my handwriting not nice leh :(

I was trying to write
CG 30/10 <3 Mr Ang on a piece of paper
for the class to sign tomorrow
and attach it with the petition and give it to mrs goh
but MY HANDWRITING VERY UGLY LEH!
used like 3 papers liao.
now still trying.
hmm write that okay not sia?
o.O
or should i write.
Please let Mr Ang stay or sth like tt
HAHAHAHA all sounds funny
argh~ hahahahaha

hmm ok sarah picked please let mr ang stay
so okay i'll try writing tt nicely... :D

rare...

i used to blog here verrrryyyy seldom hahaha
but hmm recently more often le.
wonder why...
last time here all negative stuff coz well
positive stuff can dump to the other blog
but actually i prefer here :D
but i dun wanna close the other one :(
haha wadeva im crapping again :P

im so sick of not knowing what's going on!! :(
im talking about econs. AGAIN!
i keep talking about it recently
coz well it's annoying me that
i totally have no idea what it's talking about.
well actually i can follow what the lecturer is saying
BUT none of the things register in my brain.
coz they are teaching chapter 5
while my brain still lagging at chaper 2.
ZZZZZ WHAT TO DO?!?!?!?
i need a whole week hols to study and read econs all over again sia
SERIOUSLY AND URGENTLY!!! BOOOO~~

ANYWAY.................................

today went find mr ang for consultation
during free period b4 chem prac ma
shermaine n sarah was there still
when i reached. oh ya and i met an qi at level 1 haha.
sarah was like: sihui, u so clever already still need consultation meh
lols i didnt say anything la
well there's nth i can say or rather
i dunno what i can/should say.
so yepp keep quiet ba :P
nah im not affected. it's too small a thing.
juz mentioning :D

then they left very shortly after.
i asked cher ques from the irritating challenging ques book la
well it's irritating coz some of the ques are so challenging haha :P
cher so serious when he teaching de i realise hahahaha
so funny :D:D
everybody have 10 sides to them :D hehe :P

and ar sometimes i quite scared disturb him la
like as in on msn or sth
haha but then~
he's too amusing to leave alone HAHA
no la just kidding hahahahaha
today going home ar saw hongwen on bus
then i was msging mr ang ma
then hongwen showed her damn pro suaning skills again
HAHA :D she can twist EVERYTHING LOL
last time in sec sku we all not bad de :D
i 'graduated' from suaning sku HAHA
but then...long time nvr really suan like last time le...
lost touch :(
haha but nvm la.
it's ok :D suan-s are reserved for my
'wonderful' friends hehe :P
I MISS ALL OF THEM HAHA :D i so didnt say tt~lala~~

oh ya and that mr ang ar
although he doesnt always teach us the right things
but he's still so loved by 30/10 :D
I WONDER WHY HAHAHA
no la. well he very nice to us ma
so 疼 us :D today brought sweets for us
although i felt like a kid but well
THANK YOU VERY MUCH MR ANG :D
everything you do is appreciated :D
juz now jiaying they all was thanking him a lot too
i dun see them thanking ms lai when she brought nacho chips on tues
HAHAHAHAHA
what a big difference HAHA :D
but yea. they are different ma!
we'll so miss him after he go! :(
he make people wan to do sth for him in return sometimes o.O

haiz with the worry that mr ang might read the blog
there are limitations now HAHA :D
i'll write about SOMETHING else next time~...hehe not now. :PPP
ok ENOUGH ABOUT MR ANG HAHAHA

juz now watched tv for a while.
then got another random thought.
they come so randomly hahaha.
well coz i see the people in the show
getting so affected by meaningless stuff
getting angry, upset etc for practically nothing...
so i was thinking...
sometimes...it's really much better
if we can learn to let go of all those....stuff
haha i dunno how to describe la.
有时候，放手了才会快乐。
凡事抓得太紧，凡事过于担心，凡事不懂放手，
我们是很难轻松快乐地生活的。
双手紧握着，就永远抓不到什么。
闭着眼，就永远看不到身边所有的美好。
站在原地不动，就不会发现世界的奇妙。
放开手，张开眼，迈开脚步，
你会发现，
这个世界可以很不同，
你的人生可以很丰富，
这个世界可以很简单，
你的人生可以很轻松，
这个世界可以很美丽，
你的人生可以更快乐。
不要再被生活的琐事困扰，
松开双手，放眼世界吧！
wow not bad random inspiration.
it came up as i wrote.
random randomness.
one more: 放开过去，正视现在，把握未来！
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

oh and IF mr ang is reading,
i would like to ask...
DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? :D:D hehe :P

:( I HATE ECONS

So pek chek!! :(

this morning had scholarship interview
I FORGOT WEAR UNIFORM AND BRING TIE!!
DAMN FORGETFUL CAN!
so i exchanged shirt with fenghua lor :D hehe
thanks a lot to her sia
if not i no need go interview liao :D hahaha

then at the MOE HQ ar
i was freaking out haha
i get nervous really easily as always
me and elaine reached suppperr early
so had to wait for an hr or so
HENCE i sat on the oh-so-comfortable sofa
and fell asleep
elaine told me afterwards that my sleeping posture
was very unglam
those who were waiting for their
teaching scholarship interview kept staring at me
lols -.- zzzzz
wadeva not anyone i know at least hehe :P
mr ang was sort of encouraging me la
he say they are just humans so dun need scared HAHA
yea it worked for a short while...haha
the interview was crap
tough.
haha. stupid random ques haha
"how long have you been waiting outside?"
"erm..about 1 hr"
"wow that's long...what have you been thinking about?"
"er...about questions that might be asked"
"so what do you think we'll ask? name 3?"
"why i chose clep, why i like chinese....er..."
"ok these two questions...im sure u are very prepared for them
so we shan't ask you those two questions."
WTH RIGHT what a dumb start to the interview
shant elaborate the rest.
i said the story a lot of times in sku le
lazy type hehe :P

anyway main point of my post today
juz now in sku ar damn pek chek la
dunno y very bad mood lor...
before maths lesson
i was trying to do econs
but I HATE ECONS!!! zzz
i see the questions i stone
i sianz i irritated i pek chek haha...
damn sianz can
I HATE ECONS!!
it takes away my will to study
takes away all interests
ECONS MAKES ME FEEL DUMB
LIKE REALLY REALLY DUMB! :((
and they keep telling me it's common sense
FINE LA
I DUMB LA NO COMMON SENSE CAN?!??!?
zzzzzzzzz
no one's helping man. gets on my nerves totally.

oh and kailun gets on my nerves sometimes
she ar keep harping on wanting to drop maths
i sense no fighting spirit in her at all lols.
not that it's my problem but i really dun like her attitude
it's not one day lor
it's EVERYDAY.
keep saying wan drop wan drop
very bad la etc. ver also but not tt kua zhang la
ver wont drop coz she say she lousy is anyhow de lor :PPP
yea la juz dun like kailun's attitude
she tt time go join 2 pdps
eclub n leo club
then kept pon both!! wth la?!?!?!
i was quite pissed la
now she got go eclub le
leo club she sort of got go le la
events she got come
general meetings she tt day come halfway then left -.-
anyway got big improvement -.-
but wth la no commitment then dun join 2 la~
nah not my problem.

i last time very anything de
dun care about all these
dunno why recently more and more easily bad mood -.-
haha sianz de lor.

maths lesson still pretty bad mood
only once in a while
got mr ang damn funny HAHA so i laugh with them :P
cher gave back test papers.
then they were at it again
damn wth can zzz
coz they scored badly for the test
but i didnt say anything ok.
usu people dun like those with high scores coz they brag
i kept super quiet as usual.
but they were just damn irritating beside me.
kailun was telling wanshan: ask that 神经病的 lend me her paper
zzzzz
then elaine and wanshan exchange scripts see scores
elaine was saying wht dun let me see etc
wth la.
what's wrong with them la.
im not an alien and i wont laugh at them
i didnt even ask to look at their scores in the first place!!
i wasnt in a gd mood le
and they had to add fuel. -.-

last time ar in sec sku clique
my frens belong to the 自恋 type HAHA
so they wont like tt de.
even if we score better, the others also wonrt like tt de
maybe they will like: walao... etc a bit
but they all okayokay de...
and char always highest anyway hahaha
we learn from our mistakes together.
we borrow char's papers and analyse our mistakes
we learn together.
that's what good frens are for.
zzz
i should stop comparing
i really miss my frens :(( haiz...

recently losing the fighting spirit that i need le.
losing my will and spirit.
for studies. everything. maths sometimes also.
maths ar...i get damn pek chek when i cant solve a ques haha.
but it's 100000000000000000000000000000000000x better than econs
seriously. haiz
i wish i can juz keep doing maths
and score A for JCT and Promos
but i can't neglect the others!!!
tt's the problem. it's sooooo irritaing la!!
haha...

juz now bad mood ma
then i totally got the give-up feeling la
zzz...feel like i can't do it.
juz now maths lesson was over there thinking too much
then suddenly rmbed sth that spurred me a bit :D
well i was reminded that there were ppl
who really believe i can do it -.-
people who really enrouraged me.
i dun like to disappoint ppl
and i definitely do not want to disappoint them.
so i told myself that i have to work harder.
though i damn slack recently
....i must.
i have to.
i should.
i want to.
but dunno whether really will anot la.
my will dies off damn fast all the time.
but this time there are people spurring me on.
so it's revived.
hopefully it won't really die off one day.
then im so dead.
wan work hard....but dunno how la.
feeling so pessimistic about my studies recently...

I SERIOUSLY HATE ECONS!!!! :(
juz now cher went thru data response questions
everyone seems like they are fine
all okay
only me having trouble following
struggling.
zzz damn sianz.
then got data response ques test.
damn it la
I CANT DO!
i did first question then behind all stun le
then anyhow crap
i got a super strong feeling i'll fail it
AGAIN zzz damn upset la
stupid econs!!
when doing last question
i was so tired i was nodding off la hahaha
totally tired and irritated and sianz by econs!!

ECONS SUCKS MY LIFE OUTTA ME :(

mr ang is a very scary person i realise...

so scary -.- mr ang found BOTH blogs!
all i can say is NOTHING BETTER TO DO!! hahaha
haha nah it's not really he damn pro
but erm no one else bothered to try find
coz is damn easy to find since there was my name there.
removed name liao so...hm should be more hidden le.
nice lesson learnt sia :D

but it's so scary for teachers to be reading
whatever i have posted here haha.
whatever doesnt change anything hehe :P
i'll still continue posting anyway~

today got back econs quiz got 1/10 sia
hmm actually i wasn't really upset HAHA
1) it's econs after all.
2) err it's not really graded.
3) er...hm...well...at least now i understand le?

chem last week got back 10/20.
DAMN BAD!
:(
but mr ang say maths did well.
hmm...
so should i be happy or upset? o.o
nah it's not maths tt scored badly
so im still fine.
last timr pri sku ar score 78 for maths
also can cry in class la
other subs i never that bothered haha
tt's maths for me :D

if one day i ever fail maths
i'll go crazy and enter IMH HAHA
nah juz jk. tt's damn exaggerated.
well. there is a chance o.O
haiya for now i'll just TRY
and do well and NOT disappoint all the
wonderful maths teachers who have taught me before
let me see...got who ar...
er...cant rmb all but i noe some great ones...

ms phua!!! :D
mr lam!!!:D
mr lim!!! :D
mr hamdan!!!:D
and the wonderful mr ang la HAHA

yepp so MUST SCORE WELL!!!
for jcts erm at least a B HOPEFULLY
and MIRACLE happen then A in promos.
ehh tt one well i said. MIRACLE HAPPENS.
well. i'll pray hard -.-

but this few days no fighting spirit again...
slack A LOT!!
dunno y la... :((
sianz.
HOW TO MOTIVATE MYSELF!??!?!!?

yay :D

Muahahahaha
andrew really starting to leave me alone
hehe hope this time really ignore me la seriously -.-

Happy birthday to myself haha :D:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!
I TURN 16 TODAY! SWEEET 16 hahah :D:D

I'm very happy :D
I was afraid my facebook would be pretty empty de at first
haha and i didnt know how many ppl would msg me...
but well i was surprised and really happy ((:
this morning quite a few ppl msg me
and i was esp surprised to see MR ANG's MSG!!! LOL
i was like damn shocked can hahahaha
then fb ar also quite a lot.
can tell a lot is saw on fb then wish de
but im still very happy they bothered to hehe :D:D
thanks a lot EVERYONE :D REALLY!! :D

kailun didnt buy cake for me today
but she bought ice cream waffle from good news cafe!
tt's fabulous too hehe my fav...sort of hahah :D:D
and got present from jos char they all too! SO NICE LA
I <3 IT!! :D:D THANKS MY DEAR GOOD FRIENDS :D:D
esp jos who picked it hahaha :D:D
it's a very sweeet and cute nicenice heart shaped necklace!!
last yr i got a heart shaped necklace from kev too hahahaha
and this yr i got another one! haha :D
nice sia :D thanks all of u!! :D:D really!! :D:D
okok birthday stuff shall end here hehe :D:D

hmm well some other stuff...
andrew well...i last post say he left me alone le
but once in a while he will still msg me...
quite frequent actually...
well not VERY la as in not like everyday
not even once every 2-3 days but
seriously AT LEAST once a week
tt's far from leaving me alone lor
and main thing ar is he always call me dear
which is super irritating
i made it damn clear to him that IM NOT HIS DEAR liao can
he juz cant leave me alone -.-

then that day ar he ask me what time i dismiss from sku etc
then i very irritated la so didnt rly bother
ask him why he say worried ma -.-
YA RIGHT -.-
in the end i didnt tell him la
but he msged me again pretty late so i juz say im already home lor
which is true la.
now ar i learnt to ignore some of his msges le lols
dun wan reply then dun reply him lor
i dun care...
he's like so super irritating can!!!! tsk!
haiya i cant be bothered with him liao la -.-

what else what else?
hmm well i always have random tots de la..
juz now...i suddenly tot of...
i really don't deserve gd people lor
how can i grumble that i dun have many of them arnd?
actually there are so many...it's just that
i never learnt to appreciate :(
no la actually my random tot was specifically targeted
at kev and wp hahaha
but ya from that i related to all my friends la hehe

well i was thinking...
i didn't appreciate nor treasure either of them...
i took them for granted lor seriously.
they were truly very nice to me la
but i don't deserve them...i really don't (:
when i look back ar...it's a really complicated feeling
difficult to describe properly...
well.
it feels...nice.
those times...with them. their care and love ((:
they were excellent. really. they picked the wrong person to like la.
why me? they would be much better if it wasn't me.
like how kev is with his new gf now.
he's totally feeling blissful now unlike last time.
well im sure he had a great time too but
it's NOTHING compared to now.
really.
u can see it through his fb, his moods and EVERYTHING
"I'm feeling so blessed with Lydia now." emanates from
EVERYTHING he does/say/type.
haha...that's really great. i congrats him :D
im glad we both moved on (:
glad that he's found a girl he truly likes
and knows to treasure him like him back and appreciate him...
don't be like me.
NO ONE should be like me. lols...
i feel like a monster la going arnd hurting ppl :(

wp case ar...well
i guess he's fine now? so yea glad he moved on too.
it was a really nice time with him too
though it was REALLY short lols...
he was DAMN nice too...like kev.
they were both great...
wp is special coz he's the first person i met in real life
to tell me he likes me :X
but well he's picked the wrong person too...
:( we both made the wrong move...
so basically the feeling when i look back ar
is really complicated.
it was a nice time but the ending and unhappy times are there too...
everything mixed tgt...how SHOULD i be feeling??
i'm not sure...
but i think it doesn't matter anymore.

I will keep away from ALL bgr till i truly mature le...
seriously.
i can de lor. OF COZ -.- haha
life isnt all about that ma...
though it's a wonderful incentive...sometimes hehe
anyway wan find someone else who likes me also not easy la
plus i dun wanna find
so i should be able to keep away
and not hurt anyone else for once....
and conc on my studies...((:

well...studying isn't easy :(
ESP ECONS
i hate econs la seriously... sianz...
only like do maths only want do maths
haha esp coz mr ang keep spur me on haha
but maths isn't easy either...
so i have to prac maths but i cant spend all time on maths
HOW SIA -.- hahaha

anyway mr ang is really nice LOL
very friendly and everything la
i think he's really....quite diff from other teachers
as in his mindset and stuff
he say he got diff life experiences from other chers o.O
well he will tell us before he leave us on 7 May...
6 May actually since we no lessons on 7 May...
damn sad can he going leave...
we all forged ties with him liao la!! haha
and he's considered quite a good teacher leh
other than his chattiness and friendliness haha.
a great teacher.
whichever class which gets him after he comes back is so lucky :(
but dun think will be us le :( so sad...
but we cant do anything for him or give him anything
before he leaves!! damn sad :(

he very nice leh!!
he was telling me he's my invisible hand hahaha
and he actually wished me happy birthday this morning!
hahaha :D
haiya he's...just very diff from other chers o.O
well, it's 30/10's good luck to get him as our maths teacher
although it's for quite a short period of time only...
at least we know there is such a special and good cher in TJ (:

OH something to update on.

Hmm i realised i stopped at andrew thing last time wor.
so something to add.
he is a jerk la. idiot LOL
i dun feel bad calling him tt...usually i do.
but for him, no.

he tt time ask me to be his dear.
i dun wan. i know he not serious de.
then few days later he got himself a gf le.
confirmed my belief hahaha

after tt they broke up
then he come bother me again.
then quite some time we nvr really talk la

then after tt he bother me again
sure is cannot find someone else dumb enough de la
i was very dumb to fall into his trap...ALMOST hahaha
so reject him reject him reject him
then he was like
last time wan him is me now dun wan him also me
i was like wth la
i nvr say i wan u before ok -.-
whatever he just keep bother me
and i just keep rejecting him
it was getting irritating haha
then after tt think he got my point
so he went find new target? haha
i mean he nvr bother me le la
so should be go find new target le la.
poor girl whoever the next one is -.-

weipeng is 100000000X better than him.
i don't deserve him though lols.
he may not be in the best school
he may not be from the best family
he may not be the richest
but he has the best heart.
ok tt's exaggerated but u get what i mean -.-
compared to andrew he's a saint.
ok wait andrew doesnt deserve to be compared with him.
hahahahaha im totally praising weipeng like crazy LOL
aiya...dunno la. i still feel so bad :(
i did the wrong thing. i know i did.
i wont do tt again. really. i wont.
i wont get myself a bf again.
UNTIL i really learn how it should really be.
how it should really feel.
until im mature enough.
until i understand my own feelings
until i wont hurt others.
until i deserve someone's love
until i know how to love n care for someone.
until i grow up........

wow 7 mths :D

It's been so long since I posted here
I forgot about this blog actually hahaha :p
but anyway im totally talking to myself so whatever :P heez
haiya...hmm y m i here again o.O

nothing much la just realised that
i never posted anything since i started work at bossini last dec
nth posted anything about weipeng either...

tt time i did feel a little bit for him AT FIRST
but well im young n dumb la
that feeling annot be trusted at all :X
it passed as quickly and suddenly as it came...
life sucks eh?
coz when i was having fun with him around
i don't think i did actually felt for him THAT way...
im not sure since it was 3 mths ago o.O
and well my feelings cannot be trusted la.
i had thought i might like him de.
but at least i knew that it wasn't a strong feeling...

but then when i saw on his fb that he thinks he's in love...
i asked of coz.
i didnt actually think that it was me la
i mean...i actually thought it was impossible haha
i mean...seriously...who would like me lor.
till now, those who actually really said they like me ar
is all online de ar
real life know de...didnt have any de...
till him la.
he told me he like me o.O
well i was asking joyce about it
whether he was joking etc la
then joyce ask me say i like him too (coz he asked)
in case he joking then i can say me too
haha but then he was serious...
so basically it was 'accepted' that i like him too
but...it really wasn't that strong a feeling..
he...really did like me that way i think lols
feels weird to think about it that way coz
no one actually does...

i was really happy though...
then for the next few days it was a bit ps la hehe
but i left bossini soooon after
on the second last day of work
he off day ma i morning to 4.30pm.
so...he come fetch me :P
well he take mrt with me to tampines lor
haha...im not gd with words la
dunno how to chat well
but he's ok with it
as in he can chat la hahhaha
so he talked quite a bit lor
i joined in here n there
talked talked lor till tampines
quite an achievement for me hahahaha
coz well, me alone with a guy on a mrt ride
approximately 22 mins leh.
haha quite an achievement

summore ar after tt he go t1 and tm with me
nvr shop la just walk through
i wanted go t1 find joan in bossinistyle but she lunchtime
so we left then tm just walked through
haha he say he second time there only sia! amazing -.-
hahahaha anyway we casual talk a bit also haha :D
not bad leh nvr really silent silent de

after tt he walk me to interchange where i wait for bus.
then we talk talk lor
i asked him about his sec sku stuff and his family a bit.
yepp he was nice enough la told me a lot stuff :D
it's...comfortable around him. seriously.
it was nice lor. but i dunno la...tt time didnt think so much.

then after tt i went home.
we sms ma then soon after on that day we...tgt le la hahaha
it was 1-23 (Jan 23) haha :D
haiya...then next day is my last day at bossini le...
we nvr talk at work de hehe ps la XP
he so big guy etc ar so shy de sia -.- hahahaha
seriously lor. tt's totally unexpected
but he so shy la hahahaha sometimes only la though o.O
tt day after work
all of us staff went for dinner
since we last day of work ma
then eat le they play truth or dare sia wth -.- hahaha
then tio me first. totally on purpose can hahaha
but i wasnt able to answer much la hehe
i chose truth
they ask us we tgt how long le.
i ask pris help me.
she say 1 day
then they were like it's after 12am so should be 2 days
since i say wrong so need punishment -.-
hahaha wth can so on purpose
aiya then they make us hold hands la.
that weipeng ar so irritating can
GUY LEH SHY WHAT LA
he so dun dare how am i supposed to dare -.-
then we touched hands for like 1 sec only la anyway hahaahaha
wadeva then after tt continue play
reach him he choose truth
they ask him why he like me
he say everything wor :P:P
hehe quite sweet la but hai hao la
i wasnt specially happy or sth leh...
i really didnt feel much for him eh?
i dunno why also or im just unfeeling...hmm it's possible.
haha then anyway mattheus say he like pris!!
and sth extra. matt totally woo pris after tt lor LOL
then they tgt soon after and till now and still counting :D
so sweet can so envy them la :D
but pris pretty dominating in the rlship hehe XP

anyway!
after they tgt ar
four of us went out tgt
it was the first friday since start of sku. ((:
we went tm walkwalk
then ERHEM hahaha
we held hands la
and they also la
they totally sweeeeettt de lor
hahahaha stick tgt like tt de
matt keep say sweetnothings to her like tt
i dun wan tt anyway just...it was a bit...hahahaha nvm.
anyway we walkwalk lor mostly in toysrus.
pris damn cute la childish can hahahaha
had quite a bit of fun playing around in there
very dumb de la. xP
oh ya. i think weipeng too tall la
i hold his hand ar hand cannot hold straight lor. xP
so stand a bit more apart or swing swing a bit
if not quite weird haha xP

then hmm went home. he sit bus with me (:
but i didnt let him walk me to my block la
the bus go back interchange directly
so ask him dun get down just sit back la

after tt ar we wanted go out again de...
but then no time :X
he work i school ma so ya lor...
not like pris and matt
almost everyday meet de
then they damn sweet de
hug la carry la kiss la hahaha :D

anyway me n weipeng just everyday sms lor
then not even 1 month tgt only leh
then my mum found out.
coz we dinner that time got take pic
then got me with him his hand on my shoulder la :P
so yea fb ma my status is rlship with him
then last time i mentioned him to my mum b4
say he from ite and broken family
so my mum lectured me quite a bit la
then ask me break if can say break early better etc la

i...was already thinking of tt...
coz as i said.
the feeling wasnt strong ma..
i scared hurt him more if drag longer.
so broke la.
but i think i stil hurt him...but he didnt show though
so im not sure.
i really sincerely hope that i didnt hurt him...
after all it's barely a month...
:( i really dun wanna hurt him de.
i did treasure our time working together
it was really fun and wonderful!
our short time tgt was great too...
he was really nice to me...
tt's was y i broke too i guess
coz he very nice make me pretty guilty?
dunno la anyway i felt reallyreally bad
still feel bad...

i really appreciate him a lot.
it was GREAT fun :D
i miss the times...
the times working together especially.
fun leh haha ((:
it's been long since i can have fun
chatting and arguing with a guy hehe
usually few actually acknowledge me?
dunno la coz at work ma so yea
summore he sorta junior coz he join later than me ma
so yea teach him a bit lor
and i was one of the first few to make frens with him de :D
anyway it was a great time...really...
i want to be his colleague again
be his friend again. it's very comfortable around him de
but i guess he's still just a friend to me?

sometimes i really feel like telling him
im sooo sorry
i didnt mean to hurt him if i did.
even though i don't have romantic feelings for him
but i really appreciate him de.
i really want him back in my life...
as a gd fren though ((:

well we still frens la but..
it's different le ma lols..
we seldom sms le. sms also shortshort
dunno say what o.O
only saw him twice like tt since then
well he did say hi and smiled la
me too haha
but tt's all ((:
i was with weijie so they started chatting
then we left. haiya...
dunno la :X
i just want to tell him thanks for liking me
thanks for being there for that 1 month
thanks thanks thanks and sorry sorry sorry.
i really owe him a lot.
i feel like i hadn't done anything for him wor.
hmm is not feel. is a fact.
tt time his wallet lost ar
i wanted to buy 1 for him
but too cheap like no gd wor
but i no money...
after tt wan buy ar also too late le
coz break le...
was thinking if i should still get 1 for him
but like very weird o.O

after quite long i saw his fb say he wan conc on bball
just bball alone. nth else...
bball is his life la seriously haha ((:
i dunno whether to be happy or sad to see that sia lols
he totally went dead in msn n fb de at first
fb nth happening everyday
msn nvr see him online
till tt post...
lols. he's fine already i guess. i hope.
but...
but..
but...
there was a period when i really missed him a lot.
coz he was totally there at that time lols.
i didnt really like to be without him again.
but...i knew i only wanted him as a friend.
getting tt status back is not as easy...
we wont be as comfortable anymore right?
T.T
i so regret what i did leh..
if i hadnt said i liked him.
if i hadnt agreed to be tgt.
maybe we still can be gd frens...
he wouldnt be hurt if he is.
none of these would have happened...

he is entering army soon...
he leaving bossini and going find another job
say bossini boring without us o.O haha
yea then after tt go army le wor...
long time wont see him haha

my birthday coming
going dinner with pris joyce matt
but dunno wan ask weipeng anot...
i did ask weijie but he like dunno wan come anot la -.- sianz
he say schedule not out
but he wont go ask got leave or sth de lor zzz
weipeng...he will if he wants to but would he?
and i dunno if it will be weird if ask him go leh
dunno he wan anot anyway la.
haiyo
SHOULD I ASK HIM??? :(