noisy leh
mum scold me he still add fuel
JOKINGLY.
ya like i care he jokin or not.
it still is adding fuel.
my mum always like that de
happy a while then like that
happy a while then like that
repeat that 100 times
and u'll get my point.
life is the same everyday.
she's like this everyday.
sianz. whats so difficult about being happier?
why cant she learn to let go of small things
and see just the big pictures
why cant she care about what she REALLY should
and ignore things she shouldnt?
like why can she be disturbed by mr ang's existence
when there's totally no reason to? -.-
tt pissed me off ytd coz she say so much
that it really was getting on my nerves.
i know she mean well. but still.
she doesnt understand me at all. :(
is she really my mum?
morning i telling her
co concert got invite dance ppl to dance
then she ask me accusingly
so u also went down to dance la?
i was like wth???
what kind of person m i to her?!?!?!
crap.
argh.
seriously.
to her. im a
terrible person
terrible student
terrible daughter
haiz. yea la.
i know.
i suck.
fine i get your point.
my ipod full le memory full
yet i didnt delete the games she want
coz i know she want to play
today i go buy the full version for her summore
but she doesnt know anything man
if she really think im that bad ar
maybe i should be that bad to prove her right?
maybe she will be happier seeing me rebel.
wth.
she scold me for slacking le
and then took my ipod to play with watching tv now leh
sianz.
yesyesyes i noe
im a jc student
i got exams after hols.
but CAN'T I PLAY AT ALL?????
i want my life back!!!!
it's hols after all.......
i will study.......really.....
but before that...... :(
wan me study hard then leave me alone man.
im not totally without self discipline ok!
but i need to be in the right mood
then i can chiong
at least
i FINALLY get a BREAK from school leh
and she wants to deprive me of that little break.
even thurs last day of sku damn tiring
thanks to mardi gras
then friday got pulled out by her go temple
nvr do anything
ytd go competition then concert
ytd i go dinner then dirtied my white pants ma
this morning she ask me to wash it leh
i totally rolled my eyes lor
she didnt see it la coz i was back facing her
i kept quiet didnt say anything
i felt like screaming but whatever
coz after that she ask me about sku again
and ask me buck up etcetc
yea i should
then u leave the rest to urself can anot.
tsk.
maybe she's a superwoman in disguise
tt's y she expects her daughter to be one too.
when i was young
my family was happier...
dad will help mum with things at home
mum did sort of everything..with dad's help la
but she nvr did complain
we went out more often
though they quarrelled so often.
quarrels started increasing over the years.
dad now dun help at all
mum doing lesser yet she's complaining more
clothes are getting washed at half the speed of before
tables are wiped half as often
her work is half of before
she goes out with her fren double of before
but her complains is x4 of last time.
PLUS she expects me to do even more
when MY WORK is increasing now.
yay.
i should quit school
and do household chores at home
so they can both retire.
haiz.
usu parents tell others
about how great their kids are
no matter how bad they are
they wont make them sound that bad
my mum so opposite.
all she talks about is bad stuff
and makes me sounds damn damn bad.
i dunno what i do sia seriously.
i didnt commit any heavenly crime
i didnt do anything bad or what on purpose
i try my best to help her
i try to be gd le.
im just a lazy pig.
what's wrong with that?
im her child.
so it's not entirely my fault.
EH WAIT.
TMR IS MONDAY.
DAMN IT.
BAD. VERY BAD.
SIANZ.
TMR GOT SKU.
i wan to sleep and not wake up tmr.......................................................................................................................................................................
Friday, May 28, 2010
damn it la
what she wan la seriously
just that once
ONNNCEEEE i nvr pick up her call
then my phone sot
i didnt noe got missed call
so they bought my ticket to sg flyer.
i didnt even say i can go or i wan to go leh
then they bought my ticket
and expect me to be going meh
why should i
wan go anytime also can leh
co concert is just this 1 day leh.
go with them also sianz le la
at most give me the ticket
next time i wan go i can just get my fren go with me
whr got waste the ticket.
not like must throw away or sth what
sg flyer wont fly away ok!
wth.
i wan buy flowers for elaine they all
got anything wrong meh
she very mean leh.
only she can care for her friends
only her friends impt ar.
elaine is my best friend in class
and joscelin is my best friend like best friend...
two impt friends both performing tmr
and its co summore
of coz cannot miss la
why doesnt she understand?
she can go out with her friend whenever she wants to
and leave me n my dad alone
she can use money as she like with her friends
do whatever she wants
and then come scold me for putting my friends b4 family
scold me waste money
the flowers are NOT a waste of money
for goodness sake.
she say i now anyhow spend money
dun save money le.
but now dad give me atm card ma how save...
though she doesnt noe la.
she promised to buy my contacts de
how long le...almost half a yr le.
tt time ask her then she ask me ownself save money go buy.
i shouldnt have trusted her.
of coz she wouldnt wanna spend money on sth like that.
everything is unnecessary to her apparently.
but that's HERRR
i dun think that way
why everything must listen to her
i already very gd le leh :(
she was saying she very nice to let me go le
she can dun let me go de
i also can dun listen what
even she dun let.
i can still go de lor
but i didnt buy ticket yet that time
i waited till she gave her approval.
it's always like this.
i try to listen to her as much as possible.
and she takes everything for granted.
she sees only the bad things
and neglect everything else.
then why should i be a gd gal?
she doesnt see it anyway
she doesnt care anyway..
:((((((((((((((((((((
what a waste of water.
just that once
ONNNCEEEE i nvr pick up her call
then my phone sot
i didnt noe got missed call
so they bought my ticket to sg flyer.
i didnt even say i can go or i wan to go leh
then they bought my ticket
and expect me to be going meh
why should i
wan go anytime also can leh
co concert is just this 1 day leh.
go with them also sianz le la
at most give me the ticket
next time i wan go i can just get my fren go with me
whr got waste the ticket.
not like must throw away or sth what
sg flyer wont fly away ok!
wth.
i wan buy flowers for elaine they all
got anything wrong meh
she very mean leh.
only she can care for her friends
only her friends impt ar.
elaine is my best friend in class
and joscelin is my best friend like best friend...
two impt friends both performing tmr
and its co summore
of coz cannot miss la
why doesnt she understand?
she can go out with her friend whenever she wants to
and leave me n my dad alone
she can use money as she like with her friends
do whatever she wants
and then come scold me for putting my friends b4 family
scold me waste money
the flowers are NOT a waste of money
for goodness sake.
she say i now anyhow spend money
dun save money le.
but now dad give me atm card ma how save...
though she doesnt noe la.
she promised to buy my contacts de
how long le...almost half a yr le.
tt time ask her then she ask me ownself save money go buy.
i shouldnt have trusted her.
of coz she wouldnt wanna spend money on sth like that.
everything is unnecessary to her apparently.
but that's HERRR
i dun think that way
why everything must listen to her
i already very gd le leh :(
she was saying she very nice to let me go le
she can dun let me go de
i also can dun listen what
even she dun let.
i can still go de lor
but i didnt buy ticket yet that time
i waited till she gave her approval.
it's always like this.
i try to listen to her as much as possible.
and she takes everything for granted.
she sees only the bad things
and neglect everything else.
then why should i be a gd gal?
she doesnt see it anyway
she doesnt care anyway..
:((((((((((((((((((((
what a waste of water.
much to say
There's so much to say
but I'm lazy to think
and type everything :(
haha.
briefly.
that day talked to mr ang
he likes to see pretty girls hahahaha
no surprise la. all guys like.
:P (weixiang is pretty! :P)
anyway then i was thinking.
who doesnt like eye candies?
we may give anybody with the looks
a second look third look etc
i notice both guys and girls usu haha
sometimes it feels like a wonder
why they so pretty/handsome de
the world is unfair hahahaha
but what really attracts me
is not the looks after all.
o.O like currently, im quite curious about someone
but seriously juz curious o.O
i dunno him la but im curious what kind of person he is
he seems nice o.O
will be great to know him i guess
+ 1 friend is a gd thing haha
then ytd mardi gras
too long to elaborate on.
basically i was in charge since elaine wasnt arnd
quite stressful but ok la
overall quite fun though super tiring.
think we made a loss. not sure yet. o.O
thanks EVERYONE for making my day (:
but I'm lazy to think
and type everything :(
haha.
briefly.
that day talked to mr ang
he likes to see pretty girls hahahaha
no surprise la. all guys like.
:P (weixiang is pretty! :P)
anyway then i was thinking.
who doesnt like eye candies?
we may give anybody with the looks
a second look third look etc
i notice both guys and girls usu haha
sometimes it feels like a wonder
why they so pretty/handsome de
the world is unfair hahahaha
but what really attracts me
is not the looks after all.
o.O like currently, im quite curious about someone
but seriously juz curious o.O
i dunno him la but im curious what kind of person he is
he seems nice o.O
will be great to know him i guess
+ 1 friend is a gd thing haha
then ytd mardi gras
too long to elaborate on.
basically i was in charge since elaine wasnt arnd
quite stressful but ok la
overall quite fun though super tiring.
think we made a loss. not sure yet. o.O
thanks EVERYONE for making my day (:
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
confidence?
What's confidence?
o.O
after talking to mr ang ytd
i thought.
yea i should be more confident.
but then.
how to?
well he say his results boosted his confidence
but then.
mine doesnt.
i dun see ability
how to feel confident? o.O
today was quite fun i mean BP mentoring la.
but then when going home
they were talking about the recent chem test
argh like only our class did badly.
i did soo badly too.
haiz.
char is still coping SO well with EVERYTHING
argh.
why can't i do the same??
i tried keeping awake during lectures le
im doing fine. more and more awake
but today chem rly cannot take it la
and it's not just me.
a lot ppl sleep during chem today hehe
that teacher cant teach
and she's pretty boring apparently.
im not sure coz i wasn't listening
i was REALLY very tired.
haiz.
i also wanna feel confident
i wan to work hard and do well!!!
nvm forget it.
i'll try my best.
i will.
hope it's enough.
just now ate dinner at mac
with yongliang and tengping
apparently yongliang de maths gd de wor
he say until so confident o.O
then i say i only want 1 A for JCT
for maths la.
then he say i must work extra hard
coz he secured a place le
LOL. hmm.
why cant i feel THAT confident? o.O
but then after that he say.
scully i stronger in maths than him haha
i've no idea.
i dunno how well he does...
but the unknown is scarier...
o.O
after talking to mr ang ytd
i thought.
yea i should be more confident.
but then.
how to?
well he say his results boosted his confidence
but then.
mine doesnt.
i dun see ability
how to feel confident? o.O
today was quite fun i mean BP mentoring la.
but then when going home
they were talking about the recent chem test
argh like only our class did badly.
i did soo badly too.
haiz.
char is still coping SO well with EVERYTHING
argh.
why can't i do the same??
i tried keeping awake during lectures le
im doing fine. more and more awake
but today chem rly cannot take it la
and it's not just me.
a lot ppl sleep during chem today hehe
that teacher cant teach
and she's pretty boring apparently.
im not sure coz i wasn't listening
i was REALLY very tired.
haiz.
i also wanna feel confident
i wan to work hard and do well!!!
nvm forget it.
i'll try my best.
i will.
hope it's enough.
just now ate dinner at mac
with yongliang and tengping
apparently yongliang de maths gd de wor
he say until so confident o.O
then i say i only want 1 A for JCT
for maths la.
then he say i must work extra hard
coz he secured a place le
LOL. hmm.
why cant i feel THAT confident? o.O
but then after that he say.
scully i stronger in maths than him haha
i've no idea.
i dunno how well he does...
but the unknown is scarier...
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
im getting old
HAHA the title seems weird.
how can i be old when im only 16 -.-
aiya just that my memory is failing me recently
cant rmb stuff sometimes haha
like i actually had some stuff to post about
ytd. and today.
but then i cant rmb.
not first time le also.
haiz. nvm i rather use the memory space for work.
anwyay some stuff that i DO rmb first!
as i said i tot only i didnt find veron pleasing.
but ying en same as me
today she worse still.
veron managed to irritate/annoy a whole table of ppl!
ok la table only got 5 ppl including her but still!!!
tt's like so super amazing?!?!?!?
actually i juz tried not to roll my eyes
didnt want to bother about her
then she said a line that really made me (*#$(@^#%(#
i just had to say sth haha.
she was saying very qian bian stuff to wanshan
then elaine tried to get her to stop what
then she turn to elaine
said some stuff and then she say STH LIKE
"aiya you always like that de
no wonder no one want to obey you!"
WTH!!! HOW DARE SHE SAY TT TO ELAINE?!?!?
elaine's been trying so damn hard
and she totally stressed out over class stuff
etcetc
and veron had to say sth like that?!?!?
and her tone wasnt even jokin
and she didnt even apologise
i didnt exactly flare up la it wasn't THAT big thing
i just said:"How can you say something like that?!?!"
and i think i was frowning...halfway.
was trying to not frown at least lols.
elaine didnt say anything le la since i said le.
but could tell she was annoyed la.
veron is rly very insensitive man!
although she always tries to deny
or pretend to deny when ppl say her mugger say her pro
but u can tell she's pleased we say that.
and sometimes she likes to praise herself.
she really isnt THAT good u know -.-
not that i care.
but sometimes it gets annoying
esp when the frequency increases constantly.
then today pe lesson ar
me and ying en talking about her
coz veron was ultra irritating during econs too -.-
she ownself talking to herself like that la
go on and on and on
and nothing nice in her words can.
i cant rmb much but she kept making ppl look bad
and make herself look good la.
i do rmb once
she say she later wan go toilet before pe
she asked wanshan wan go with her anot
wanshan havent even reply
then veron continued:
aiya dun want go with you la later you drag me down.
WTH>!??! is she want ppl go WITH HER leh -.-
coz she scared late for pe need do pumping ma
zzzzzzzzzz
she think she verrryy big sia
seriosuly no big deal.
oh ya back to my point.
kailun ask what me n ying en talking about.
then she joined in a bit
then shubei also.
i realised they all dun like veron sia HAHAHAHA
summore they is worse than me de
coz they will show de.
i usu wont.
just now i tell veron she's so irritating and so mean
and so impolite
but i said it jokingly so she probably tot i was jokin
HAHAHHAHA :PPP
anyway kailun say veron EQ low
shubei disagree she say veron is IQ low HAHA
coz she dun think b4 she say anything de lor
insensitive. really.
if not. she is just complacent.
i rather think she's toooo insensitive.
mean lor she.
always say ppl this and that
IN FRONT OF THEM
and sometimes quite harsh some more
not like she very gd what...
how can like that say ppl
im SOOO sure she cant do a better jon than elaine!!
no one in class can!!!
haiz. feel bad for elaine leh.
but today elaine need find ppl go mardi gras briefing on thurs
then she say need responsible ppl
then she asked me go!!!
HAHA i felt honoured being categorised under
her list of responsible ppl :P hehe.
but apparently she couldnt find someone else o.O
hope she will be ok.
after mardi gras and her concert.
she SHOULD be much better le la. hopefully haha (:
kamin is totally her...i dunno what.
essential part of her life or sth like that.
everything is ok with kamin.
nobody is allowed to even touch elaine
other than kamin.
she feels uncomfortable even if it's her very close mum!
only kamin understands her. or so she says.
etc la haha. so basically
our clique is seriously survive within class only lor...
haha. well.
doesnt matter.
we all have friends outside class after all!
vesak day supposed to go out with carol they all
but scared mum dun let
coz saturday going out
so didnt even ask
ask them change day coz summore janice cmi ma
yepp I WAN SEE THEM AGAIN!!! :D
ok i rmbed some things i wanted to mention...
today breaktime
we went library.
me elaine wanshan ying en
shubei and kailun were nearby too.
it was a mass teaching session man!!
coz they haven finish maths poyo
so all trying do but dunno how do.
so well i was there doing nothing
so yupps. hahahaha
actually i was considering whether or not to do econs
not like i know how to do anyway...
then shubei came and ask me if i doing
i say i consider first hahahaha
in the end
there's not even enough time for me to consider.
HAHA busy teaching.
i taught the same question like...hmm 4 times?
HAHA i taught elaine then elaine taught ying en
then i taught kailun
and then shu bei
and then wan shan -.-
LOL and they asked quite a few others too.
wow. haha.
i rly hope i didnt get it wrong
i dun wanna pull them ALL to die with me HAHAHAHA
but it was damn funny la
coz after i teach 3 of them the same ques
then wanshan ask AGAIN
i was like HUH AGAIN??!?!?! why didnt u listen just now?!?!?!
they bully me de sia!!!
hahahahaha
but teaching them is fine la.
i realised my teaching style!!!
haha coz i dun like to tell them straight.
no point
so i always guide them
make them think themselves haha...
keep asking them since this is like that what will happen to this etc
guide. haha if not might as well let them copy. :P
so fun to teach them also
and it helps me think about the ques again.
great haha :D
and today got false fire alarm!
it tripped or sth sku was investigating why.
then just now my dad say is dunno changi beach or somewhr
got fire coz got accident
so smoke travelled thru sg
probably why fire alarm rang ba?
coz timing same summore...
hmm wow.
amazing man the smoke.
we did smell sth but not very strong o.O
nvr tot tt it was due to an accident.....
one more thing.
although i did say b4 that mrs lim really teach very well..
but i still practices new age kungfu in her lessons
most of the time.
well i was tired. :P
and well it was econs after all :P
today i slept thru first period of econs
then i woke up in second period. awake.
and so i listened attentively sort of.
other than veron's chatterings sometimes.
mrs lim rocks!
i feel like i understand econs better now :D
BUT HOWEVER!
understand is one matter.
writing is another matter.
i was telling veron
i understand already. that's great
but i dunno how to put it into words.
then she say: "yea! that's why u are a maths person"
yea true. tt's...sad?
coz other than maths, every other sub needs lots writing -.-
argh. VERY BAD!!! haiz
oh ya during econs,
we came across rectangular hyperbola in the graphs
then veron kept bugging me with maths
saying i would do well in econs coz related to maths
and then keep saying maths stuff
then she call me maths freak
drew a maths freak face on my paper etc -.-
i ignored her almost completely
and she stopped after a while. im glad.
oh and i got 0
a big fat 0
a belated breakfast for my econs mini test. -.-
it was on perfect competition.zzzz
chem whole class AVERAGE is 4
not lowest ok
is AVERAGE. 4/24!!!
i got 6 elaine 8 sarah 11
sad.
sad.
all my hopes are on maths.
how can i be old when im only 16 -.-
aiya just that my memory is failing me recently
cant rmb stuff sometimes haha
like i actually had some stuff to post about
ytd. and today.
but then i cant rmb.
not first time le also.
haiz. nvm i rather use the memory space for work.
anwyay some stuff that i DO rmb first!
as i said i tot only i didnt find veron pleasing.
but ying en same as me
today she worse still.
veron managed to irritate/annoy a whole table of ppl!
ok la table only got 5 ppl including her but still!!!
tt's like so super amazing?!?!?!?
actually i juz tried not to roll my eyes
didnt want to bother about her
then she said a line that really made me (*#$(@^#%(#
i just had to say sth haha.
she was saying very qian bian stuff to wanshan
then elaine tried to get her to stop what
then she turn to elaine
said some stuff and then she say STH LIKE
"aiya you always like that de
no wonder no one want to obey you!"
WTH!!! HOW DARE SHE SAY TT TO ELAINE?!?!?
elaine's been trying so damn hard
and she totally stressed out over class stuff
etcetc
and veron had to say sth like that?!?!?
and her tone wasnt even jokin
and she didnt even apologise
i didnt exactly flare up la it wasn't THAT big thing
i just said:"How can you say something like that?!?!"
and i think i was frowning...halfway.
was trying to not frown at least lols.
elaine didnt say anything le la since i said le.
but could tell she was annoyed la.
veron is rly very insensitive man!
although she always tries to deny
or pretend to deny when ppl say her mugger say her pro
but u can tell she's pleased we say that.
and sometimes she likes to praise herself.
she really isnt THAT good u know -.-
not that i care.
but sometimes it gets annoying
esp when the frequency increases constantly.
then today pe lesson ar
me and ying en talking about her
coz veron was ultra irritating during econs too -.-
she ownself talking to herself like that la
go on and on and on
and nothing nice in her words can.
i cant rmb much but she kept making ppl look bad
and make herself look good la.
i do rmb once
she say she later wan go toilet before pe
she asked wanshan wan go with her anot
wanshan havent even reply
then veron continued:
aiya dun want go with you la later you drag me down.
WTH>!??! is she want ppl go WITH HER leh -.-
coz she scared late for pe need do pumping ma
zzzzzzzzzz
she think she verrryy big sia
seriosuly no big deal.
oh ya back to my point.
kailun ask what me n ying en talking about.
then she joined in a bit
then shubei also.
i realised they all dun like veron sia HAHAHAHA
summore they is worse than me de
coz they will show de.
i usu wont.
just now i tell veron she's so irritating and so mean
and so impolite
but i said it jokingly so she probably tot i was jokin
HAHAHHAHA :PPP
anyway kailun say veron EQ low
shubei disagree she say veron is IQ low HAHA
coz she dun think b4 she say anything de lor
insensitive. really.
if not. she is just complacent.
i rather think she's toooo insensitive.
mean lor she.
always say ppl this and that
IN FRONT OF THEM
and sometimes quite harsh some more
not like she very gd what...
how can like that say ppl
im SOOO sure she cant do a better jon than elaine!!
no one in class can!!!
haiz. feel bad for elaine leh.
but today elaine need find ppl go mardi gras briefing on thurs
then she say need responsible ppl
then she asked me go!!!
HAHA i felt honoured being categorised under
her list of responsible ppl :P hehe.
but apparently she couldnt find someone else o.O
hope she will be ok.
after mardi gras and her concert.
she SHOULD be much better le la. hopefully haha (:
kamin is totally her...i dunno what.
essential part of her life or sth like that.
everything is ok with kamin.
nobody is allowed to even touch elaine
other than kamin.
she feels uncomfortable even if it's her very close mum!
only kamin understands her. or so she says.
etc la haha. so basically
our clique is seriously survive within class only lor...
haha. well.
doesnt matter.
we all have friends outside class after all!
vesak day supposed to go out with carol they all
but scared mum dun let
coz saturday going out
so didnt even ask
ask them change day coz summore janice cmi ma
yepp I WAN SEE THEM AGAIN!!! :D
ok i rmbed some things i wanted to mention...
today breaktime
we went library.
me elaine wanshan ying en
shubei and kailun were nearby too.
it was a mass teaching session man!!
coz they haven finish maths poyo
so all trying do but dunno how do.
so well i was there doing nothing
so yupps. hahahaha
actually i was considering whether or not to do econs
not like i know how to do anyway...
then shubei came and ask me if i doing
i say i consider first hahahaha
in the end
there's not even enough time for me to consider.
HAHA busy teaching.
i taught the same question like...hmm 4 times?
HAHA i taught elaine then elaine taught ying en
then i taught kailun
and then shu bei
and then wan shan -.-
LOL and they asked quite a few others too.
wow. haha.
i rly hope i didnt get it wrong
i dun wanna pull them ALL to die with me HAHAHAHA
but it was damn funny la
coz after i teach 3 of them the same ques
then wanshan ask AGAIN
i was like HUH AGAIN??!?!?! why didnt u listen just now?!?!?!
they bully me de sia!!!
hahahahaha
but teaching them is fine la.
i realised my teaching style!!!
haha coz i dun like to tell them straight.
no point
so i always guide them
make them think themselves haha...
keep asking them since this is like that what will happen to this etc
guide. haha if not might as well let them copy. :P
so fun to teach them also
and it helps me think about the ques again.
great haha :D
and today got false fire alarm!
it tripped or sth sku was investigating why.
then just now my dad say is dunno changi beach or somewhr
got fire coz got accident
so smoke travelled thru sg
probably why fire alarm rang ba?
coz timing same summore...
hmm wow.
amazing man the smoke.
we did smell sth but not very strong o.O
nvr tot tt it was due to an accident.....
one more thing.
although i did say b4 that mrs lim really teach very well..
but i still practices new age kungfu in her lessons
most of the time.
well i was tired. :P
and well it was econs after all :P
today i slept thru first period of econs
then i woke up in second period. awake.
and so i listened attentively sort of.
other than veron's chatterings sometimes.
mrs lim rocks!
i feel like i understand econs better now :D
BUT HOWEVER!
understand is one matter.
writing is another matter.
i was telling veron
i understand already. that's great
but i dunno how to put it into words.
then she say: "yea! that's why u are a maths person"
yea true. tt's...sad?
coz other than maths, every other sub needs lots writing -.-
argh. VERY BAD!!! haiz
oh ya during econs,
we came across rectangular hyperbola in the graphs
then veron kept bugging me with maths
saying i would do well in econs coz related to maths
and then keep saying maths stuff
then she call me maths freak
drew a maths freak face on my paper etc -.-
i ignored her almost completely
and she stopped after a while. im glad.
oh and i got 0
a big fat 0
a belated breakfast for my econs mini test. -.-
it was on perfect competition.zzzz
chem whole class AVERAGE is 4
not lowest ok
is AVERAGE. 4/24!!!
i got 6 elaine 8 sarah 11
sad.
sad.
all my hopes are on maths.
Monday, May 24, 2010
我不是路痴！
today meet mr ang for tuition
then he say take any bus from the bedok mrt bus stop
i took 35
then he say he think 35 cannot
so i got down at 1st stop
took 24
he say get down after see stadium
but i didnt see stadium sia HAHA
then i missed the right stop.
after all the hoo-ha
i realised it's just the bus stop
i always take bus 31 home from when i was in ahs!!!
so diao can
-.- -.- -.-
hahahaha anyway~
summore his house ar
is the last time always walk past de!
hahahaha
yea la then he lead me in la
10th storey!
then he still tell me scenery very nice
happy falling down if i jump -.- LOL
coz mum keep worrying about me being there
she still tell me dun drink drinks from his house sia
HAHA damn comical.
anyway the lesson was fine.
oh ya today got back maths test
so let mr ang see lor.
i only scored 16/30 sia
super horrible~coz no time finish ma.
yepp cher went thru the ques
and tell me they are easy what!!
LOL whatever!!!!!!! -.-
the lesson was pretty comical HAHAHA
then he teach me sth sku didnt!
tt's great.
though he say normal ppl would be able to deduce tt
i was like ya im abnormal
then he say sth like no la usu ppl who think logically can
then i was like tt doesnt sound much nicer
HAHAHAHA
whatever lor~~~~
i normal AND logical OK!! :PPPPP
then after that he scared i cannot find my way out sia
then i say it's my territory HAHAHAHA
then go ask him whr's the lift. just for fun hahahaha
he ask me jump down. it's faster. -.- wth.
HAHAHA
after tt i tot of sth. i should have pointed at the lift
and asked him how to get there. tt's funnier HAHA :D
after that i left ar
i couldnt find my way out of the place sia
what a maze!
HAHAHAHA
then he keep laughing at me
for not seeing the stadium earlier on
and not being able to find my way -.-
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
hahahaha weird.
i used to be gd with directions..... :( haha
but im gd at rmb-ing ways and directions
today go once.
i wont forget...hopefully :D
then he say take any bus from the bedok mrt bus stop
i took 35
then he say he think 35 cannot
so i got down at 1st stop
took 24
he say get down after see stadium
but i didnt see stadium sia HAHA
then i missed the right stop.
after all the hoo-ha
i realised it's just the bus stop
i always take bus 31 home from when i was in ahs!!!
so diao can
-.- -.- -.-
hahahaha anyway~
summore his house ar
is the last time always walk past de!
hahahaha
yea la then he lead me in la
10th storey!
then he still tell me scenery very nice
happy falling down if i jump -.- LOL
coz mum keep worrying about me being there
she still tell me dun drink drinks from his house sia
HAHA damn comical.
anyway the lesson was fine.
oh ya today got back maths test
so let mr ang see lor.
i only scored 16/30 sia
super horrible~coz no time finish ma.
yepp cher went thru the ques
and tell me they are easy what!!
LOL whatever!!!!!!! -.-
the lesson was pretty comical HAHAHA
then he teach me sth sku didnt!
tt's great.
though he say normal ppl would be able to deduce tt
i was like ya im abnormal
then he say sth like no la usu ppl who think logically can
then i was like tt doesnt sound much nicer
HAHAHAHA
whatever lor~~~~
i normal AND logical OK!! :PPPPP
then after that he scared i cannot find my way out sia
then i say it's my territory HAHAHAHA
then go ask him whr's the lift. just for fun hahahaha
he ask me jump down. it's faster. -.- wth.
HAHAHA
after tt i tot of sth. i should have pointed at the lift
and asked him how to get there. tt's funnier HAHA :D
after that i left ar
i couldnt find my way out of the place sia
what a maze!
HAHAHAHA
then he keep laughing at me
for not seeing the stadium earlier on
and not being able to find my way -.-
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
hahahaha weird.
i used to be gd with directions..... :( haha
but im gd at rmb-ing ways and directions
today go once.
i wont forget...hopefully :D
Sunday, May 23, 2010
not bad le la
hmm
today nvr meet them after all..
shermaine ytd say after 2 then can
zhenyan got competition
then zk say she ytd very late reach home
today wan catch up on her work........
lols we all need to catch up what...
haiz.nvm
then wan meet on9
till now then going start sia lols
but i received their research le
hopefully it's gd enough.
gd luck.
but they have been very nice le actually :D
friday zhenyan and susan apologised for not having done much
lols. a bit funny. i just nvm la it's okay.
no need to apologise de la coz they is rl busy
not fake de ma.
haha...yea lor then ar
shermaine keep telling me
dun stress out they will try to help me
errr nice of her but hopefully they rly do o.O
zk thanks me all the time hahaha
and she does help a lot le la.
so yea not bad not bad...hehe. :P
class fund accounts don't tally!!
sianz im such a lousy treasurer -.-
argh. money leh!!!
then need colelct another $12 each from them
elaine super nice leh
i super touched!!
she sms whole class
help me explain y i need collect so much again
then ask them dun bully me
bully me= bully her then they will die horribly
HAHA so nice right?!?!?!
wow. haha.... :D:D comforting sia hahaha
today nvr meet them after all..
shermaine ytd say after 2 then can
zhenyan got competition
then zk say she ytd very late reach home
today wan catch up on her work........
lols we all need to catch up what...
haiz.nvm
then wan meet on9
till now then going start sia lols
but i received their research le
hopefully it's gd enough.
gd luck.
but they have been very nice le actually :D
friday zhenyan and susan apologised for not having done much
lols. a bit funny. i just nvm la it's okay.
no need to apologise de la coz they is rl busy
not fake de ma.
haha...yea lor then ar
shermaine keep telling me
dun stress out they will try to help me
errr nice of her but hopefully they rly do o.O
zk thanks me all the time hahaha
and she does help a lot le la.
so yea not bad not bad...hehe. :P
class fund accounts don't tally!!
sianz im such a lousy treasurer -.-
argh. money leh!!!
then need colelct another $12 each from them
elaine super nice leh
i super touched!!
she sms whole class
help me explain y i need collect so much again
then ask them dun bully me
bully me= bully her then they will die horribly
HAHA so nice right?!?!?!
wow. haha.... :D:D comforting sia hahaha
Saturday, May 22, 2010
unproductive!!
sianz today suuuuper unproductive lor.
woke up at 12.40 like that
then read times magazine 3 copies!!
coz i previous weeks no time read ma
so ar waste so much time
3+ went buy lunch
then after lunch do maths
did mr ang's assignment la
tt's the only thing i did.
till now.
wow.
slacker sia -.-
im so worried for my june hols!!
how much time will i spend on studying?
i tot i had bout 3 weeks
then more n more stuff popped up~
need go this make up that make up
need go study with whowhowho
then this and that
cham la no time.
even if got time
how do i be sure that i wont slack!?!?!?
AHHHH cham.
this week still got lots haven do!
then tmr need do gpp!
AHHH SO UNPRODUCTIVE!!!!
say till gpp ar
sianz sia
i dunno wan meet whr...
they wan come my house
but i haven ask mum yet
she sure not happy la...
the others also la
y my house AGAIN????
zzz i really wan resign from my post man
they are so unethu about this thing
no one rly bothers...
can push then push everything away de...haiz...
oh ya this afternoon damn funny
today i tell mum i monday going cher's house for tuition
then she was like: "her husband not home meh?"
HAHA then i was like he guy la~~~
then she so surprised can...
then she started telling me
must be careful etcetcetc
cannot judge ppl by their cover
got anything must tell them etc
she went on and on la
was quite irritating
so i just conc on being entertained hahaha
i so wanted to laugh la
coz cher teach for free summore ma
so ya even worse HAHAHA
hmm but then my mum also said
she hope i can ask him about other subs also -.-
dun care her la think too much haha :P
then she ask me to ask how much he usu charge
then ask if he can teach tingting anot leh
i was like huhhh
mr ang should be only teach jc de lor~
and mr ang like super busy like that hahaha
so many tuition kids le
like that still can take me~
arigato hahahaha :P
oh i just asked mum whether they can come tmr
then haiz
ok is ok la
now nagging liao lor -.-
say can but morning must wake up earlier
help her do housework first
i so much work left
got time might as well go do work~
tsk.
but bo bian la.
then she dun wan cook lunch for them again...-.-
lols. fine.
then only can till 5. okok.
then cannot like last time like tt
halfway all gone left zk and me only.
if not very slow then need keep meet up.
haiyo.
i cant help it la.
they whole day so busy de.
i also hope they can stay la...
i feel like shirking everything off sia hehe :P
hmm today nvr research for them
nvm ba?
time for me to slack in pw lor
done more than them le anyway~
tmr HOPEFULLY can complete la
monday need hand in leh......................
oh damn it.
zk just msged me say she tmr cannot make it.
(*#&$^!*^$!*
zhenyan also cannot make it.
i tot at least got 4 ppl leh.
shermaine say after 2 then free. still ok.
now like that is how sia
wth.
THEY ALWAYS SO BUSY THEN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED DO????
i dun wanna do it AGAIN........................
woke up at 12.40 like that
then read times magazine 3 copies!!
coz i previous weeks no time read ma
so ar waste so much time
3+ went buy lunch
then after lunch do maths
did mr ang's assignment la
tt's the only thing i did.
till now.
wow.
slacker sia -.-
im so worried for my june hols!!
how much time will i spend on studying?
i tot i had bout 3 weeks
then more n more stuff popped up~
need go this make up that make up
need go study with whowhowho
then this and that
cham la no time.
even if got time
how do i be sure that i wont slack!?!?!?
AHHHH cham.
this week still got lots haven do!
then tmr need do gpp!
AHHH SO UNPRODUCTIVE!!!!
say till gpp ar
sianz sia
i dunno wan meet whr...
they wan come my house
but i haven ask mum yet
she sure not happy la...
the others also la
y my house AGAIN????
zzz i really wan resign from my post man
they are so unethu about this thing
no one rly bothers...
can push then push everything away de...haiz...
oh ya this afternoon damn funny
today i tell mum i monday going cher's house for tuition
then she was like: "her husband not home meh?"
HAHA then i was like he guy la~~~
then she so surprised can...
then she started telling me
must be careful etcetcetc
cannot judge ppl by their cover
got anything must tell them etc
she went on and on la
was quite irritating
so i just conc on being entertained hahaha
i so wanted to laugh la
coz cher teach for free summore ma
so ya even worse HAHAHA
hmm but then my mum also said
she hope i can ask him about other subs also -.-
dun care her la think too much haha :P
then she ask me to ask how much he usu charge
then ask if he can teach tingting anot leh
i was like huhhh
mr ang should be only teach jc de lor~
and mr ang like super busy like that hahaha
so many tuition kids le
like that still can take me~
arigato hahahaha :P
oh i just asked mum whether they can come tmr
then haiz
ok is ok la
now nagging liao lor -.-
say can but morning must wake up earlier
help her do housework first
i so much work left
got time might as well go do work~
tsk.
but bo bian la.
then she dun wan cook lunch for them again...-.-
lols. fine.
then only can till 5. okok.
then cannot like last time like tt
halfway all gone left zk and me only.
if not very slow then need keep meet up.
haiyo.
i cant help it la.
they whole day so busy de.
i also hope they can stay la...
i feel like shirking everything off sia hehe :P
hmm today nvr research for them
nvm ba?
time for me to slack in pw lor
done more than them le anyway~
tmr HOPEFULLY can complete la
monday need hand in leh......................
oh damn it.
zk just msged me say she tmr cannot make it.
(*#&$^!*^$!*
zhenyan also cannot make it.
i tot at least got 4 ppl leh.
shermaine say after 2 then free. still ok.
now like that is how sia
wth.
THEY ALWAYS SO BUSY THEN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED DO????
i dun wanna do it AGAIN........................
Friday, May 21, 2010
so many questions but no answers...
Yesterday emo ma
So didnt study chem at all la
Haiz sianz
Then today pe ar
Sarah ask if we studied I say no
She dun believe -.-
I say I didn't even touch the paper la sianz
Then well she wasn't facing me
But I think she made a face la
Coz shermaine was facing us then
she looked at Sarah with a weird expression
Then made a face.
Well they dun believe then dun believe lor wth...
I was in a bad enough mood la
They didn't have to make it worse.....
Other than that I was okay today
Well I was smiley enough...Normal
But sth just doesn't feel right
Dunno la just a little emo I guess
Though I was totally normal laughing and everything...weird
But it was fine la
Chem test was fine I guess
wasnt as bad as i expected at least...
I got a bad feeling though.
Well I should be able to pass
Wouldn't score THAT BADLY i guess
But then Sarah they all would probably start getting irritated at me
Accusing me of having mugged ytd
just like with maths...
Haiz wow I can predict the future eh?
Aiya not surprising la. Sianz.
Sometimes life just sux
I dun wan think so much also la but... :( habit le ba I guess.
Moody these few days been thinking more.
For nothing...
Then today supplier came
apparently our pullover is ready.
But we not enough money to pay sia
Coz some freaking annoying owe a lot of money
and just doesn't want to pay
And they are currently in Poland so can't help it.
I had to fork out 50 bucks leh wanshan forked out $10 too.
Wth la.
Haiz nvm I'll get the money back from them next week definitely.
No matter what. My patience has a limit...
Lunchtime I had to check all the accounts coz it doesn't tally.
We are sooo poor le short of a lot money dunno y.
Can't seem to find whr all the money went to
im not a good treasurer la :(
Haiz Elaine ask me go home then count so okay la
Whole lunchtime someone was being so super freaking annoying
as usual la...morning break she also damn annoying
Ok she's always like tt
Sometimes I dun care but today I guess I'm really in a bad mood?
I was pretty irritated
But i didn't say anything of coz. What can i say...
After lunch once we get up
I immediately go whisper to ying en
Say that person freaking annoying la
Then ying en agreed!! Quite enthusiastically summore haha
She couldn't tolerate her either.
Phew it's not just me after all.
It's quite comforting to know that it's not my problem
she's annoying to others too...
Then GP lesson ar...haiz sad
A lot of people not around sia
Then Cher ask
if we got representatives from each of the PW groups at least
ask us get into groups
Then I realised sth.
Pathetic.
My group only got me sia.
So I joined wanshan and ying en for gp coz their grp only them.
Gp was fine lor then PW...
Well they started discussing pw
So i had nothing to do.
I looked around...All the groups discussing pw....
Well my grp members not there I dun blame them but...
What I saw in the other groups was involvement...
Everyone was discussing...They gathered tgt head to head disussing...
I nvr saw it in my group...
My group was seldom full all coming together
and even if they tgt
They nvr showed that level of interest and involvement.
I wondered why...
do they rly want their A grade?
Or am I supposed to get it for them?
Why do they not care?!!!?!!
Maybe I've been doing too much for them
that they forgot that this is a group project
that is diffcult and needs everyone's help...
I was feeling more emo la lols...
Then after sku I went toilet that time saw ms ong...
Coz she met us ytd and told us about some stuff to find out
So just now she ask me if we had done our research
I said no then she say actually she did some research le!!!
I was surprised..
Even our own group members didn't bother.............
I didn't know what to say. Really.
I felt guilty. It was our project after all....
What's wrong with them...don't they feel guilty at all?
Why don't they help??
They can't wait for me for everything what they can volunteer....
argh that's impossible.
Then with new info given my ms ong
we have to rethink our gpp
so i asked them come on9 later.
zhenyan say she 9 then reach home
shermaine say she having class outside
zhekang say she will reach home very late
only susan say ok -.-
wth la
we out of time le leh.
so what???
since i so free so i should do it again ar?
they all got too much commitment la
i feel suay -.-
y our group so not productive
compared to the other groups?!?!?!?!
im such a lousy leader man.
i rmb months ago
wanshan say she envy me n elaine
coz we can lead.
she's wrong apparently.
i cant lead.
im a better follower...
Anyway I was really upset.
I dunno exactly why I so emo today
Maybe pms haha coz I rly dunno y
Then went toilet ar I cried a bit there la
couldnt take it la must be crazy le...
Lols lucky no one realised....
What's wrong with me man keep want cry recently -.-
sot le la..
I till now still can't control my tear glands sia haha...haiz.
Cry at everything la literally
Morning got once i was laughing suddenly a bit teary
so irritating so abnormal...
Then went Leo and damn bored
Sit there listen to them talk only
I nodded off la of coz lols
They talk finish supposed to have games de
in the end cancelledThen dismissed lols
waste my time....
But coz I didn't think much le
And I talked to char too
so I felt better haha ((:
Hopefully this random emoness will pass soon...
it's so abnormal....
Sometimes I feel like a weirdo.
No one understands me truly not even myself...
I have different thinking from most people
and it seems more obvious now in my current clique lols...
It's difficult to communicate with others
coz I'm like on different wavelength as them like tt la...
Sianz de leh.
I dun understand them la
I feel like I just dunno why they behave a certain way sometimes...
Though I feel like a weirdo
I dun feel...wrong.
At least I have similar thinking to mr ang hahha :P
Whatever la I'm sure there will be people who understands me...
But before they appear...I'll survive alone.
I can do that. It's easy.
Been doing that for so long le after all...
to me, happiness is THE key.
i rather just lead a simple life and be HAPPY!
but my parents only know how to talk about $$
to them MONEY IS THE KEY -.-
haiz. different wavelength totally
sure diff communicate de la...
but without happiness
nothing matter anymore!
with so much money and a miserable life
life has no point. what a waste.
life comes n go. only one chance.
why waste it on $$$!!
haiyo...what's wrong with the world man.
reality is cruel.
we cant survive without money
but we dun need THAT much $$ either
i just want sufficient to survive and
a bit more for occasional splurging
i dun wanna be some super rich person.
my parents think otherwise.
but nvm it doesnt matter.
even if i become the top scholar one day
i wouldnt be happy if im alone.
it's sad to be too high up on top
with no one around u. no one supporting u
no one feeling happy for u.
alone.
i dun want that.
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
HAPPINESS IS THE KEY!!!
money comes from you, from the society, from the gvt
happiness comes from the heart...
from care and love and concern from others
things that give u warmth
brightens up ur day no matter how dark it had been
that's what is important.....isn't it?
or am i wrong?
为什么世界要这么复杂？
为什么人心那么难捉摸？haiz.
i dunno what i live for.
i dunno what we live for.
we enter this world
innocent and pure.
ignorant even.
but at that time
our needs our wants are so simple
we were easily satisfied
we were easily happy
we were easily entertained.
as we grow up
we see more reality of life
we study study study and still study
for what?
with the aim to earn big bucks next time?
what's the point?
even if we really start earning big bucks
life stil goes on as usual
this is the same even if we DONT earn big bucks.
and then we get old
we get sick
then we die.
then it's the cycle again for the next generation.
what's the point?
i cant figure that out
since long time ago
i keep thinking about this
what do we live for?
if we are going to die anyway
why do we live?
what should be the ultimate goal in life?
what should we do to make this short
and somewhat pointless life worthwhile?
leave a part of us in someone else's heart
even if one day we leave...
is there a right answer to everything?
why can't we live life just as we want to?
why are there so much rules
useless ones...
laws have to be there. there's reason
but more freedom will be greatly appreciated
esp from parents
who should TRY to understand things from our views...
some ppl just dun understand
the world doesn't revolve around them lor...
why can they be so oblivious to everything else
other than themselves??
im sensitive to that coz i see too much
i dun like being oblivious
i like to observe ppl
understand ppl.
leading to me accomodating to them very often.
is that a bad thing?
maybe....
so many questions i have.
all without an answer...
So didnt study chem at all la
Haiz sianz
Then today pe ar
Sarah ask if we studied I say no
She dun believe -.-
I say I didn't even touch the paper la sianz
Then well she wasn't facing me
But I think she made a face la
Coz shermaine was facing us then
she looked at Sarah with a weird expression
Then made a face.
Well they dun believe then dun believe lor wth...
I was in a bad enough mood la
They didn't have to make it worse.....
Other than that I was okay today
Well I was smiley enough...Normal
But sth just doesn't feel right
Dunno la just a little emo I guess
Though I was totally normal laughing and everything...weird
But it was fine la
Chem test was fine I guess
wasnt as bad as i expected at least...
I got a bad feeling though.
Well I should be able to pass
Wouldn't score THAT BADLY i guess
But then Sarah they all would probably start getting irritated at me
Accusing me of having mugged ytd
just like with maths...
Haiz wow I can predict the future eh?
Aiya not surprising la. Sianz.
Sometimes life just sux
I dun wan think so much also la but... :( habit le ba I guess.
Moody these few days been thinking more.
For nothing...
Then today supplier came
apparently our pullover is ready.
But we not enough money to pay sia
Coz some freaking annoying owe a lot of money
and just doesn't want to pay
And they are currently in Poland so can't help it.
I had to fork out 50 bucks leh wanshan forked out $10 too.
Wth la.
Haiz nvm I'll get the money back from them next week definitely.
No matter what. My patience has a limit...
Lunchtime I had to check all the accounts coz it doesn't tally.
We are sooo poor le short of a lot money dunno y.
Can't seem to find whr all the money went to
im not a good treasurer la :(
Haiz Elaine ask me go home then count so okay la
Whole lunchtime someone was being so super freaking annoying
as usual la...morning break she also damn annoying
Ok she's always like tt
Sometimes I dun care but today I guess I'm really in a bad mood?
I was pretty irritated
But i didn't say anything of coz. What can i say...
After lunch once we get up
I immediately go whisper to ying en
Say that person freaking annoying la
Then ying en agreed!! Quite enthusiastically summore haha
She couldn't tolerate her either.
Phew it's not just me after all.
It's quite comforting to know that it's not my problem
she's annoying to others too...
Then GP lesson ar...haiz sad
A lot of people not around sia
Then Cher ask
if we got representatives from each of the PW groups at least
ask us get into groups
Then I realised sth.
Pathetic.
My group only got me sia.
So I joined wanshan and ying en for gp coz their grp only them.
Gp was fine lor then PW...
Well they started discussing pw
So i had nothing to do.
I looked around...All the groups discussing pw....
Well my grp members not there I dun blame them but...
What I saw in the other groups was involvement...
Everyone was discussing...They gathered tgt head to head disussing...
I nvr saw it in my group...
My group was seldom full all coming together
and even if they tgt
They nvr showed that level of interest and involvement.
I wondered why...
do they rly want their A grade?
Or am I supposed to get it for them?
Why do they not care?!!!?!!
Maybe I've been doing too much for them
that they forgot that this is a group project
that is diffcult and needs everyone's help...
I was feeling more emo la lols...
Then after sku I went toilet that time saw ms ong...
Coz she met us ytd and told us about some stuff to find out
So just now she ask me if we had done our research
I said no then she say actually she did some research le!!!
I was surprised..
Even our own group members didn't bother.............
I didn't know what to say. Really.
I felt guilty. It was our project after all....
What's wrong with them...don't they feel guilty at all?
Why don't they help??
They can't wait for me for everything what they can volunteer....
argh that's impossible.
Then with new info given my ms ong
we have to rethink our gpp
so i asked them come on9 later.
zhenyan say she 9 then reach home
shermaine say she having class outside
zhekang say she will reach home very late
only susan say ok -.-
wth la
we out of time le leh.
so what???
since i so free so i should do it again ar?
they all got too much commitment la
i feel suay -.-
y our group so not productive
compared to the other groups?!?!?!?!
im such a lousy leader man.
i rmb months ago
wanshan say she envy me n elaine
coz we can lead.
she's wrong apparently.
i cant lead.
im a better follower...
Anyway I was really upset.
I dunno exactly why I so emo today
Maybe pms haha coz I rly dunno y
Then went toilet ar I cried a bit there la
couldnt take it la must be crazy le...
Lols lucky no one realised....
What's wrong with me man keep want cry recently -.-
sot le la..
I till now still can't control my tear glands sia haha...haiz.
Cry at everything la literally
Morning got once i was laughing suddenly a bit teary
so irritating so abnormal...
Then went Leo and damn bored
Sit there listen to them talk only
I nodded off la of coz lols
They talk finish supposed to have games de
in the end cancelledThen dismissed lols
waste my time....
But coz I didn't think much le
And I talked to char too
so I felt better haha ((:
Hopefully this random emoness will pass soon...
it's so abnormal....
Sometimes I feel like a weirdo.
No one understands me truly not even myself...
I have different thinking from most people
and it seems more obvious now in my current clique lols...
It's difficult to communicate with others
coz I'm like on different wavelength as them like tt la...
Sianz de leh.
I dun understand them la
I feel like I just dunno why they behave a certain way sometimes...
Though I feel like a weirdo
I dun feel...wrong.
At least I have similar thinking to mr ang hahha :P
Whatever la I'm sure there will be people who understands me...
But before they appear...I'll survive alone.
I can do that. It's easy.
Been doing that for so long le after all...
to me, happiness is THE key.
i rather just lead a simple life and be HAPPY!
but my parents only know how to talk about $$
to them MONEY IS THE KEY -.-
haiz. different wavelength totally
sure diff communicate de la...
but without happiness
nothing matter anymore!
with so much money and a miserable life
life has no point. what a waste.
life comes n go. only one chance.
why waste it on $$$!!
haiyo...what's wrong with the world man.
reality is cruel.
we cant survive without money
but we dun need THAT much $$ either
i just want sufficient to survive and
a bit more for occasional splurging
i dun wanna be some super rich person.
my parents think otherwise.
but nvm it doesnt matter.
even if i become the top scholar one day
i wouldnt be happy if im alone.
it's sad to be too high up on top
with no one around u. no one supporting u
no one feeling happy for u.
alone.
i dun want that.
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
HAPPINESS IS THE KEY!!!
money comes from you, from the society, from the gvt
happiness comes from the heart...
from care and love and concern from others
things that give u warmth
brightens up ur day no matter how dark it had been
that's what is important.....isn't it?
or am i wrong?
为什么世界要这么复杂？
为什么人心那么难捉摸？haiz.
i dunno what i live for.
i dunno what we live for.
we enter this world
innocent and pure.
ignorant even.
but at that time
our needs our wants are so simple
we were easily satisfied
we were easily happy
we were easily entertained.
as we grow up
we see more reality of life
we study study study and still study
for what?
with the aim to earn big bucks next time?
what's the point?
even if we really start earning big bucks
life stil goes on as usual
this is the same even if we DONT earn big bucks.
and then we get old
we get sick
then we die.
then it's the cycle again for the next generation.
what's the point?
i cant figure that out
since long time ago
i keep thinking about this
what do we live for?
if we are going to die anyway
why do we live?
what should be the ultimate goal in life?
what should we do to make this short
and somewhat pointless life worthwhile?
leave a part of us in someone else's heart
even if one day we leave...
is there a right answer to everything?
why can't we live life just as we want to?
why are there so much rules
useless ones...
laws have to be there. there's reason
but more freedom will be greatly appreciated
esp from parents
who should TRY to understand things from our views...
some ppl just dun understand
the world doesn't revolve around them lor...
why can they be so oblivious to everything else
other than themselves??
im sensitive to that coz i see too much
i dun like being oblivious
i like to observe ppl
understand ppl.
leading to me accomodating to them very often.
is that a bad thing?
maybe....
so many questions i have.
all without an answer...
Thursday, May 20, 2010
feeling a bit...emo
as the title says.
in sku was ok
i cant rmb if anything happened
but got maths test.
i spent too much useless time on graphing
didnt plan my time well
so couldnt finish
got 7 marks not complete.
and 1 part of Q3 dunno how do. that's 4 marks
total 30.
well. HOPEFULLY i get 19 or 20 at least :((
it's damn bad le la.
but most ppl cant finish i think
and they dunno how do in front.
well it's rly irritating for me
coz I KNOW HOW DO
i just didnt have time.
its such a pity.
only that one part dunno lor... :(
haiz. nvm. i'll work harder.
i must do better.
i really have serious problems with
time management and presentation when it comes to math
i realise...
hopefully sth can be done -.-
my presentation very bad also!
always dunno how to present.
i understand what is asked
sort of know the answer
but i dunno whether can just write the answer alone
i dunno what they are looking for.
argh dumb areas.
as time passes by
i feel more and more determined
to study
to work hard
to do well.
but.
i can't do it just by this alone.
not when i have so much more to care about
i dun wanna neglect anything else...
i know my mum is tired.
she's old already
she's been thru a lot
at this age my dad is so annoyingly annoying
(sorry limited vocab :P)
he used to help mum a lot
and he didnt bother me de
even at that time there are quarrels and everything
but it only got worse over the years...
nothing has improved.
it has deteriorated instead...
now my dad doesnt help my mum with ANYTHING.
all he does is go to work
and give us money.
well it's very impt but seriously.
he comes home and slack for the rest of the day
slump in front of the tv till dinner
after dinner tv again then sleep.
then like to anyhow waste money.
we not happy about it
but he earned the money. what can we say?
he still can come tell me he very tired that day
the only chore he do at home now is wash plates
sometimes he lazy then even dishes also dun wan wash la
for goodness sake
WHO IS NOT TIRED?!?!?
he is relatively much slacker liao leh.
my mum is rly tired. he should noe!
my mum totally give up on him liao la.
gradually giving up on me too
i dunno what i did man.
i really dunno what she wants from me.
if i can i want to meet her requirements
i want to.
but im also tired.
and i rly dunno how to accomplish EVERYTHING...
now, i really just wanna conc on my studies
and NOTHING else
but then to go uni
we need a nice portfolio
we need leadership skills
we need interpersonal skills
we need a lot
we need to know how to pass interviews smoothly
im having trouble with that.
so i want to take up more leadership posts hopefully
or at least join events
build up character too.
but mum doesnt like it.
she always complains about me busy with too much stuff.
she doesnt like me coming home late for uselss stuff
she doesnt understand y i have to do all these
if can i also dun wan do ANY of it la
im a treasurer in class
im the PW leader
and then i have to balance sku work
which im having trouble with
while facing the very nice classmates
who put even more pressure on me
then my mum
who expects me to still help her with everything at home
IM REALLY NOT SUPERWOMAN LEH
i dunno what to do la seriously.
i dunno what she wants.
she puts so much pressure on my sku work de.
now she doesnt say it tt much
but i know. i know she wants me to do well.
i know she will be upset or even angry if otherwise.
so i try. i study.
but all she noes is to expect all those from me...
she hasnt shown ANY support at all.
she hasnt allowed me to conc on my studies at all.
she wants me to help her with home stuff
then how study?
24 hours is already not enough!
she sees me coming home late almost everyday
then sleep so late everyday
then cannot wake up every morning
and she scolds me for every one of those.
what can i say.
im too tired and exasperated to explain.
tt will take a long time.
but i really wanna tell her...
i hope. really hope.
that she can understand
TRY to understand maybe?
my dad is lost case la i dun care him le la
he totally hopeless le i just hope he leaves me alone
mum...i want to talk to her.
but i dunno how to put everything to her nicely.
i think. no, i WILL cry de.
sure cry de.
i want to let her know clearly
i want to tell her what i feel what i think
what i am going thru.
i want to tell her
i know she's tired too
i know my dad is making her even more tired.
he is disturbing both of us in every way.
it's quite sad he's so lonely at home pretty much ignored
but we cant help it. seriously.
cant take that much.
i also want to tell mum that
i hope to conc on my studies
and do well
do myself proud
do her proud
and earn lots of money for her next time :(
just now go bathe saw some stuff left for me to do
i felt so upset that i cried quite hard in the bathroom lols
feel like shouting and screaming everything out la
actually i was.
silent screaming.
i was shouting out all my tots but muted la lols.
haiz.
my eyes don't feel right now -.-
although i complain about my mum a lot
but i <3 her a lot ok :(
she has been trying hard for the family for the past i dunno how long.
she may not be doing a great job in some areas
but i know she tries hard.
i know she's having a hard time too
so i dun rly blame her la.
dad is another thing.
he's the one annoying everyone
to the extent that we too tired to bother about him la.
mum not rly doing a gd job sometimes
she makes me wonder what happened to selfless love
haha...
but im not asking for that much.
she grumbles to me that no one cares about her
her leg was injured
she said it's still not fully well yet
but no one help her
no one asked her if she was ok etc
but she nvr said it was not ok.
tt time she injured i did ask her if she was alright
she jus doesnt rmb gd stuff
only the negative stuff shines at her face
etched in her memory...
i rmb that time she cut her toe and sortof fainted
dad was flustered...sort of.
i was worried i stayed around in the living room with them
my aunt came down help too.
i was trying to see if there's anything i can do.
i dun like it that she says we dun care about her.
the three of us are too similar.
tt's the problem.
we dunno how to express ourselves properly...
it's not that we dont care
but we dunno how express that care.
she doesnt either.
since young.
she NEVER cared about me before.
emotionally i mean.
to her i was leading a smooth and wonderful life since young
she nvr knew what i had gone thru
i guess i nvr shared
but i dun wanna bother her with more stuff
and some stuff...i just cant tell her.
i know what she will say.
it's rly annoying to share things with her sometimes.
no matter what i say,
even if it has NO relation to me AT ALL
she still can find sth to lecture me about
it annoys me a lot de lor.
so i usually just tell her usual stuff normal stuff
I NVR shared anything personal with her before.
coz she doesnt understand...
esp nowadays
she's having a hard time.
she's rly tired.
so she complained to me
she hope i can help her.
she says no one will care if she dies
she says me and my dad will regret treating her like tt now
she says we wont be able to do anything without her
coz she's doing everything now.
i kept quiet i nvr said anything. as usual.
i know i wont be able to control myself if i opened my mouth.
i'll get agitated. i will.
i so wanted to argue every point she made.
i wanted to tell her it's not true.
but what can i do?
i need to study. i want to
i want to do well. she wants me to do well.
my dad wants me to do well, but for the wrong reasons la.
so what should i do?
i have a lot to think about too;
i got a lot that i wanna tell her.
but seeing her so tired and everything
how can i tell her all these??
how can i tell her i wanna conc on my studies
tell her i cant help her with house stuff??
how can i let her know that
it's not that i dun care
but 我都自身难保了怎么帮她呀？
haiz.
i rly dunno what i can do.
i dunno what she wants me to do................
link back to one of the last few posts.
about the thing about i MIGHT not be their child...
actually i doubt it la
but anyway even if it's true
it doesnt change anything...
they arent the best parents
i wouldnt even say good
but they are my parents still. my only parents.
i know they love me though they nvr say so.
unless i got that bad interpretation skills -.-
i want our small family of three to be happy :(
i see so many happy families around
and i rly envy them
coz i want that for our family too...
haiz. what can i do??
my parents are stubborn.
they are not ppl who accepts what others say easily
esp my dad. he doesnt listen AT ALL
so we dun bother saying already.
ears are shut anyway no point...
aiya.
aiya.
aiya. ;(( haiz.
talking about my family always makes me teary.
my parents totally no peace nowadays la.
they seldom talk de
if they talk also so hostile.
i dun like to talk to my dad also.
though he likes to bother me
i will talk to my mum sometimes
but she is so unresponsive
though i know she listens
and she isnt in the best of moods recently
so house isnt very nice now.
it's not a very conducive env to support my studying...
i cant study with a mood like this man
BUT TMR GOT CHEM TEST AND CLL TEST.............
argh. why today emo sia TSK!
just now just come fb
saw weijie's status
realise he got gf!
and they are like so...i duno how say.
i went read their walls and everything
they are having problems i think.
but when i see their stuff
i see what weijie writes...
the feeling i get is
they are so pure...
weijie really likes the girl A LOT apparently
the girl likes him a lot too
but there are problems somehow
they are on the verge of splitting.
wonder how it is now.
hope it works out.
weijie is a REEALLY nice guy la.
and from his words can tell
he really loves the girl
well he's 21 le anyway though he doesnt look like it haha :P
third time find him so mature...
but their type of love ar
so rare.
ok maybe it's not rare in msia
but it's totally impossible to find in sg la.
it's so 单纯，那么令人羡慕
那么美，清澈
it made me feel warm sort of
emoemo feeling haha
weijie has been rly great
great korkor.
that time he comfort me when jacket stolen
run down buy tissue for me etc
he's really that nice
but he always say he nvr like girls before
say he no gf
cheat de sia haha
i just asked him about it
he says his parents dun approve of the girl...
till now then can tts y he post on fb haha
they have their own problems too
but seems like it's ok le...
wish them all the best!
i believe they all deserve each other :D
great wonderful people like them deserve happiness...
at times like this when im feeling emo
really want someone to lean on...
i cant lean on my parents. i nvr did.
who else can i lean on?
i cant think of any :(
in sku was ok
i cant rmb if anything happened
but got maths test.
i spent too much useless time on graphing
didnt plan my time well
so couldnt finish
got 7 marks not complete.
and 1 part of Q3 dunno how do. that's 4 marks
total 30.
well. HOPEFULLY i get 19 or 20 at least :((
it's damn bad le la.
but most ppl cant finish i think
and they dunno how do in front.
well it's rly irritating for me
coz I KNOW HOW DO
i just didnt have time.
its such a pity.
only that one part dunno lor... :(
haiz. nvm. i'll work harder.
i must do better.
i really have serious problems with
time management and presentation when it comes to math
i realise...
hopefully sth can be done -.-
my presentation very bad also!
always dunno how to present.
i understand what is asked
sort of know the answer
but i dunno whether can just write the answer alone
i dunno what they are looking for.
argh dumb areas.
as time passes by
i feel more and more determined
to study
to work hard
to do well.
but.
i can't do it just by this alone.
not when i have so much more to care about
i dun wanna neglect anything else...
i know my mum is tired.
she's old already
she's been thru a lot
at this age my dad is so annoyingly annoying
(sorry limited vocab :P)
he used to help mum a lot
and he didnt bother me de
even at that time there are quarrels and everything
but it only got worse over the years...
nothing has improved.
it has deteriorated instead...
now my dad doesnt help my mum with ANYTHING.
all he does is go to work
and give us money.
well it's very impt but seriously.
he comes home and slack for the rest of the day
slump in front of the tv till dinner
after dinner tv again then sleep.
then like to anyhow waste money.
we not happy about it
but he earned the money. what can we say?
he still can come tell me he very tired that day
the only chore he do at home now is wash plates
sometimes he lazy then even dishes also dun wan wash la
for goodness sake
WHO IS NOT TIRED?!?!?
he is relatively much slacker liao leh.
my mum is rly tired. he should noe!
my mum totally give up on him liao la.
gradually giving up on me too
i dunno what i did man.
i really dunno what she wants from me.
if i can i want to meet her requirements
i want to.
but im also tired.
and i rly dunno how to accomplish EVERYTHING...
now, i really just wanna conc on my studies
and NOTHING else
but then to go uni
we need a nice portfolio
we need leadership skills
we need interpersonal skills
we need a lot
we need to know how to pass interviews smoothly
im having trouble with that.
so i want to take up more leadership posts hopefully
or at least join events
build up character too.
but mum doesnt like it.
she always complains about me busy with too much stuff.
she doesnt like me coming home late for uselss stuff
she doesnt understand y i have to do all these
if can i also dun wan do ANY of it la
im a treasurer in class
im the PW leader
and then i have to balance sku work
which im having trouble with
while facing the very nice classmates
who put even more pressure on me
then my mum
who expects me to still help her with everything at home
IM REALLY NOT SUPERWOMAN LEH
i dunno what to do la seriously.
i dunno what she wants.
she puts so much pressure on my sku work de.
now she doesnt say it tt much
but i know. i know she wants me to do well.
i know she will be upset or even angry if otherwise.
so i try. i study.
but all she noes is to expect all those from me...
she hasnt shown ANY support at all.
she hasnt allowed me to conc on my studies at all.
she wants me to help her with home stuff
then how study?
24 hours is already not enough!
she sees me coming home late almost everyday
then sleep so late everyday
then cannot wake up every morning
and she scolds me for every one of those.
what can i say.
im too tired and exasperated to explain.
tt will take a long time.
but i really wanna tell her...
i hope. really hope.
that she can understand
TRY to understand maybe?
my dad is lost case la i dun care him le la
he totally hopeless le i just hope he leaves me alone
mum...i want to talk to her.
but i dunno how to put everything to her nicely.
i think. no, i WILL cry de.
sure cry de.
i want to let her know clearly
i want to tell her what i feel what i think
what i am going thru.
i want to tell her
i know she's tired too
i know my dad is making her even more tired.
he is disturbing both of us in every way.
it's quite sad he's so lonely at home pretty much ignored
but we cant help it. seriously.
cant take that much.
i also want to tell mum that
i hope to conc on my studies
and do well
do myself proud
do her proud
and earn lots of money for her next time :(
just now go bathe saw some stuff left for me to do
i felt so upset that i cried quite hard in the bathroom lols
feel like shouting and screaming everything out la
actually i was.
silent screaming.
i was shouting out all my tots but muted la lols.
haiz.
my eyes don't feel right now -.-
although i complain about my mum a lot
but i <3 her a lot ok :(
she has been trying hard for the family for the past i dunno how long.
she may not be doing a great job in some areas
but i know she tries hard.
i know she's having a hard time too
so i dun rly blame her la.
dad is another thing.
he's the one annoying everyone
to the extent that we too tired to bother about him la.
mum not rly doing a gd job sometimes
she makes me wonder what happened to selfless love
haha...
but im not asking for that much.
she grumbles to me that no one cares about her
her leg was injured
she said it's still not fully well yet
but no one help her
no one asked her if she was ok etc
but she nvr said it was not ok.
tt time she injured i did ask her if she was alright
she jus doesnt rmb gd stuff
only the negative stuff shines at her face
etched in her memory...
i rmb that time she cut her toe and sortof fainted
dad was flustered...sort of.
i was worried i stayed around in the living room with them
my aunt came down help too.
i was trying to see if there's anything i can do.
i dun like it that she says we dun care about her.
the three of us are too similar.
tt's the problem.
we dunno how to express ourselves properly...
it's not that we dont care
but we dunno how express that care.
she doesnt either.
since young.
she NEVER cared about me before.
emotionally i mean.
to her i was leading a smooth and wonderful life since young
she nvr knew what i had gone thru
i guess i nvr shared
but i dun wanna bother her with more stuff
and some stuff...i just cant tell her.
i know what she will say.
it's rly annoying to share things with her sometimes.
no matter what i say,
even if it has NO relation to me AT ALL
she still can find sth to lecture me about
it annoys me a lot de lor.
so i usually just tell her usual stuff normal stuff
I NVR shared anything personal with her before.
coz she doesnt understand...
esp nowadays
she's having a hard time.
she's rly tired.
so she complained to me
she hope i can help her.
she says no one will care if she dies
she says me and my dad will regret treating her like tt now
she says we wont be able to do anything without her
coz she's doing everything now.
i kept quiet i nvr said anything. as usual.
i know i wont be able to control myself if i opened my mouth.
i'll get agitated. i will.
i so wanted to argue every point she made.
i wanted to tell her it's not true.
but what can i do?
i need to study. i want to
i want to do well. she wants me to do well.
my dad wants me to do well, but for the wrong reasons la.
so what should i do?
i have a lot to think about too;
i got a lot that i wanna tell her.
but seeing her so tired and everything
how can i tell her all these??
how can i tell her i wanna conc on my studies
tell her i cant help her with house stuff??
how can i let her know that
it's not that i dun care
but 我都自身难保了怎么帮她呀？
haiz.
i rly dunno what i can do.
i dunno what she wants me to do................
link back to one of the last few posts.
about the thing about i MIGHT not be their child...
actually i doubt it la
but anyway even if it's true
it doesnt change anything...
they arent the best parents
i wouldnt even say good
but they are my parents still. my only parents.
i know they love me though they nvr say so.
unless i got that bad interpretation skills -.-
i want our small family of three to be happy :(
i see so many happy families around
and i rly envy them
coz i want that for our family too...
haiz. what can i do??
my parents are stubborn.
they are not ppl who accepts what others say easily
esp my dad. he doesnt listen AT ALL
so we dun bother saying already.
ears are shut anyway no point...
aiya.
aiya.
aiya. ;(( haiz.
talking about my family always makes me teary.
my parents totally no peace nowadays la.
they seldom talk de
if they talk also so hostile.
i dun like to talk to my dad also.
though he likes to bother me
i will talk to my mum sometimes
but she is so unresponsive
though i know she listens
and she isnt in the best of moods recently
so house isnt very nice now.
it's not a very conducive env to support my studying...
i cant study with a mood like this man
BUT TMR GOT CHEM TEST AND CLL TEST.............
argh. why today emo sia TSK!
just now just come fb
saw weijie's status
realise he got gf!
and they are like so...i duno how say.
i went read their walls and everything
they are having problems i think.
but when i see their stuff
i see what weijie writes...
the feeling i get is
they are so pure...
weijie really likes the girl A LOT apparently
the girl likes him a lot too
but there are problems somehow
they are on the verge of splitting.
wonder how it is now.
hope it works out.
weijie is a REEALLY nice guy la.
and from his words can tell
he really loves the girl
well he's 21 le anyway though he doesnt look like it haha :P
third time find him so mature...
but their type of love ar
so rare.
ok maybe it's not rare in msia
but it's totally impossible to find in sg la.
it's so 单纯，那么令人羡慕
那么美，清澈
it made me feel warm sort of
emoemo feeling haha
weijie has been rly great
great korkor.
that time he comfort me when jacket stolen
run down buy tissue for me etc
he's really that nice
but he always say he nvr like girls before
say he no gf
cheat de sia haha
i just asked him about it
he says his parents dun approve of the girl...
till now then can tts y he post on fb haha
they have their own problems too
but seems like it's ok le...
wish them all the best!
i believe they all deserve each other :D
great wonderful people like them deserve happiness...
at times like this when im feeling emo
really want someone to lean on...
i cant lean on my parents. i nvr did.
who else can i lean on?
i cant think of any :(
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
speechless. out of words.
感觉好奇怪。
好不习惯有人对我这么好。
也许他只是突然心血来朝想帮助人
也许他认为我有潜能
也许他知道我热爱数学所以愿意教我
也许也许也许。。。
无论理由是什么
我还是有种受宠若惊的感觉
我真的不知道我该说什么
总感觉这好像是第一次有人对我这么好
特别的好
好不习惯
也许不是第一次
但我就是有那种感觉
我知道我的父母是爱我的
他们只是不大会表现
但他们对我是好的
我的朋友也算对我不错
除了他们
似乎没有人会对我那么好了
真的不习惯呀。。。
他还没揭晓时
我好紧张
不知道他在部落格里说的是不是我
心脏跳得好快
他说愿意教我时
我好激动呀。。。
我想着想着
竟然哭了!!!!
真是的
都不知道我在哭什么
我想我实在是太感动了吧。。。
他干吗对我这样好啊？
免费补习耶！
天底下哪有这么好的事？
我上辈子是修了什么福啊？
我不是在做梦吧。。。
好感激他啊
他定了好几个条件
不过那些都不算什么
只要能让他教我
其他都无所谓了。。。
我只想说声
万分感谢你！
好不习惯有人对我这么好。
也许他只是突然心血来朝想帮助人
也许他认为我有潜能
也许他知道我热爱数学所以愿意教我
也许也许也许。。。
无论理由是什么
我还是有种受宠若惊的感觉
我真的不知道我该说什么
总感觉这好像是第一次有人对我这么好
特别的好
好不习惯
也许不是第一次
但我就是有那种感觉
我知道我的父母是爱我的
他们只是不大会表现
但他们对我是好的
我的朋友也算对我不错
除了他们
似乎没有人会对我那么好了
真的不习惯呀。。。
他还没揭晓时
我好紧张
不知道他在部落格里说的是不是我
心脏跳得好快
他说愿意教我时
我好激动呀。。。
我想着想着
竟然哭了!!!!
真是的
都不知道我在哭什么
我想我实在是太感动了吧。。。
他干吗对我这样好啊？
免费补习耶！
天底下哪有这么好的事？
我上辈子是修了什么福啊？
我不是在做梦吧。。。
好感激他啊
他定了好几个条件
不过那些都不算什么
只要能让他教我
其他都无所谓了。。。
我只想说声
万分感谢你！
HAIYO THEY ALL AR~
haha today so funny la.
mostly things are similar to usual
so i shall skip the crap
oh ya csc lesson got bk my essay
10/25 sia LOUSY!!
but cher explained a lot
i feel that i know what they want a bit more
maybe i can pass the next time...
maybe not...
after that
peng lao shi msged me to tell the class
that cll lesson go lep room
she specially said 3000 times not to be late lor LOL
then me and elaine went scope for exhibition duty
yuyan n susan there too
huimin came
she say we'll be on TV today!!
channel 8 news 6.30 or 10
:D:D WOW
we were super surprised LOL
so i msged the whole class to tell them about it HAHA
then before cll lesson ar
they keep talking about it hahaha
lesson time
reporter haven't come
so we start lesson first
peng lao shi was telling us
when they filming we bettter ans her ques and not keep quiet
hahahaha we always dun ans de la :P
then shubei borrow mirror from susan
to comb her fringe HAHAHA
damn funny
she want appear on tv la hahaha
so peng lao shi was like
since she want appear on tv so much
she shall stand close to shubei when she teach
so shubei sure get captured LOL :D:D
after that they came
they wan interview 1-2 ppl ma
but no one volunteered
so we sabo the three who got clep scholarship LOL :D
then after they go behind for interview
shubei ask if she can join sia HAHA
just now dun dare say~
HAHAHA she so wan appear on tv wor!! :D:D
then they also filmed our lesson a bit.
just now i came home late so missed 6.30 news
later 10pm must watch!!! HAHAHA
dun think have me
but it's quite cool
dun think they will show all three of them de interview.
so wan see who lucky get to appear :D hahaha
then just now civics lesson
cher give out a paper
is the 3 sg unis de courses de 10th percentile.
we were highlighting courses we interested in
then wow
requirements so high sia
sianz.
summore some need interview
even IF i can do well
i sure 100% fail interview la seriously -.-
damn bad at it
tt's y i didnt get the clep scholarship :((
did super badly...
haha.
then contact time we at upper gallery
totally wasnt listening to the competition thing
of the debate team hahaha
they were discussing career options
shubei's only path: MASS COMM
she want be producer ma
then one day can meet s.h.e. LOL
we were asking her if she has a back up plan la
LOL she say her last resort is chinese le lor. LASTTT resort haha.
but teaching is one of all our choices LOL
ok not all but most.
it's steady ma and easy to get in haha :D
i dun mind teaching la :D
i like kids. and i like to teach.
but i do get impatient sometimes o.O hahaha
and i scared i dunno how do whatever they ask
so ps.
i dun wan be a lousy teacher like ms lai!! :P
after that ying en asked me maths question
but actually that ques i also dunno leh
i nvr tot about it b4
nvr considered it that way
i just took it as it is. i didnt think that much.
so when ying en ask me
though i tell her i not sure
but i dun like to not know.
so i took out GC and figure figure
and i got it!! :D
so i explain to her
kailun also came n listen
so i explained again lor.
i felt so accomplished when they actually understood me!
well it was nice.
i think mrs tan isn't good in some ways
she's a little too brief sometimes.
her explanations not bad la actually
i can follow. the pace is just nice to me
but i think some aren't following o.O
not sure but just a feeling
and sometimes like ying en
they just dun dare ask cher -.-
hahahha :D
mr ang better la!!!
esp consultations. rly helps A LOT :D
monday's consultation made me a little more confident
about graphs!!
then they super funny la
ying en say wan find me for consultation sia
LOL i was like HUHHH
then kailun also wan~ haha
i was like LOL i not teacher leh
later i teach them wrong thing how???
then we die together sia!! LOL
after that wanshan suddenly tell me
sihui can u stay overnight at my house?
then can ask u maths
LOLOLOLOL
i was like HUHHH
LIKE SERIOUSLY?
they so damn kua zhang.
im not that good la -.-
cannot like tt la later i too proud HAHA
nah luckily it didnt rly get to my head
esp coz after that went bp mentoring with char
being around her keeps me steady sometimes
coz she's too smart. much smarter than me.
she may not be godlike like khoon hwa.
but she's gd. excellent in her own way.
and she's a rly nice person and all haha :D
admire her :D
anyway bk to the point
kailun they all so exaggerating lor -.-
she say hols wan study maths with me twice a week
LOL then my time even lesser le la -.-
but they said sth true.
teaching helps me learn too (:
so actually i dun mind.
it helps me rethink the concepts
so as to teach them properly
just now that question ar
if ying en nvr ask i wouldnt have tot of it either
and i would just brush it away
and be inflexible with it.
tt's bad.
but my brain nvr tot about it from that angle.
so i was glad she asked
coz now, we all understand le ((:
well. all the best for jcts sia.
no confidence.
but. try lor.
see the unis requirements wan faint le la
super tough :( haiz.
work hard people...
oh ya tmr maths test
should i prac maths today or do gpp?:(((
my heart is one side mind is one side leh :P
mostly things are similar to usual
so i shall skip the crap
oh ya csc lesson got bk my essay
10/25 sia LOUSY!!
but cher explained a lot
i feel that i know what they want a bit more
maybe i can pass the next time...
maybe not...
after that
peng lao shi msged me to tell the class
that cll lesson go lep room
she specially said 3000 times not to be late lor LOL
then me and elaine went scope for exhibition duty
yuyan n susan there too
huimin came
she say we'll be on TV today!!
channel 8 news 6.30 or 10
:D:D WOW
we were super surprised LOL
so i msged the whole class to tell them about it HAHA
then before cll lesson ar
they keep talking about it hahaha
lesson time
reporter haven't come
so we start lesson first
peng lao shi was telling us
when they filming we bettter ans her ques and not keep quiet
hahahaha we always dun ans de la :P
then shubei borrow mirror from susan
to comb her fringe HAHAHA
damn funny
she want appear on tv la hahaha
so peng lao shi was like
since she want appear on tv so much
she shall stand close to shubei when she teach
so shubei sure get captured LOL :D:D
after that they came
they wan interview 1-2 ppl ma
but no one volunteered
so we sabo the three who got clep scholarship LOL :D
then after they go behind for interview
shubei ask if she can join sia HAHA
just now dun dare say~
HAHAHA she so wan appear on tv wor!! :D:D
then they also filmed our lesson a bit.
just now i came home late so missed 6.30 news
later 10pm must watch!!! HAHAHA
dun think have me
but it's quite cool
dun think they will show all three of them de interview.
so wan see who lucky get to appear :D hahaha
then just now civics lesson
cher give out a paper
is the 3 sg unis de courses de 10th percentile.
we were highlighting courses we interested in
then wow
requirements so high sia
sianz.
summore some need interview
even IF i can do well
i sure 100% fail interview la seriously -.-
damn bad at it
tt's y i didnt get the clep scholarship :((
did super badly...
haha.
then contact time we at upper gallery
totally wasnt listening to the competition thing
of the debate team hahaha
they were discussing career options
shubei's only path: MASS COMM
she want be producer ma
then one day can meet s.h.e. LOL
we were asking her if she has a back up plan la
LOL she say her last resort is chinese le lor. LASTTT resort haha.
but teaching is one of all our choices LOL
ok not all but most.
it's steady ma and easy to get in haha :D
i dun mind teaching la :D
i like kids. and i like to teach.
but i do get impatient sometimes o.O hahaha
and i scared i dunno how do whatever they ask
so ps.
i dun wan be a lousy teacher like ms lai!! :P
after that ying en asked me maths question
but actually that ques i also dunno leh
i nvr tot about it b4
nvr considered it that way
i just took it as it is. i didnt think that much.
so when ying en ask me
though i tell her i not sure
but i dun like to not know.
so i took out GC and figure figure
and i got it!! :D
so i explain to her
kailun also came n listen
so i explained again lor.
i felt so accomplished when they actually understood me!
well it was nice.
i think mrs tan isn't good in some ways
she's a little too brief sometimes.
her explanations not bad la actually
i can follow. the pace is just nice to me
but i think some aren't following o.O
not sure but just a feeling
and sometimes like ying en
they just dun dare ask cher -.-
hahahha :D
mr ang better la!!!
esp consultations. rly helps A LOT :D
monday's consultation made me a little more confident
about graphs!!
then they super funny la
ying en say wan find me for consultation sia
LOL i was like HUHHH
then kailun also wan~ haha
i was like LOL i not teacher leh
later i teach them wrong thing how???
then we die together sia!! LOL
after that wanshan suddenly tell me
sihui can u stay overnight at my house?
then can ask u maths
LOLOLOLOL
i was like HUHHH
LIKE SERIOUSLY?
they so damn kua zhang.
im not that good la -.-
cannot like tt la later i too proud HAHA
nah luckily it didnt rly get to my head
esp coz after that went bp mentoring with char
being around her keeps me steady sometimes
coz she's too smart. much smarter than me.
she may not be godlike like khoon hwa.
but she's gd. excellent in her own way.
and she's a rly nice person and all haha :D
admire her :D
anyway bk to the point
kailun they all so exaggerating lor -.-
she say hols wan study maths with me twice a week
LOL then my time even lesser le la -.-
but they said sth true.
teaching helps me learn too (:
so actually i dun mind.
it helps me rethink the concepts
so as to teach them properly
just now that question ar
if ying en nvr ask i wouldnt have tot of it either
and i would just brush it away
and be inflexible with it.
tt's bad.
but my brain nvr tot about it from that angle.
so i was glad she asked
coz now, we all understand le ((:
well. all the best for jcts sia.
no confidence.
but. try lor.
see the unis requirements wan faint le la
super tough :( haiz.
work hard people...
oh ya tmr maths test
should i prac maths today or do gpp?:(((
my heart is one side mind is one side leh :P
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
2.4!
today ran 2.4 for pe!!
mock napfa ma
6 rounds round the track
sianz sia
i dun like...
sec sku went east coast run much better
it's just 1 round
one LOONG round but ya haha
and the place nicer
i dun like going round and round...
and east coast only 2.2 hahaha :D:D
my timing was 15:x5
i dunno what's x i didn't hear properly
i think it's 5 not sure
so lousy :(
i sec sku although is 2.2 :P but
i think it was 13+ wor.
but not bad le la
i stopped three times. once to tie my shoelace
so rest a SHOORT while
second time is 5th round
very tired so rest a while.
last round stopped again at half the rnd
then walk a bit so that can chiong the rest :D
i always like that de la
muz last bit rest and then CHIONGG hahahaha
:D:D
today was feeling determined to study leh actually
esp for maths.
dunno y
probably coz veron is scaring me
as well as the maths god named koon hwa...
but then it was just for a while HAHAHA
think of gpp then sianz le
i on com play a while till now.
then hmm think going do gpp ba haiz.
at least csc is over.
today maths lecture
we finished the last bit of functions
then started on differentiation
the bit that's out of syllabus sucks man
dunno what cher talking
haha actually ok la
half understand but pretty confusing.
then actual stuff.
SO CHIM :(
linear, product, chain, quotient
basics we learnt before
i still okay with it
then all the weird trigo stuff come in
DIEDIEDIE.
i like trigo
i like differentiation
(I MUST BE MAD BUT YA...)
but i dun like them TOGETHER!!! :(
tsk...
one more thing.
today lunchtime ar
elaine was telling me something
i cant rmb what it is
then i made a very lame comment
as usual lor to me.
then she laughed!
i didnt mean it as a joke even
it was just a lame comment HAHA
i always do that what
then she say:"i didnt noe u can tell jokes"
then i was like HUH??
lols she dunno only lor.
lame comments are common for me...
it's just not that much around them
coz they pretty serious usu
and they dun rly say stuff that i can
make lame comments about. haha.
unlike shuting they all HAHA
anything also can de la :D hehe...
we are going to have clique outing soon!!
VESAK DAY!
OH MY I FORGOT ASK MUM
aiya sianz scared she scold.
and i wanna go CO CONCERT!!! :((( haiz.
anyway...back to the point.
vesak day think we going seoul garden
or sing k.
always k haha
i like la but my voice no gd la :(
and now like worse so hmm i shouldnt go haha :P
if not waste my money.
seoul garden would be gd enough :D:D:D
mock napfa ma
6 rounds round the track
sianz sia
i dun like...
sec sku went east coast run much better
it's just 1 round
one LOONG round but ya haha
and the place nicer
i dun like going round and round...
and east coast only 2.2 hahaha :D:D
my timing was 15:x5
i dunno what's x i didn't hear properly
i think it's 5 not sure
so lousy :(
i sec sku although is 2.2 :P but
i think it was 13+ wor.
but not bad le la
i stopped three times. once to tie my shoelace
so rest a SHOORT while
second time is 5th round
very tired so rest a while.
last round stopped again at half the rnd
then walk a bit so that can chiong the rest :D
i always like that de la
muz last bit rest and then CHIONGG hahahaha
:D:D
today was feeling determined to study leh actually
esp for maths.
dunno y
probably coz veron is scaring me
as well as the maths god named koon hwa...
but then it was just for a while HAHAHA
think of gpp then sianz le
i on com play a while till now.
then hmm think going do gpp ba haiz.
at least csc is over.
today maths lecture
we finished the last bit of functions
then started on differentiation
the bit that's out of syllabus sucks man
dunno what cher talking
haha actually ok la
half understand but pretty confusing.
then actual stuff.
SO CHIM :(
linear, product, chain, quotient
basics we learnt before
i still okay with it
then all the weird trigo stuff come in
DIEDIEDIE.
i like trigo
i like differentiation
(I MUST BE MAD BUT YA...)
but i dun like them TOGETHER!!! :(
tsk...
one more thing.
today lunchtime ar
elaine was telling me something
i cant rmb what it is
then i made a very lame comment
as usual lor to me.
then she laughed!
i didnt mean it as a joke even
it was just a lame comment HAHA
i always do that what
then she say:"i didnt noe u can tell jokes"
then i was like HUH??
lols she dunno only lor.
lame comments are common for me...
it's just not that much around them
coz they pretty serious usu
and they dun rly say stuff that i can
make lame comments about. haha.
unlike shuting they all HAHA
anything also can de la :D hehe...
we are going to have clique outing soon!!
VESAK DAY!
OH MY I FORGOT ASK MUM
aiya sianz scared she scold.
and i wanna go CO CONCERT!!! :((( haiz.
anyway...back to the point.
vesak day think we going seoul garden
or sing k.
always k haha
i like la but my voice no gd la :(
and now like worse so hmm i shouldnt go haha :P
if not waste my money.
seoul garden would be gd enough :D:D:D
Monday, May 17, 2010
my day
today quite ok la
wanted to say it's a great day
but i rmbed it's not that good after all.
well,thinking of PW and CSC ruins EVERYTHING
nvm i will not talk about them. they suck. :P
conc on better stuff
like..today pw lecture
the functions (MA) lecturer came teach
STATISTICS!
mr ang's major which he got first class honours in
i dunno how he did it. seriously.
i ownself read a bit of the notes
highlight highlight
nvr listen to lecturer
and then i slept
totally slept in the lecture
damn nice :D HAHAHAHA
after that econs lecture
I MANAGED TO STAY AWAKE THROUGHOUT :D:D:D
must be coz of my power nap :P
and well today's lecture was okay
lecturer quite funny
content not too dry...ok it's about the same as usual.
i just felt more awake and was listening hahahaha
after sku got maths make up lesson.
was quite ok
i went up present and elaine navina fanye :D haha
we were snatching...sortof. hahahaha
coz can do ma :D
but mine i forgot label my min point
so i take elaine's value
in the end wrong!! haha nvm la
i noe how do can le la :P
after that went meet mr ang :D
he wear damn casual la
tee and...i think knee length shorts
oh and sandals. haha
casual X casual X casual haha.
kailun asked first since she leaving
so ying en and me bought food first
i was damn hungry coz i ate lunch at ~9.40
elaine they all wanted do maths during lunch so
we ate lunch early. SUPER early.
in the end maths lesson they both not around!!!
tsk regret eating early with them sia
make me so hungry afterwards haha
me and ying en felt quite bad la
coz cher nvr buy food
me n ying en over there eating
then kailun also bought a pie...
like everyone eating except cher...so ps la haha
after kailun done she need go tuition
about 5.30.
then our turn haha
i asked cher buy food first la :D
then after that i gave my ying en my first ques
so she asked haha
after that cher gave her questions to do
coz she nth ask just read notes
i asked a lot questions from book 2
cher make everything sound so simple la.
but like when i was reading book 2 ar,
i can understand
everything makes sense
but i dun rly rmb them leh.
and dunno can apply them when i need it anot
sometimes i need use the concepts but
i just cant rmb them de :(
gotta practice
BUT I NO TIME!!
sianz. thurs is test le leh...
just now kailun just called me
she asked what time we left ma
she say she saw us still there after her tuition sia
hahahahaha
but she nvr come in
we left few mins after she saw us anyway haha.
about 7.20+ by then le la.
kailun say got a lot more ques ask cher
ask me go arrange another day lols
so ps la i dun wan haha
not much time le anyway
cher going states in june leh
so ps to keep bothering him le...
today de is he sortof volunteer de leh
i didnt ask de...so i was touched that he helped us
but i wouldnt go ASK him de la
it's not his responsibility lor
and today he passed my the economist issues
thanks a lot to him again (:
mr ang rocks HAHAHAHA
but it's like so super heavy
coz today get the econs essentials sloman book
DAMN HEAVY TOO
i put it into the paper bag
then hugged it home
hard labour leh hahahaha
super heavy.
gotta tell the class about it
so that they can get it from me if they want...
well tt one later la
if i rmb
or maybe tmr... :D
now i dunno what i should do
should do gpp de but then
idea not exactly fixed
i damn pek chek with my grp members
the ideas mostly i contributing today
shermaine did think of a song we can use
but tt's about all.
she and zhekang went listen to music
digress a lot
nvr conc....
zhenyan tried helping
but her ideas werent very feasible
she's still so insistent on our previous idea...
susan tried helping too.
zhe kang did help a bit too.
everyone did help la actually but then
not enough ma.
they give random suggestions then leave it to me liao
nothing is substantial enough!!!!
CSC is another
the super naggy wanshan
whole day keep asking me
when i can send her the csc ppt again
she say it's too short
ask me if i wan add more info
etcetc
repeat dunno how many times la
she's always like tt de though.
i now then realised that she rly did say so often
i was so used to it.
she's so repetitive...
anw i had put the info in de
but amanda (CSC class de) edited
and deleted a lot
coz she feels those are irrelevant
then wanshan say too short.
WHAT NOW~
wanshan just msged me again ask me
whether i will be adding stuff anot la.
sianz. i dunno la i cant be bothered.
oh ya i just read my previous post
and i realised something i forgot to mention.
yesterday my mum lecture me hor
she mentioned something....
she keep say things like
after she die me n my dad sure die
sure cannot cope etcetc la
then she say if they both die ar
then i havent 21 years old
i still need go immigration there
i would be sortof put back into where i came from...
wonder what she meant, eh?
haiz like last time.
she always mentioned this once in a while
during her lectures
when she's rly unhappy.
always things to make me think im adopted.
but i rly cant be bothered la
they are my parents, no matter what
i came to this conclusion years years years ago
so i didnt think about it le
even though there is a possibility...
but.
who care...
wanted to say it's a great day
but i rmbed it's not that good after all.
well,thinking of PW and CSC ruins EVERYTHING
nvm i will not talk about them. they suck. :P
conc on better stuff
like..today pw lecture
the functions (MA) lecturer came teach
STATISTICS!
mr ang's major which he got first class honours in
i dunno how he did it. seriously.
i ownself read a bit of the notes
highlight highlight
nvr listen to lecturer
and then i slept
totally slept in the lecture
damn nice :D HAHAHAHA
after that econs lecture
I MANAGED TO STAY AWAKE THROUGHOUT :D:D:D
must be coz of my power nap :P
and well today's lecture was okay
lecturer quite funny
content not too dry...ok it's about the same as usual.
i just felt more awake and was listening hahahaha
after sku got maths make up lesson.
was quite ok
i went up present and elaine navina fanye :D haha
we were snatching...sortof. hahahaha
coz can do ma :D
but mine i forgot label my min point
so i take elaine's value
in the end wrong!! haha nvm la
i noe how do can le la :P
after that went meet mr ang :D
he wear damn casual la
tee and...i think knee length shorts
oh and sandals. haha
casual X casual X casual haha.
kailun asked first since she leaving
so ying en and me bought food first
i was damn hungry coz i ate lunch at ~9.40
elaine they all wanted do maths during lunch so
we ate lunch early. SUPER early.
in the end maths lesson they both not around!!!
tsk regret eating early with them sia
make me so hungry afterwards haha
me and ying en felt quite bad la
coz cher nvr buy food
me n ying en over there eating
then kailun also bought a pie...
like everyone eating except cher...so ps la haha
after kailun done she need go tuition
about 5.30.
then our turn haha
i asked cher buy food first la :D
then after that i gave my ying en my first ques
so she asked haha
after that cher gave her questions to do
coz she nth ask just read notes
i asked a lot questions from book 2
cher make everything sound so simple la.
but like when i was reading book 2 ar,
i can understand
everything makes sense
but i dun rly rmb them leh.
and dunno can apply them when i need it anot
sometimes i need use the concepts but
i just cant rmb them de :(
gotta practice
BUT I NO TIME!!
sianz. thurs is test le leh...
just now kailun just called me
she asked what time we left ma
she say she saw us still there after her tuition sia
hahahahaha
but she nvr come in
we left few mins after she saw us anyway haha.
about 7.20+ by then le la.
kailun say got a lot more ques ask cher
ask me go arrange another day lols
so ps la i dun wan haha
not much time le anyway
cher going states in june leh
so ps to keep bothering him le...
today de is he sortof volunteer de leh
i didnt ask de...so i was touched that he helped us
but i wouldnt go ASK him de la
it's not his responsibility lor
and today he passed my the economist issues
thanks a lot to him again (:
mr ang rocks HAHAHAHA
but it's like so super heavy
coz today get the econs essentials sloman book
DAMN HEAVY TOO
i put it into the paper bag
then hugged it home
hard labour leh hahahaha
super heavy.
gotta tell the class about it
so that they can get it from me if they want...
well tt one later la
if i rmb
or maybe tmr... :D
now i dunno what i should do
should do gpp de but then
idea not exactly fixed
i damn pek chek with my grp members
the ideas mostly i contributing today
shermaine did think of a song we can use
but tt's about all.
she and zhekang went listen to music
digress a lot
nvr conc....
zhenyan tried helping
but her ideas werent very feasible
she's still so insistent on our previous idea...
susan tried helping too.
zhe kang did help a bit too.
everyone did help la actually but then
not enough ma.
they give random suggestions then leave it to me liao
nothing is substantial enough!!!!
CSC is another
the super naggy wanshan
whole day keep asking me
when i can send her the csc ppt again
she say it's too short
ask me if i wan add more info
etcetc
repeat dunno how many times la
she's always like tt de though.
i now then realised that she rly did say so often
i was so used to it.
she's so repetitive...
anw i had put the info in de
but amanda (CSC class de) edited
and deleted a lot
coz she feels those are irrelevant
then wanshan say too short.
WHAT NOW~
wanshan just msged me again ask me
whether i will be adding stuff anot la.
sianz. i dunno la i cant be bothered.
oh ya i just read my previous post
and i realised something i forgot to mention.
yesterday my mum lecture me hor
she mentioned something....
she keep say things like
after she die me n my dad sure die
sure cannot cope etcetc la
then she say if they both die ar
then i havent 21 years old
i still need go immigration there
i would be sortof put back into where i came from...
wonder what she meant, eh?
haiz like last time.
she always mentioned this once in a while
during her lectures
when she's rly unhappy.
always things to make me think im adopted.
but i rly cant be bothered la
they are my parents, no matter what
i came to this conclusion years years years ago
so i didnt think about it le
even though there is a possibility...
but.
who care...
Sunday, May 16, 2010
MATHS
TODAY DO SO MUCH MATHS!
HAHA FEEL SO DAMN GUAI CAN :P
i read through the whole of book 2 lecture notes leh!
and then see what i dunno then write on paper
tmr ask mr ang one by one
coz meeting him ma~
he say his student tmr not coming wor
so me him kailun ying en can stay longer la
eat dinner together :D
got a lot thing ask
but all lecture notes de leh!!!
i wanted do the book one also
BUT NO TIME LE!
i still gotta do GPP
if not is rly WHOLE day maths le hehe :PP
the sims ar
mr ang's family is my most successful family currently
HAHA :D it's doing so well!!
they keep getting lots of promotion
and i managed to raise 2 babies into kids
hard work but well it's rly successful :D
so rich summore they all.
although it's quite lame
but i think it's quite fun lor :PP
but i'll most probably get sick of it soon anyway
have fun now while i can. :D
me n my mum actually better le
then today lunch
she lecture me again tsk
then atmosphere sianz again
haiyo. she always like tt de
sometimes she really have to learn
not to be bothered by every single detail
letting go of things like tt makes her happier
and makes us happier too.
she's too sensitive and calculative about everything.
but she doesnt realise that we aren't very good either
if i want to i can complain and grumble a lot
about them and to them
but then i don't
coz esp my mum so not happy with us with the family
of coz i wouldnt do that
and anyway im not used to saying out loud things like tt
used to keeping them in me
or typing it out :D:D
she would be able to rebute everything i say anyway
everything i do also wrong de ma
:/
then she like to complain i nvr help her also
but im busy!
i today keep at desk doing maths so guai :D
then she also keep ask me do stuff etc
feel like going out study sia got more freedom and peace...
and ar my stomach is really getting super annoying
ytd slept at 2+ leh
researched for gpp then played a while
then watched tv and read a little :D
then wanted wake up at about 10 today de
but then 8+ i woke up with a stomachache le!!
tsk damn irritating
so i go toilet lor then went back wanted sleep
but not long later
my stomach pain again so i got up
in the end i watched 15 mins of the replay of
the TV show i was watching ytd :D coz missed that part ytd :D
after that nvr go back sleep liao.
when i was doing maths ar
do a bit only i suuuppperr tired le
keep sleeping at my desk.
i just keep sleeping on and off for one hour
and yet it didnt help at all
totally feel same as before i slept -.- zzz
after tt rest for a while eat lunch
then better le.
it always feels better being away from work for a while haha :D
yepp then do work do work!
now need to go do gpp le la :(((((
HAHA FEEL SO DAMN GUAI CAN :P
i read through the whole of book 2 lecture notes leh!
and then see what i dunno then write on paper
tmr ask mr ang one by one
coz meeting him ma~
he say his student tmr not coming wor
so me him kailun ying en can stay longer la
eat dinner together :D
got a lot thing ask
but all lecture notes de leh!!!
i wanted do the book one also
BUT NO TIME LE!
i still gotta do GPP
if not is rly WHOLE day maths le hehe :PP
the sims ar
mr ang's family is my most successful family currently
HAHA :D it's doing so well!!
they keep getting lots of promotion
and i managed to raise 2 babies into kids
hard work but well it's rly successful :D
so rich summore they all.
although it's quite lame
but i think it's quite fun lor :PP
but i'll most probably get sick of it soon anyway
have fun now while i can. :D
me n my mum actually better le
then today lunch
she lecture me again tsk
then atmosphere sianz again
haiyo. she always like tt de
sometimes she really have to learn
not to be bothered by every single detail
letting go of things like tt makes her happier
and makes us happier too.
she's too sensitive and calculative about everything.
but she doesnt realise that we aren't very good either
if i want to i can complain and grumble a lot
about them and to them
but then i don't
coz esp my mum so not happy with us with the family
of coz i wouldnt do that
and anyway im not used to saying out loud things like tt
used to keeping them in me
or typing it out :D:D
she would be able to rebute everything i say anyway
everything i do also wrong de ma
:/
then she like to complain i nvr help her also
but im busy!
i today keep at desk doing maths so guai :D
then she also keep ask me do stuff etc
feel like going out study sia got more freedom and peace...
and ar my stomach is really getting super annoying
ytd slept at 2+ leh
researched for gpp then played a while
then watched tv and read a little :D
then wanted wake up at about 10 today de
but then 8+ i woke up with a stomachache le!!
tsk damn irritating
so i go toilet lor then went back wanted sleep
but not long later
my stomach pain again so i got up
in the end i watched 15 mins of the replay of
the TV show i was watching ytd :D coz missed that part ytd :D
after that nvr go back sleep liao.
when i was doing maths ar
do a bit only i suuuppperr tired le
keep sleeping at my desk.
i just keep sleeping on and off for one hour
and yet it didnt help at all
totally feel same as before i slept -.- zzz
after tt rest for a while eat lunch
then better le.
it always feels better being away from work for a while haha :D
yepp then do work do work!
now need to go do gpp le la :(((((
Saturday, May 15, 2010
im so busy~
feel so busy sia
lots of things on my mind
cannot squeeze more le
if not sure start forgetting a lot too...
haiz. usu i like being busy
but not THIS type of busy la
and not THIS busy la
sianz de leh.
it's so irritating to be leader sometimes...
when there's nobody to do,
you just have to do it.
i feel like resigning
but i cant haha :P
yesterday...
i saw lowe in school lols.
it was...weird
haiz i didnt smile at him
I WONDER WHY -.-
i think i was just slow la
it didnt register in my mind that he's lowe
that he's my friend
that i should acknowledge him by smiling
then see his reaction...
i was thinking about sth i think
so when i saw him it just didnt register
so i just looked down.
my eyes did see that he's lowe
but my brain didnt see any link to anything then.
haha...so i didnt smile at him
i just looked down
lols. WHY DID I DO THAT MAN!!!
damn it.
i always ruin things la
we can be friends de lor
but then everytime also like tt
it gets worse all the time.
at first
he totally ignored me
i didnt bother him either
we didnt acknowledge each other
but he got over it after a while
and told me what we are still friends
so we were better le
we wave and smile when we meet
well it's a bit awkward and it makes me nervous haha
but well at least we sort of say hi~
after that. the wave gradually disappeared
we just smiled a bit
tt's still acknowledgement
then once i accidentally didnt smile at him
haha then erm well
it got worse lols.
sometimes we still smile sometimes we don't
we became more and more stranger-like...
gradually gradually gradually
we are strangers liao lor
SO SAD :(
that time
it was 4 years ago le.....
sec 1....sec 1 is a special and memorable yr for me
it wasn't pleasant for most of it
but there were so many things tt yr...
it left a deep impression in me.
lowe that thing till now 4 years le leh
still like tt
nono i should say become like that.
sianz. we could have been gd friends de
why did i just have to ruin it?!?!?
im such a pro at ruining things la :(
nah shant think about it le.
i got a lot more things to think about
to care about sth tt has past 4 years le..
it's a regret but well it's over.
i shall try my best to rmb to smile when i see him again
but i think he will be shocked LOL
maybe he won't return my smile
and i would be upset...i guess
but tt's not surprising
so whatever.
today college day
clep de went back sku help out
coz this yr is clep 20th anniversary too.
I WAS LATEEE
supposed to be 8.30 reach ma
like 15 mins late or sth la lols
and my tie was untied!!!
zz z must be coz put into bag
so ruined it la zzzz
lucky zhenyan helped me
it was so boring la
coz my 'station' there nobody de
since it's reception area
refreshments de or i should say lunch.
so until 10.30 like that
then got ppl go eat
after that huimin tell us we also can eat le
she say once they start
we can start le actually
but then we dun dare go in
then those stationed upstairs came down after a while
think huimin told them can eat le too
then the whole group of us stand outside the room
and dun dare go in
wanted wait those inside finish first
coz a bit ps la there's quite a lot alumni inside
so we stand there and STTAARREE inside the room HAHAHA
it was comical la
the ppl inside noticed us
and one teacher started laughing HAHA
then wu lao shi came out and tell us we can go in eat
dun stand over there
they felt like polar bears on exhibition HAHAHAHA
it was so funny
then junle tell her
it's ok it's ok we nvm de
HAHAHAHA then she say u say de ar
dun wan then suan le HAHA
in the end we still went in la
ps to eat inside though and no space
so we take le sit outside eat LOL
like so poor thing can eat outside hahahaha
summore we all want second serving LOL
so in the end we went in again
but stayed inside this time
just eat inside la.
more students came for lunch too
they were helping at acope previously ma
after the whole thing was over
my pw group minus zhekang
was at clep room
then we discuss gpp lor
coz we changing idea ma.
till 1+ then go meet zhekang at cafe.
shermaine and susan had to leave
so left me zk and zhenyan.
i was SO DAMN SLEEPY by then la
in lep room i was still energetic and high
but by the time go cafe
i was pretty low and TIRED le
so well i nodded off LOL
sianz de lor.
but coz it's saturday
we heard the college is going to be locked up...sooon
so we packed up and left.
zhenyan went home
me and zk went bedok macs to eat icecream
and continue discussion
2 ppl group discussion
how wonderful.
we didnt get much done there
but ok la
i planned a bit stuff
arrange things for the rest to research on lor.
but well there's a lot to do
and I HAVE TO COMPILE THE GPP AGAIN!
wth lor leader big deal ar
why must i be so responsible HAHA
no la but aiya they always tell me busy busy de
like i very free like tt lor
then i bo bian la.
ok la i do la i do la.
then other stuff also not like they will help me more
)((*^(#^%*#&%
i seriously NOT free ok!
i still got csc till now not done leh!!!
and coz monday meeting up with mr ang for...erm
how should i call it
mentoring? haha whatever
so ar i need to prepare stuff to ask him ma
so i need do maths!
next week maths n chem test summore...
and anyway i cant find my black file!
all the ques i had done previously from the chall Qs book
ALL INSIDE LEH.
i was halfway thru a ques summore sianz need redo ;P
cher say can lend me zap his solutions though.
tt's nice of him as usual.
today i very guai le lor.
morning clep duty ar
i brought notes to read
mainly was reading chem notes la
but not much done
i didnt reach the most important parts
but i did absorb much more than during lectures :P
so yepp not bad la.
got improvement.
after everything
i came home
and well i did read breaking dawn a bit :P
but i got start on maths.
took out book 2
and started from first page.
read read and see if there's anything i need ask mr ang about
i must irritate him with lots of questions on monday HAHA
no la. but i felt damn guai reading it closely
and really trying my best
feels weird being good HAHAHA
but yepp tt's a good thing.
but being so busy makes me irritated
so i keep telling my dad to not bother me
i got so much research to do on com
he still ask me help him scan and print a paper
so i just keep say i very busy lor
summore my scanner lousy de la
coz my com is lousy de ma
so ar when use scanner have to close everything else
which includes my research progress
if not com sure lag like crazy when i scan
no. it would probably not work even.
so i didnt help him la
aiya cant be bothered now la.
i got better things to do.
he also asked me go the ipad website again
he say wan buy an ipad
WTH LOR WHOLE DAY WASTE MONEY
then my mum going scold him again
then he will bad mood and argu back
then the atmosphere will fluctuate between
north pole and volcano eruption.
it's rly irritating
coz they tend to channel anger to me too. -.-
then i will get upset again.
so predictable all the time
moreover. the main thing is.
he keep wasting money la seriously
keep say very poor la very poor la
wan save money for my uni la etcetc
then why buy so much crap??!?!
if he got use them often
if the things are of good use
then fine. i cant say anything
BUT THEY ARE USU DUMPED THERE
AT ONE CORNER AFTER A WHILE!!
it makes the room messier and messier
as he adds new stuff to his collection
wth lor. it's seriously look more like collectibles la
waste money.
buy dunno how many cameras le
new ones come out he would be interested
apparently the previous ones keep spoiling
but he don't even rly need a camera.
well sometimes he does.
but it's not tt impt.
camera still ok la
but then hor
he still go buy mp3 and mp4
tt type of stuff
use a while dump one corner
when mum starts packing up
like cny or sth ar
then she will upset by the mess again
and they usu will start arguing.
it's always like this...
anyway im too busy to help him
with useless stuff currently.
not like blogging is useful now but whatever
it's essential :P
i need a channel to vent everything after all.
im not like the rest who has someone
to share EVERYTHING with.
oh well tt's my blog's use ((:
lots of things on my mind
cannot squeeze more le
if not sure start forgetting a lot too...
haiz. usu i like being busy
but not THIS type of busy la
and not THIS busy la
sianz de leh.
it's so irritating to be leader sometimes...
when there's nobody to do,
you just have to do it.
i feel like resigning
but i cant haha :P
yesterday...
i saw lowe in school lols.
it was...weird
haiz i didnt smile at him
I WONDER WHY -.-
i think i was just slow la
it didnt register in my mind that he's lowe
that he's my friend
that i should acknowledge him by smiling
then see his reaction...
i was thinking about sth i think
so when i saw him it just didnt register
so i just looked down.
my eyes did see that he's lowe
but my brain didnt see any link to anything then.
haha...so i didnt smile at him
i just looked down
lols. WHY DID I DO THAT MAN!!!
damn it.
i always ruin things la
we can be friends de lor
but then everytime also like tt
it gets worse all the time.
at first
he totally ignored me
i didnt bother him either
we didnt acknowledge each other
but he got over it after a while
and told me what we are still friends
so we were better le
we wave and smile when we meet
well it's a bit awkward and it makes me nervous haha
but well at least we sort of say hi~
after that. the wave gradually disappeared
we just smiled a bit
tt's still acknowledgement
then once i accidentally didnt smile at him
haha then erm well
it got worse lols.
sometimes we still smile sometimes we don't
we became more and more stranger-like...
gradually gradually gradually
we are strangers liao lor
SO SAD :(
that time
it was 4 years ago le.....
sec 1....sec 1 is a special and memorable yr for me
it wasn't pleasant for most of it
but there were so many things tt yr...
it left a deep impression in me.
lowe that thing till now 4 years le leh
still like tt
nono i should say become like that.
sianz. we could have been gd friends de
why did i just have to ruin it?!?!?
im such a pro at ruining things la :(
nah shant think about it le.
i got a lot more things to think about
to care about sth tt has past 4 years le..
it's a regret but well it's over.
i shall try my best to rmb to smile when i see him again
but i think he will be shocked LOL
maybe he won't return my smile
and i would be upset...i guess
but tt's not surprising
so whatever.
today college day
clep de went back sku help out
coz this yr is clep 20th anniversary too.
I WAS LATEEE
supposed to be 8.30 reach ma
like 15 mins late or sth la lols
and my tie was untied!!!
zz z must be coz put into bag
so ruined it la zzzz
lucky zhenyan helped me
it was so boring la
coz my 'station' there nobody de
since it's reception area
refreshments de or i should say lunch.
so until 10.30 like that
then got ppl go eat
after that huimin tell us we also can eat le
she say once they start
we can start le actually
but then we dun dare go in
then those stationed upstairs came down after a while
think huimin told them can eat le too
then the whole group of us stand outside the room
and dun dare go in
wanted wait those inside finish first
coz a bit ps la there's quite a lot alumni inside
so we stand there and STTAARREE inside the room HAHAHA
it was comical la
the ppl inside noticed us
and one teacher started laughing HAHA
then wu lao shi came out and tell us we can go in eat
dun stand over there
they felt like polar bears on exhibition HAHAHAHA
it was so funny
then junle tell her
it's ok it's ok we nvm de
HAHAHAHA then she say u say de ar
dun wan then suan le HAHA
in the end we still went in la
ps to eat inside though and no space
so we take le sit outside eat LOL
like so poor thing can eat outside hahahaha
summore we all want second serving LOL
so in the end we went in again
but stayed inside this time
just eat inside la.
more students came for lunch too
they were helping at acope previously ma
after the whole thing was over
my pw group minus zhekang
was at clep room
then we discuss gpp lor
coz we changing idea ma.
till 1+ then go meet zhekang at cafe.
shermaine and susan had to leave
so left me zk and zhenyan.
i was SO DAMN SLEEPY by then la
in lep room i was still energetic and high
but by the time go cafe
i was pretty low and TIRED le
so well i nodded off LOL
sianz de lor.
but coz it's saturday
we heard the college is going to be locked up...sooon
so we packed up and left.
zhenyan went home
me and zk went bedok macs to eat icecream
and continue discussion
2 ppl group discussion
how wonderful.
we didnt get much done there
but ok la
i planned a bit stuff
arrange things for the rest to research on lor.
but well there's a lot to do
and I HAVE TO COMPILE THE GPP AGAIN!
wth lor leader big deal ar
why must i be so responsible HAHA
no la but aiya they always tell me busy busy de
like i very free like tt lor
then i bo bian la.
ok la i do la i do la.
then other stuff also not like they will help me more
)((*^(#^%*#&%
i seriously NOT free ok!
i still got csc till now not done leh!!!
and coz monday meeting up with mr ang for...erm
how should i call it
mentoring? haha whatever
so ar i need to prepare stuff to ask him ma
so i need do maths!
next week maths n chem test summore...
and anyway i cant find my black file!
all the ques i had done previously from the chall Qs book
ALL INSIDE LEH.
i was halfway thru a ques summore sianz need redo ;P
cher say can lend me zap his solutions though.
tt's nice of him as usual.
today i very guai le lor.
morning clep duty ar
i brought notes to read
mainly was reading chem notes la
but not much done
i didnt reach the most important parts
but i did absorb much more than during lectures :P
so yepp not bad la.
got improvement.
after everything
i came home
and well i did read breaking dawn a bit :P
but i got start on maths.
took out book 2
and started from first page.
read read and see if there's anything i need ask mr ang about
i must irritate him with lots of questions on monday HAHA
no la. but i felt damn guai reading it closely
and really trying my best
feels weird being good HAHAHA
but yepp tt's a good thing.
but being so busy makes me irritated
so i keep telling my dad to not bother me
i got so much research to do on com
he still ask me help him scan and print a paper
so i just keep say i very busy lor
summore my scanner lousy de la
coz my com is lousy de ma
so ar when use scanner have to close everything else
which includes my research progress
if not com sure lag like crazy when i scan
no. it would probably not work even.
so i didnt help him la
aiya cant be bothered now la.
i got better things to do.
he also asked me go the ipad website again
he say wan buy an ipad
WTH LOR WHOLE DAY WASTE MONEY
then my mum going scold him again
then he will bad mood and argu back
then the atmosphere will fluctuate between
north pole and volcano eruption.
it's rly irritating
coz they tend to channel anger to me too. -.-
then i will get upset again.
so predictable all the time
moreover. the main thing is.
he keep wasting money la seriously
keep say very poor la very poor la
wan save money for my uni la etcetc
then why buy so much crap??!?!
if he got use them often
if the things are of good use
then fine. i cant say anything
BUT THEY ARE USU DUMPED THERE
AT ONE CORNER AFTER A WHILE!!
it makes the room messier and messier
as he adds new stuff to his collection
wth lor. it's seriously look more like collectibles la
waste money.
buy dunno how many cameras le
new ones come out he would be interested
apparently the previous ones keep spoiling
but he don't even rly need a camera.
well sometimes he does.
but it's not tt impt.
camera still ok la
but then hor
he still go buy mp3 and mp4
tt type of stuff
use a while dump one corner
when mum starts packing up
like cny or sth ar
then she will upset by the mess again
and they usu will start arguing.
it's always like this...
anyway im too busy to help him
with useless stuff currently.
not like blogging is useful now but whatever
it's essential :P
i need a channel to vent everything after all.
im not like the rest who has someone
to share EVERYTHING with.
oh well tt's my blog's use ((:
oops
my mum caught me asleep in front of com!!
LOL tt's bad
she keep ask me go sleep
but i slack too much just now
havent done research for tmr :X
howhow :(
I WAN SLEEP TOO
but i think i will go read breaking dawn in the end :P
ytd supposed to quick do chem tutorial then
get a GOOD NIGHT SLEEP
in the end started reading breaking dawn
and couldnt stop
lost track of time
so slept late again :PPP
LOL tt's bad
she keep ask me go sleep
but i slack too much just now
havent done research for tmr :X
howhow :(
I WAN SLEEP TOO
but i think i will go read breaking dawn in the end :P
ytd supposed to quick do chem tutorial then
get a GOOD NIGHT SLEEP
in the end started reading breaking dawn
and couldnt stop
lost track of time
so slept late again :PPP
Friday, May 14, 2010
disliked
hmm
ver and kailun
seems pretty unhappy with me
lols. apparently
i got on their nerves the way they got on mine?
what am i saying?
i mean...
they sort of got on my nerves sometimes
and i am a more serious person
they cant take my seriousness
soemtimes nth to say to them
lols.
whatever la.
it's okay with elaine.
tt's gd enough i guess...
ver and kailun
seems pretty unhappy with me
lols. apparently
i got on their nerves the way they got on mine?
what am i saying?
i mean...
they sort of got on my nerves sometimes
and i am a more serious person
they cant take my seriousness
soemtimes nth to say to them
lols.
whatever la.
it's okay with elaine.
tt's gd enough i guess...
update update!
about 2 days didnt online!!
haha achievement sia :P
anyway~~~~~~
tues do csc till 2+
then wednesday SUPER DAMN TIRED MAN!
totally half dead in sku la HAHA
in morning i didnt even bother to wait for joscelin
i just msg her tell her i go first
coz i was too tired to stand over there and wait
i scared i fall asleep there
later ppl think i crazy then call IMH :P
anyway so i went sku and slept for 20 mins :D
didnt help much
i lack much more sleep than that haha
so whole morning kept sleeping
esp during lectures :P
hehe. it's so nice to sleep in lectures! :PPPP
maths lecture ar
cher catch others quite a lot
but left me alone THANKFULLY! :P
i think coz tt day
got another class de girls so sit front row
so they blocked me who is damn short
so yupps cher nvr catch me sleeping hehe :PPP
afternoon i was much better le though
was pretty high actually
i think it has sth got to do with lunch
it perks me up
i dunno y. usu ppl more sleepy after lunch.
but food has an oppo effect on me....usually :P
my clique always say that of me anyway though i usu disagree
i think is coz lunch
i not doing work HAHA
chat and laugh with them
rest rest a bit
that's y feel more awake ba?
dunno. my theory :P
and that day was MR ANG BDAE!
I had planned to sms him very early hopefully at 12am de
but then as i said i was doing csc till very late
and i was half dead the next morning
SO I FORGOT!!
not a good excuse but so sorry cher!!!
I REALLY DIDNT MEAN TO FORGET!
better than veron who didnt even NOE his bdae can~ :PPP
i lunchtime suddenly rmbed ma
so i told veron
she say she wan pretend she forgot
then msg him at midnight
i was like LOL? u really forgot what dun need pretend.
oh no. is dun even noe....
lols :P
anyway wanted to post on wed de
but had work to do at night so didnt come on9 to post lor.
mr ang was very nice
and encouraging ((:
but HE'S SO DAMN FUNNY HAHHAHA
he was telling me dun treat him as my toy
HAHAHAHAHAHA
he's so comical :P
but he did spur me on
coz i say i usu wont determined for long
then he say will send me stressful reminders
even if he left for the states
coz i REALLY have to work REALLY hard in the hols...
that was nice of him.
even if he didnt mean it
i was still touched
:P haha
that day while i going home
i typed into my ipod what i would post that day
but didnt get a chance.
so post now :D
here's what i wrote:
I think I don't deserve mr ang's kindness
unless i really meet his requirements
unless i work really hard
or AT LEAST put in my utmost best effort and STOP SLACKING...
I can do much better than this
i know I can or at least i should tell myself i can. :P
SOOO
I SHOULD do better than this.
I need to and I have to.
I WILLLLLL DO BETTER!!!
I WILLL WORK HARD AND DO WELL FOR THE JCTS!!
I will try my best and study hard
I won't disappoint mr ang,
my irritating friends who alienate me,
my demanding parents
and myself, the dumbo.
I AM (WAS) DETERMINED TO DO WELL!!!!
I wonder how long this will last
but erm I'll make the best out of it while it lasts i guess...
Maybe I'll actually like studying
and continue working hard...HMM NVM
tt's thinking too much :P
all i can say is jiayouus and STUDY HARD!!
hopefully i will do well...
一日为师，终生为父
(for the benefit of non-chinese speaking ppl:
translation: once a teacher, always a father
ok the el doesnt make sense
but ya la sth like tt la :PP)
mr ang is wonderful HAHAHAHA
wednesday i took out my pi pa gao
then put into the fridge
dun wan hide it la
hide until when man
and my mum is in a better mood le anyway
she didnt say anything
so ytd night i go ask her if she saw it
then i realise
she tot is my dad buy de
but she isnt against it :D
that's good enough
i told her it's from mr ang ((:
then she was surprised
not a lot la just a bit.
she emotions very little de :P
anyway she was like: "who? so nice meh?"
hahahahaha ya lor
cher so nice! HAHAAH
aiya i ytd got things to post too
but i forgot le :(
didnt write into ipod first...
i only rmb...
break time we go library
then i wanted to do chem
coz thursday i dunno y
but i was feeling more determined than wed
i just felt so dunno y...
so i was doing chem...nah is TRYING to do chem
but i was sleepy
so erm i nodded off while reading my notes
got laughed at a bit after tt hehe :P
then anyway kailun asked me math ques about lecture notes
so i anyhow explain HAHA
she understood. which is good.
coz im not good at that chapter either
lucky they ask simple questions
that were the parts that i wasnt asleep :P
after tt i wanted to take a rest first
so i lie on table and rest
THEN I COULDNT FALL ASLEEP
)(#*&@#%(*@)#(%)#
so ok i gave up
and sit up and read chem notes
and then i nod off again
HAHAHAHAHAHHA
it was damn funny la.
chem notes hypnotising man!!!!
everytime go econs or chem lecture
i at first super awake
listen and highlight
halfway sleeping liao le. -.-
haiz.
SIANZ LA
like that how make it for JCT!?!??!
chem tutorials
cher teach quite well la
but my basics not even there!!
how understand what she talking?@?!?!
haiyo. i like sec sku better
coz they go thru the notes better
now they so super brief
summore while i sleeping
so nothing went in
they last time teach in lessons
much better lor
i can understand at least.
i can ask questions
and answer cher a lot de.
well the class hated me
for becoming ms chan's fav student with char
i was too noisy i guess
keep answer ms chan and ask questions
i did tone down after tt though lols
jc system is NO GOOD FOR ME!!! :((
so sleep-inducing la~
haiyo...
anyway our very nice mr ang
say he will still help us ((:
so me and ying en looking for him on monday
oh and kailun wants to come along.
elaine and wanshan also wan find him
but erm dunno if they will arrange with him anot o.O
but hmm i think elaine not free la
i heard jos say
they from next week onwards
EVERYDAY CO!
next next week also.
cham sia they damn poor thing.
anyway so yea good luck to them.
and cher donating The Economist 2006-2008 to us!
i asked the class.
not all replied
but ya la they want the mag
so yepp like tt.
elaine say let kailun keep the mag then
when the class want then get from kailun
but i forgot ask kailun if it's ok with her...
if not then i keep.
hmm should ask her soon.
today lunchtime
they discuss their families lols
they have young parents man
elaine's grandma is younger than my dad -.-
zzz LOL
aiya im sorta used to it la
they talked about how close they are with their parents
and their relations with their siblings too.
elaine best la.
DAMN close with her mum
she say like sisters like tt
and she and her bro loves each other too ((:
ying en and kailun both have very loving mum
ying en's dad DAMN FUNNY HAHAHAHA
very passionate person i guess
ying en say he everyday say ILY to her leh LOL
then like will wan attract her attention tt type la
very loving person HAHA
but her mum not tt type
she say she got her mum's genes, the more loner one LOL
but her siblings all got her dad's sociable and open genes
she not very happy about that HAHA
she's not very close with her sis though
dun talk de.
they got cold war 6mths+ before sia
scary LOL
now also dun talk much
coz both keep use com o.O
but her bro reptty sensible kid ((;
kailun coz away from home
so her mum esp gd to her
they everyday talk thru phone sia!!!
verrryy caring mum also de.
veron say she n her mum like friends like tt
but nvr talk to dad de
coz dad always overseas.
lols mine. i got nth to share haha
i just listened.
elaine asked if our mums cried b4
mine once
elaine once
ying en say her mum cries easily lols!!
kailun say her mum usu cry when kailun sick or sth
wow....very loving mum man
my mum scolds me for getting sick and wasting money
and troubling them -.- lols...
no one wants to listen to stories like mine
so i kept quiet haha
theirs more interesting :D
i quite envied them la
but well little bit la
thinking bout it now makes the envy worse o.O
but it's ok
it's ALWAYS LIKE THAT
last time in my clique also
all happy families
oh shuting de pretty complicated though.
carol de quite similar to mine
but she has a bro to share still...
but well she understands best le
i used to complain to her a bit sometimes haha
she would too.
i miss them :(
today GOT BACK GPP~~
horrible la.
we need MUCH MORE substantial evidence for EVERYTHING
basically every point need evidence la
need LOTS of research to be done~
so we need find out how to make the game
if not
then change plan
they wan make board game sia
but erm not very creative?
hmm cher say we need to be able to make the
board game stand out
like more interesting and effective than current ones
if not then dun wan.
sianz.
after tt i smsed all of them
tell them what they need to research lor.
tmr after college day then need discuss le.
i haven't done yet.
dun feel like doing
i just wanna slack :P
PW SUCKS!!! :P
school sucks la anyway :P
i want to do well for PW :((
haiz. we need a good plan.
but then they aren't contributing much
IT SUCKS BEING THE LEADER LA
im like leader for both pw and csc?!?!
csc is terrible
the other 2 grps presented le
left our group nia
next tues our turn le.
but haven finish. no progress since wed la
i need find stuff and send to elaine by sunday
i didnt do a gd job apparently
elaine taking over for now
at least not all i doing ((:
share share.
anyway she going edit the stuff and settle script i guess
then send back to me for me to do final editing and evaluation.
hmm hopefully it's good.
we so much more time than other groups
we would have to be much more presentable seriously.
JIAYOUUS!!
PW TOO!!
AIM FOR MY A!
hope lowlowlowlowlow but aiya TRY LOR~
BO BIAN :(
oh ya today wanshan miranda fanye
all mc sia
LOL sianz
everybody's getting sick.
my stomach also playing tricks on me
few days liao leh
it just keep aching then after a while ok le
then ache again then ok
ache again then ok
damn irritating
so i skipped pe today haha
i scared run halfway too upsetting
scared i vomit or sth
so yea dun care la.
today it was worse.
pain lor :(
dunno y also.
haiz.
must be lack of sleep la
makes my body really bad de
and i haven't been eating very healthily i guess :P
can't help it.
im greedy :P
aiya hope my stomach heals soon
it's super distracting and irritating :(
today got maths book 3 CALCULUS!
$7.20 sia
wth. SUPER EX
SUPER THICK!
mr ang says sku notes are no use de HAHA
true la
sometimes it's quite diff to understand
when rly go try the questions then i noe.
but im a bit lagging behind in maths liao sia
i need lots more time
yet this weekend going to spend on gpp
that is due on monday latest tues though... :P
WORK HARD!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH SIANZ....
haha achievement sia :P
anyway~~~~~~
tues do csc till 2+
then wednesday SUPER DAMN TIRED MAN!
totally half dead in sku la HAHA
in morning i didnt even bother to wait for joscelin
i just msg her tell her i go first
coz i was too tired to stand over there and wait
i scared i fall asleep there
later ppl think i crazy then call IMH :P
anyway so i went sku and slept for 20 mins :D
didnt help much
i lack much more sleep than that haha
so whole morning kept sleeping
esp during lectures :P
hehe. it's so nice to sleep in lectures! :PPPP
maths lecture ar
cher catch others quite a lot
but left me alone THANKFULLY! :P
i think coz tt day
got another class de girls so sit front row
so they blocked me who is damn short
so yupps cher nvr catch me sleeping hehe :PPP
afternoon i was much better le though
was pretty high actually
i think it has sth got to do with lunch
it perks me up
i dunno y. usu ppl more sleepy after lunch.
but food has an oppo effect on me....usually :P
my clique always say that of me anyway though i usu disagree
i think is coz lunch
i not doing work HAHA
chat and laugh with them
rest rest a bit
that's y feel more awake ba?
dunno. my theory :P
and that day was MR ANG BDAE!
I had planned to sms him very early hopefully at 12am de
but then as i said i was doing csc till very late
and i was half dead the next morning
SO I FORGOT!!
not a good excuse but so sorry cher!!!
I REALLY DIDNT MEAN TO FORGET!
better than veron who didnt even NOE his bdae can~ :PPP
i lunchtime suddenly rmbed ma
so i told veron
she say she wan pretend she forgot
then msg him at midnight
i was like LOL? u really forgot what dun need pretend.
oh no. is dun even noe....
lols :P
anyway wanted to post on wed de
but had work to do at night so didnt come on9 to post lor.
mr ang was very nice
and encouraging ((:
but HE'S SO DAMN FUNNY HAHHAHA
he was telling me dun treat him as my toy
HAHAHAHAHAHA
he's so comical :P
but he did spur me on
coz i say i usu wont determined for long
then he say will send me stressful reminders
even if he left for the states
coz i REALLY have to work REALLY hard in the hols...
that was nice of him.
even if he didnt mean it
i was still touched
:P haha
that day while i going home
i typed into my ipod what i would post that day
but didnt get a chance.
so post now :D
here's what i wrote:
I think I don't deserve mr ang's kindness
unless i really meet his requirements
unless i work really hard
or AT LEAST put in my utmost best effort and STOP SLACKING...
I can do much better than this
i know I can or at least i should tell myself i can. :P
SOOO
I SHOULD do better than this.
I need to and I have to.
I WILLLLLL DO BETTER!!!
I WILLL WORK HARD AND DO WELL FOR THE JCTS!!
I will try my best and study hard
I won't disappoint mr ang,
my irritating friends who alienate me,
my demanding parents
and myself, the dumbo.
I AM (WAS) DETERMINED TO DO WELL!!!!
I wonder how long this will last
but erm I'll make the best out of it while it lasts i guess...
Maybe I'll actually like studying
and continue working hard...HMM NVM
tt's thinking too much :P
all i can say is jiayouus and STUDY HARD!!
hopefully i will do well...
一日为师，终生为父
(for the benefit of non-chinese speaking ppl:
translation: once a teacher, always a father
ok the el doesnt make sense
but ya la sth like tt la :PP)
mr ang is wonderful HAHAHAHA
wednesday i took out my pi pa gao
then put into the fridge
dun wan hide it la
hide until when man
and my mum is in a better mood le anyway
she didnt say anything
so ytd night i go ask her if she saw it
then i realise
she tot is my dad buy de
but she isnt against it :D
that's good enough
i told her it's from mr ang ((:
then she was surprised
not a lot la just a bit.
she emotions very little de :P
anyway she was like: "who? so nice meh?"
hahahahaha ya lor
cher so nice! HAHAAH
aiya i ytd got things to post too
but i forgot le :(
didnt write into ipod first...
i only rmb...
break time we go library
then i wanted to do chem
coz thursday i dunno y
but i was feeling more determined than wed
i just felt so dunno y...
so i was doing chem...nah is TRYING to do chem
but i was sleepy
so erm i nodded off while reading my notes
got laughed at a bit after tt hehe :P
then anyway kailun asked me math ques about lecture notes
so i anyhow explain HAHA
she understood. which is good.
coz im not good at that chapter either
lucky they ask simple questions
that were the parts that i wasnt asleep :P
after tt i wanted to take a rest first
so i lie on table and rest
THEN I COULDNT FALL ASLEEP
)(#*&@#%(*@)#(%)#
so ok i gave up
and sit up and read chem notes
and then i nod off again
HAHAHAHAHAHHA
it was damn funny la.
chem notes hypnotising man!!!!
everytime go econs or chem lecture
i at first super awake
listen and highlight
halfway sleeping liao le. -.-
haiz.
SIANZ LA
like that how make it for JCT!?!??!
chem tutorials
cher teach quite well la
but my basics not even there!!
how understand what she talking?@?!?!
haiyo. i like sec sku better
coz they go thru the notes better
now they so super brief
summore while i sleeping
so nothing went in
they last time teach in lessons
much better lor
i can understand at least.
i can ask questions
and answer cher a lot de.
well the class hated me
for becoming ms chan's fav student with char
i was too noisy i guess
keep answer ms chan and ask questions
i did tone down after tt though lols
jc system is NO GOOD FOR ME!!! :((
so sleep-inducing la~
haiyo...
anyway our very nice mr ang
say he will still help us ((:
so me and ying en looking for him on monday
oh and kailun wants to come along.
elaine and wanshan also wan find him
but erm dunno if they will arrange with him anot o.O
but hmm i think elaine not free la
i heard jos say
they from next week onwards
EVERYDAY CO!
next next week also.
cham sia they damn poor thing.
anyway so yea good luck to them.
and cher donating The Economist 2006-2008 to us!
i asked the class.
not all replied
but ya la they want the mag
so yepp like tt.
elaine say let kailun keep the mag then
when the class want then get from kailun
but i forgot ask kailun if it's ok with her...
if not then i keep.
hmm should ask her soon.
today lunchtime
they discuss their families lols
they have young parents man
elaine's grandma is younger than my dad -.-
zzz LOL
aiya im sorta used to it la
they talked about how close they are with their parents
and their relations with their siblings too.
elaine best la.
DAMN close with her mum
she say like sisters like tt
and she and her bro loves each other too ((:
ying en and kailun both have very loving mum
ying en's dad DAMN FUNNY HAHAHAHA
very passionate person i guess
ying en say he everyday say ILY to her leh LOL
then like will wan attract her attention tt type la
very loving person HAHA
but her mum not tt type
she say she got her mum's genes, the more loner one LOL
but her siblings all got her dad's sociable and open genes
she not very happy about that HAHA
she's not very close with her sis though
dun talk de.
they got cold war 6mths+ before sia
scary LOL
now also dun talk much
coz both keep use com o.O
but her bro reptty sensible kid ((;
kailun coz away from home
so her mum esp gd to her
they everyday talk thru phone sia!!!
verrryy caring mum also de.
veron say she n her mum like friends like tt
but nvr talk to dad de
coz dad always overseas.
lols mine. i got nth to share haha
i just listened.
elaine asked if our mums cried b4
mine once
elaine once
ying en say her mum cries easily lols!!
kailun say her mum usu cry when kailun sick or sth
wow....very loving mum man
my mum scolds me for getting sick and wasting money
and troubling them -.- lols...
no one wants to listen to stories like mine
so i kept quiet haha
theirs more interesting :D
i quite envied them la
but well little bit la
thinking bout it now makes the envy worse o.O
but it's ok
it's ALWAYS LIKE THAT
last time in my clique also
all happy families
oh shuting de pretty complicated though.
carol de quite similar to mine
but she has a bro to share still...
but well she understands best le
i used to complain to her a bit sometimes haha
she would too.
i miss them :(
today GOT BACK GPP~~
horrible la.
we need MUCH MORE substantial evidence for EVERYTHING
basically every point need evidence la
need LOTS of research to be done~
so we need find out how to make the game
if not
then change plan
they wan make board game sia
but erm not very creative?
hmm cher say we need to be able to make the
board game stand out
like more interesting and effective than current ones
if not then dun wan.
sianz.
after tt i smsed all of them
tell them what they need to research lor.
tmr after college day then need discuss le.
i haven't done yet.
dun feel like doing
i just wanna slack :P
PW SUCKS!!! :P
school sucks la anyway :P
i want to do well for PW :((
haiz. we need a good plan.
but then they aren't contributing much
IT SUCKS BEING THE LEADER LA
im like leader for both pw and csc?!?!
csc is terrible
the other 2 grps presented le
left our group nia
next tues our turn le.
but haven finish. no progress since wed la
i need find stuff and send to elaine by sunday
i didnt do a gd job apparently
elaine taking over for now
at least not all i doing ((:
share share.
anyway she going edit the stuff and settle script i guess
then send back to me for me to do final editing and evaluation.
hmm hopefully it's good.
we so much more time than other groups
we would have to be much more presentable seriously.
JIAYOUUS!!
PW TOO!!
AIM FOR MY A!
hope lowlowlowlowlow but aiya TRY LOR~
BO BIAN :(
oh ya today wanshan miranda fanye
all mc sia
LOL sianz
everybody's getting sick.
my stomach also playing tricks on me
few days liao leh
it just keep aching then after a while ok le
then ache again then ok
ache again then ok
damn irritating
so i skipped pe today haha
i scared run halfway too upsetting
scared i vomit or sth
so yea dun care la.
today it was worse.
pain lor :(
dunno y also.
haiz.
must be lack of sleep la
makes my body really bad de
and i haven't been eating very healthily i guess :P
can't help it.
im greedy :P
aiya hope my stomach heals soon
it's super distracting and irritating :(
today got maths book 3 CALCULUS!
$7.20 sia
wth. SUPER EX
SUPER THICK!
mr ang says sku notes are no use de HAHA
true la
sometimes it's quite diff to understand
when rly go try the questions then i noe.
but im a bit lagging behind in maths liao sia
i need lots more time
yet this weekend going to spend on gpp
that is due on monday latest tues though... :P
WORK HARD!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH SIANZ....
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
late late!
so late le :((
haven't finish csc sia
tmr meet them early in sku
to collate a bit more
but some info haven't even find la
)#(&%(*&#(%^!#*%
sianzzzzzzz
haiz.
haven't finish csc sia
tmr meet them early in sku
to collate a bit more
but some info haven't even find la
)#(&%(*&#(%^!#*%
sianzzzzzzz
haiz.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
im here again (:
Today nothing much
just a few things.
had LOTS of money to collect
coz of $43 for pullover+tee
luckily econs bk de $45 is kim collect sia!!
then still got mardi gras and the overdue stuff
argh messy la.
most ppl hand in le
but well when i say most i mean majority
means more than half
half means ~11
lols so still got a lot ppl.
hmm $43 i think left 6 ppl lols so okay la.
damn scary to carry SOO much money on me can.
stressed.
almost lost it la
)(*&(*%&^#%^#%
that time i had ~800+ leh
if i had rly lost it...
no one would see me again tomorrow man
either i committed suicide or my mum killed me...
coz lunchtime i scared put the 'wallet' at the table not safe
so i carried it with me.
but IM A CARELESS PERSON
so i go buy food
and left the thing at the stall -.-
luckily the auntie took it and
i asked her if she saw anything
then she returned it to me
PHEWWWW
omg la.
damn scary
i had searched high n low for it b4 i asked her
coz it didnt look like i left it there :P
phew phew phew.
oh jollin owes me $15 from 1 mth plus ago!!
and godwin $5 from same time (*#%*&@^#%*&!^%
LOL damn long le leh wth lor -.-
it's unfair coz the rest handed in alreadY!!!!
haiz.
then SKIPSKIPSKIP
maths lesson.
mrs tan is a good teacher
well she can teach.
but.
it was quite boring
i was feeling quite sleepy
luckily i didnt fall asleep.
but well it was a bit boring :P
not VERY bad la but still........haha
mr ang better HAHAHAHA
econs. mrs lim was good too.
she can teach~~
but i still fell asleep halfway
while i copied the answer...
haha. i was just tired la.
she's great. rly great.
oh mrs low (chem) is gd too.
the experienced teachers really CAN teach man :D
feel a bit more confident :D
well. A BIT. :P
foundation isnt good enough.
still nidda catch up a lot........
but maths. i still rather mr ang come back
:(
today break we went library
i did one ques from the book
dunno how to do part 2
BUT I CANT ASK CHER LE!
as in cant ask for consultations anymore...
coz i do functions ma
and im rly rly rly bad at it :(((((
haiz. im gd at numbers
algebra and stuff like tt TRIGO :D
hmm trigo is OKAY la not very gd also.
but i SUCK AT DIAGRAMS GRAPHS AND FIGURES!!!
:(((((
JCT IS SCARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
im damn scared.
mrs lim was telling us.
jct is going to be difficult
thanks man.
i can't even pass a class test la.........
and the supplier for the class tee
is soooo troublesome!!
supposed to meet him in bedok interchange at 6+ de
then he still with customer so cant make it
so ask us make cash deposit into his acc
bedok dun have!!!!coz mine is posb ma
then I SW SHUTING!
LOL LONG TIME NO SEE MAN
and she had to keep suaning me -.-
hahahaha but i did too la
i missed all of them........
it's so much nicer with them arnd.
they understand better.
heard she tops her class in mjc HAHA
im surprised :P hehe
but well...tt's great.
:D
anyway she brought me to the nearest bank
there got posb atm that can do cash deposit
so yepp done. haha THANKFULLY :D
I WAN MEET WITH ALL OF THEM AGAIN!!!! :(((
just a few things.
had LOTS of money to collect
coz of $43 for pullover+tee
luckily econs bk de $45 is kim collect sia!!
then still got mardi gras and the overdue stuff
argh messy la.
most ppl hand in le
but well when i say most i mean majority
means more than half
half means ~11
lols so still got a lot ppl.
hmm $43 i think left 6 ppl lols so okay la.
damn scary to carry SOO much money on me can.
stressed.
almost lost it la
)(*&(*%&^#%^#%
that time i had ~800+ leh
if i had rly lost it...
no one would see me again tomorrow man
either i committed suicide or my mum killed me...
coz lunchtime i scared put the 'wallet' at the table not safe
so i carried it with me.
but IM A CARELESS PERSON
so i go buy food
and left the thing at the stall -.-
luckily the auntie took it and
i asked her if she saw anything
then she returned it to me
PHEWWWW
omg la.
damn scary
i had searched high n low for it b4 i asked her
coz it didnt look like i left it there :P
phew phew phew.
oh jollin owes me $15 from 1 mth plus ago!!
and godwin $5 from same time (*#%*&@^#%*&!^%
LOL damn long le leh wth lor -.-
it's unfair coz the rest handed in alreadY!!!!
haiz.
then SKIPSKIPSKIP
maths lesson.
mrs tan is a good teacher
well she can teach.
but.
it was quite boring
i was feeling quite sleepy
luckily i didnt fall asleep.
but well it was a bit boring :P
not VERY bad la but still........haha
mr ang better HAHAHAHA
econs. mrs lim was good too.
she can teach~~
but i still fell asleep halfway
while i copied the answer...
haha. i was just tired la.
she's great. rly great.
oh mrs low (chem) is gd too.
the experienced teachers really CAN teach man :D
feel a bit more confident :D
well. A BIT. :P
foundation isnt good enough.
still nidda catch up a lot........
but maths. i still rather mr ang come back
:(
today break we went library
i did one ques from the book
dunno how to do part 2
BUT I CANT ASK CHER LE!
as in cant ask for consultations anymore...
coz i do functions ma
and im rly rly rly bad at it :(((((
haiz. im gd at numbers
algebra and stuff like tt TRIGO :D
hmm trigo is OKAY la not very gd also.
but i SUCK AT DIAGRAMS GRAPHS AND FIGURES!!!
:(((((
JCT IS SCARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
im damn scared.
mrs lim was telling us.
jct is going to be difficult
thanks man.
i can't even pass a class test la.........
and the supplier for the class tee
is soooo troublesome!!
supposed to meet him in bedok interchange at 6+ de
then he still with customer so cant make it
so ask us make cash deposit into his acc
bedok dun have!!!!coz mine is posb ma
then I SW SHUTING!
LOL LONG TIME NO SEE MAN
and she had to keep suaning me -.-
hahahaha but i did too la
i missed all of them........
it's so much nicer with them arnd.
they understand better.
heard she tops her class in mjc HAHA
im surprised :P hehe
but well...tt's great.
:D
anyway she brought me to the nearest bank
there got posb atm that can do cash deposit
so yepp done. haha THANKFULLY :D
I WAN MEET WITH ALL OF THEM AGAIN!!!! :(((
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