Well well...

Promos just totally suck lols
ok other than maths. ok no.
including maths.
especially chem
DAMN SCREWED FOR CHEM:(
argh.
i left soooo much blanks that i had time to 'finish' the paper
see. dunno how do. skip
next. also dunno. skip.
and hence i ended up trying everything in time
but there are just sooo many blanks
i dun see how i can reach >45. seriously
im 100% relying on moderation. i just want to pass.
MAYBEEE can get 30++ so yea gd luck gd luck gd luck.

after chem
was with zhenyan and kailun
i really really really got damn super irritated and annoyed
at one point la
other than that i was ok. i just ignored what she was saying.
but it was really...........
she kept harping on how badly she did.
and she doesnt believe when we say we also screwed it up
she INSISTS for a few hours HOUURRSS till the next paper
that she screwed it up terribly
and she's the ONLY ONE
that we'll do well still
wth.

i was so upset leh
i ALWAYS mean what i say
when i say things like i REALLY screwed it up
when i estimate what i think i will get.
i dun exaggerate lor.
although i wasnt happy with my maths
but at least i can still tell them honestly that
i think i might get A. that i think it should.....be ok.
if nothing serious goes wrong la
anyway. i dun see the point of faking it what.
i always tell them i nvr study.
as in i tell them the actual situation de leh
exactly how much i studied
and how little time i used to study
its true what. ive always been a slacker
my gd friends know it
they dont believe when i say i studied lor lols
ironic.
wth lor
always thwart whatever i say
not like i lie to them then i will do better what.
so since i say i nvr study
i must score badly to prove to them meh.
not my fault they are not learning the right way
so they dun score well what.
im not even comparing.
what i say is in my opinion only what
i dun compare with them lor.

damn irritating
she kept going on and on
that one line
"怎么办？essay没有时间做就lose30多分了leh！！”
okok fine I GET IT
can you please stop it -.-
she say nvm la its ok
BUT NOT FOR A FEW HHHOUUURSS RIGHT
argh
and we also did badly eh
and she can ignore us and go on about herself
though we stopped her quite a few times
argh couldnt she just conc on the next paper...???
we were trying to do last minute studying eh
since we all didnt study the previous night
lols. all do chem only.
then she keep saying
i no need study also can do well etc
we studying cll ma got one part i say i haven touch yet
then she was like:"等一下成绩出来又不像没有读过"
.........................
but it's a fact that i nvr study what.
i dunno what are friends for anymore
or are they even my friends -.-
coz i have to watch my mouth SERIOUSLY around them
too bad veron doesnt take same combi as me....haiz.
haiz i dunno how to explain la actually
but for me.
i really couldnt take it.
so i messaged char n veron about it
say they dun believe whatever i say.

VERON WAS EQUALLY IRRITATING LA
she say sth like "i bet you spend the whole night studying for cll right"
for goodness sake i JUST said i didnt. crap.
CHARLYNN ROCKS(:
i really love them. my gd friends.
coz i say they dun believe me and that i screwed chem terribly
that it was the worst paper i ever took.
she replied me:"I believe you (: and hopefully wont fail la."
sth like tt.
so heartwarming...............
just a simple "i believe you" was great lols
coz they know im a slacker hehe.
my gd friends rock(:
that day i actually dropped a tear lols
when kailun suddenly say the "思慧不用读也可以考得很好的"
please define 很好...
anyway they didnt see. luckily.
was in a terrible mood argh.
but i was still all smiles with them
i wonder how i did it.
the bad mood flew away as fast as it came la.
couldnt do anything about it anyway.
tt's how she is and i will tolerate it. or at least i'll learn to.
haiz.

anyway after cll
went macs with godwin and veron
i bought icecream
veron also plus a burger
godwin only fries
then we talked and laughed a lot
gossiped a bit i guess? o.O
anyway it was damn funny
me n veron suan godwin A LOT HAHA
coz he has an ego larger than the whole Earth-.-
so we kept shrinking his ego hahahahaha

today went out with my gd friends
love them hahahaha
it was really...great to have fun with them again.
with them there's no end to laughter.
we just kept laughing hehe
belated celeb for char and shuting too hehe
we were soooo NOT discreet in the card writing HAHA
but anyway cake was great
lunch was great
and KBOC WAS SUPER ULTRA FAB
everytime also damn fun when go kbox
shuting kept shouting
and we all did too at high parts
DAMN FUN
hahahaha
they all say voice sure no gd le
but i didnt feel any strain eh
coz my voice was loud in the first place hehe
so didnt have to strain hahahahahaha :P
anyway it was just so super fun
coz i got 1for1 discount card for today
so it was the cheapest time at kbox yippee!
i was afraid to go there today
coz damn ex
lucky got that card! :D
ahhhh i dun wanna come home.
haiz.

promos was terrible
then ytd JUST finish promos only
then dinner.
then havent even got to have a break leh
dad ask me wash dishes.
tt's like his ONNNLYY job leh
all he do is slack in front of the tv after work eh
only thing he do is wash dishes ehhhh!!!
then always want to shirk even this job -.-
come on la give me a break.
i couldnt wait to sit down in my room and have a good rest
and watch my show, relaxed.
after so long.

today come home.
aiya only he home ma.
i dunno why. i always get super impatient at him.
he just keeps on saying unnecessary stuff
damn crap stuff
i came home he ask me eat already?
i say no. dun wan eat. not hungry.
then he ask what i eat just now
i say nothing
then he say dun anyhow drink what ppl give u
later ppl drug u
do i look like i went to a club or sth -.-
so i say we went to a ROOM with ONLY me n my friends.
then he say ya. dont anyhow play with strangers. etc la.
i just walked into my room
...trying not to show too much irritation
then he was like say a bit u also unhappy ar.
so i tell him:"fei hua what. why would i talk to the strangers??"
thn he nvr answer me.
come on. i got brains to think.

anyway after tt he unhappy with me dao me
so i go switch off the charger
coz he charging his phone using mine. hmph
it was childish but whatever
just felt irritated. a bit 示威 la :P
anyway after tt we both not happy la whatever.
and go bathe then got stuff to wash eh.
damn sianz.

haiz only break i have is that few hours i had today...
haiz.
coz after bathing
zhenyan msg me ask me for tmr meeting plans.................
argh i just didnt want to think about pw...........
sick of it
totally sick of it.
today meixuan suddenly say be pw leader so relaxed
coz she is one too
i was like WHAT?????
relaxed ur head la.
but well she's a domineering person
so she probably can control her grp
haiz. i cant.
but now better le
zhenyan is very hardworking at pw now
mmuch more than me coz i just feel like slacking now hehe.
i wan to let them do more now.
i've had enough. really tired.
ok i just wan to be irresponsible for once la lols.
these few days very mood swing
dont want do anything
just wanna do what i want
thats all.

OH SHIT.
mum just came home and......
OH it's my dad's bdae today~
right right right.
well it's his chinese bdae
and i nvr knew when his chinese bdae was.
only know his el one.
they forgot mine before also lor
and they NEVER really celebrated mine before anyway
only...when i was...5?

my mum like to get presents from me
though she also says otherwise -.-
but she NEVER gave me anything.
never lols
but i treasure my bdaes eh.........
haiz
nvm i dun like to expect anything from them anymore
i just hope they wont expect anything from me........

they always make me sound like a bad daughter
who doesnt care about them at all
and who will not support them when i grow up
but.
actually i tot about it before
i dunno why but anyway i did.
i tot about after i married hehe
coz im their only child.
although married le should be like go to the guy side
but i hope they can live with us.
coz they very old le ma even now
by that time even older.
i cant leave the two of them alone what
i not that mean.
they are still my parents
and im always generous with my money hehe
its not a gd thing
coz im quite a spendthrift
but anyway
i will give them money de lor
and im hoping i can earn enough
to give them more and still have enough for myself hehe
anyway tts the future.
the three of us just totally clash.
diff to have peace at home.
characters totally clash.
cant tolerate each other haha.
but not that we dun care for each other.
its just bad temper.
haiz.
ok. whatever. dun wan think. i shall go destress.
haiz. today was so wonderful till i returned home...............