Audi

I like playing Audi
Always did
Since years ago
But I hate losing
Rly
So it's rly irritating to play with my cousin
Zp la
He ar -.-
Not that he pro keep winning eh
Its just it's competitive
Like both rly wan win lols haha
Just that I'm the sore loser-.-
I rly siao liao
Play also can play until pek chek -.-
Zzz
Just now play until feel like smashing the keyboard
Hahahhha sot
Coz it's rly irritating to keep miss miss miss
Damn zzzz de leh!!
Hand not listening to instructions haha
Irritating.
Then he playing very well
Over there chaining perfects zzz
And I pek chek over missing ah
He still over there harping on not getting his high score -.-
Pretty irritating
Told him to shut up lols
That's rare I seldom do that to him
We are rather close cousins
But he's rly irritating sometimes -.-
Felt like telling him to watch his mouth sometimes
Very insensitive person...sometimes.
Well he dc-ed so while waiting I come post haha
But he doesn't look like he's coming back o.O
Oh he's bk

secret! :X

these few days busy with pw
havent been posting much.
lazy le also
tt mr ang already stopped posting
on his blog
for quite long liao haha
no fun de nth to see le hahahaha

anyway i was thinking
i haven't been keeping anything from
readers of this blog, have i?
everything also post.
gd also post bad also post.
everything post.
haven't been a problem
here de ppl trustworthy
i hope. hahaha :P

but there is always things
that we cant tell everyone right...
only shuting know currently.
haha.
something...erm...nice??
ok maybe not nice.
it's really super damn irritating sometimes
seldom rly nice
but it's usu fine.
dun rly know what to do.
it's not exactly the first time it has happened.
few times le actually.
but diff.
this time, my attitude is diff.
i grow up le ok
i dun anyhow le hahahaha
now i think before i act...
but this makes things complicated.................

lazy

wanted to post about just now de
but aiya suan le la
haiz.

anyway my phone rly gonna spoil le lor
com also!!!
cham sia haha
need quick buy lappy liao
phone need use at least half a yr more...

tip thing
i ws inspired by the lady to stay on
but then
after seeing my allocation....
CLEMENTI
NO PAY
9-5
MUST WEAR RED
NEED INTEREST IN ART/MUSIC
etcetc
then sianz liao.

come home
tell mum
nvr say whr
just say very far
then she ask me dun go
i also considering.
after some tot.
i was already thinking of withdrawing anyway
haha so....well.
im withdrawing then.
shall NOT think abt gd things involved haha

leave me alone!!!

I REALLY FEEL LIKE
STOP BEING NICE
AND JUST SHOUT AT THOSE TWO
TO LEAVE ME ALONE MAN~~~~~~~~
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
SUPER IRRITATING EHHHH
haiyo.
my bad la
shouldnt have been nice in the first place
then wont lead them on
now i also dunno what to do liao
zzzzzzzzzzzz

:((((

Today woke up at 8
left at 9.30
met friends
shall skip the details. secret. haha.

then 12+ supposed to meet shuting
tt idiot pig late for 1 whole hour
and 30 mins dun pick up phone )#(%(@*&%(*@#*%
i was worried lor
i scared she dunno what happened
coz phone dun pick up
and so long nvr appear
lucky she finally pick up
say reach le
in the end took another 10 mins to reach lols
then dun let me eat lunch
ask me go buy stuff with her first
my stomach already growled for 1 hr lor haha
nvm i very nice de haha
so went buy her pw stuff some art stuff
i took my revenge happily
suaned her like crazy the whollle time LOL
all the way till we parted today LOL
it was fun((:

come home
was late so mum angry
naggednagged. only 6pm lor for goodness sake.
whatever man just ignored her
spoil my day immediately AS USUAL
whatever.
after tt it was better le so dun care.

then after dinner
do wr.
DAMN SHIT WTH
IM FUMING MAD MAN
WTH LA THEY ALL
THEY HAVE MORE TIME AND LESS WORK THAN ME LEH
MUST THEY DO THIS TO ME????
OUT TO KILL ME LOR SERIOUSLY
THIS KIND OF WORK
tt day zhekang and sherm wasnt arnd
to listen to ms ong say about wr stuff
so FINE. though i did write stuff down for them le.
whatever
just now i used shuting laptop see sherm's part
just browsed thru la
then saw one part she should change but didnt.
damn zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
but she always like tt so i not so big reaction.
just now open zk de chapter 1.
nothing much to change in the first place
so nothing wrong. fine. ok
i was still happily doing.
then chapter 2.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
she highlight parts she changed and stuff
then she highlighted parts that NEED substantiation
BUT has NO substantiation
so she highlight is to tell me i need find for tt is it????
what the crap
EVERYTIME EVERY SINGLE TIME
they give me wr ar
also like tt de.
i ALWAYS have to find evidence for them
the footnotes got damn alot
more than half i find de lor-.-
yea they agreed and they know
tt's about it they aren't improving.
susan not tt efficient member usu also
she always dun give me evi de
always her part that needs evi also la.
so i was just slightly irritated.
sherm volunteered to help
when i put on my display name ask them
stop giving me THEIR work lols
thanks. but she wasnt able to give me usable ones.
susan was there to listen to ms ong tt day leh!!!
ms ong got mention structure dunno how many times lor
then she got say one part need shift in front etc
BUT SUSAN DIDNT LOR ZZZZZZZZZZZZ
leave for me do again. zzzzzzzzzzzz

anyway i was thinking
they all give me problems sia
zhenyan de wont ba?
she best member liao
take initiative and everything de
so i didnt rly think will
summore she also listened attentively that day
and she got actual copy of comments summore
she usu will see everything de
IN THE END LEH
ZZZZZZZZZZZz
EVEN ZHENYAN
EVEN MY BEST MEMBER MISSED OUT STUFF FOR ME TO DO :(
but it's not that big thing la actually.
it's just that
it felt damn horrible leh
they all like tt
i havent seen zk de chapter 5
but i dun wanna see le la :(
so upset lor

so i went complain to shuting
with a lot of )(*%(*@%(^@(#$(#*& hahahaha
then we were planning to assassinate our pw members
coz she also grp leader hahahaha poor thing de lor :P
anyway i was just damn irritated.
then mr ang was telling me he went udders again LOL
LIFE UNFAIR SIA!! LOL
then he say after reservist
will treat me n veron to udders!
i saw le i burst into tears sia -.-
me sot le.
no la coz i was very irritated and upset at tt time
then suddenly felt very touched lols.
thank you cher haha (;
mr ang best cher ever hahahaha :D:D:D
anyway i shall calm down and continue on the stupid wr.
im so gonna crap it thru and get pw over and done with.
don't YOU dare come haunt me again
AND PLEASE. come on i want my A.....................
it's such a waste if i dun get an A.................
if i can actually predict i wont get an A
i would just stop doing man..............zzzzzzzzzz

H3

Ahhhh can't decide btw nus n ntu modules!!!!

Complicated ar...

Today started out with me being late to meet with jos haha
But lucky nvr late for sku
And it was raining so heavily lor haha
Anyway nth impt

Maths lecture
It felt rlyrly gd to see my name up there
Other than the fact tt it was on the last page and it was the third last name
Haha well better than nth.
And ms ang say she proud of me wor
I was rly happy to hear tt^^
Mr ang say he was too
Though he expected me to do much better
Say I hvent put in enough effort
Which is true of cozzzzz
Well.
I know.
And as usual I'm easily affected haha
So after sku I tot about it
And decided I shall do maths tonight haha
I have decide to do at least a bit of work everyday
I dunno how much I'll do
But I hope I won't go a day doing zero work
If free then do more lo...
Hope it helps

Just now in sku
Collected cll notes for the rest etc la
Then after tt
Zhenyan take the box hit my head
Definitely got sound what
BUT IT DIDN'T SOUND HOLLOW LOR hahahha
Anyway she say it's empty &(@$:$@@;$/
Hahhahahahha damn funny
So I tried to hit her back
And I succeeded
I say hers produced same sound
She say hers is got material de ok
Insist mine empty LOL hahaa
Then afterwards I told her
I will win her in mct
See who head empty hmph
LOL I was just playing arnd
But it was a nice tot
I will win her(:
I say this time is nvr study lor
She say she also haha
Whatever!! Dun care!!! I can do it!!!

I got drop form and h3 appeal form today
Filled it in and handed in to mr ng liao le
Tmr he will pass to my tutors
I scared they dun approve of my h3 ehhh
:( they say at least 13 grade pts needed
I 12 only ehh
And grades dun meet criteria either
How:(
Zhenyan can leh
Ver say she can meet the 13 pts thing also wor
So gd:(

Char also wan take h3
Think she applying for maths too
We were disussing see nus or ntu de better
I'm not sure either
But I tot ntu won't disrupt lessons
So I tell her go for ntu wor
dunno leh

OH SHIT I FORGOT STATE MY CHOICE ON THE PAPER
LOL SO DUMBBBBB HOW SIAAAA
Zzz Tmr shall do sth about it...

Anyway after tt sth happened
It's quite...lols
Aiya I believe it won't last so Im not very affected
But for now it's a bit weird
Its rly weird
But aiya not rly a bad thing
I promised myself to stay away de
So well I'm fine with it
I haven't swayed yet haha
All the best heez


AHH I'M WORRIED ABOUT MY H3 FORM!!
Oh and I'm dropping chem completely wor...
Hope it's not the wrong decision...

haizzzzzzzz

supposed to be quite a gd day
why i end up crying again?
so no surprise de
i very irritated at myself sia
everything also cry
so useless
very dumb eh
cry what cry la
everything also cry
water very precious de leh.........
zzzzzzzzzzz

but seriously............zzzzzz
so tired.
i feel damn tired.
when i was studying in sku
i was happy
i willingly studied
happily
rly studied.
did my notes
although slow
but i did it
and i did it willingly
everything was great
i seldom studied so relaxed.
it was great.
it helps being relaxed and happy
i realise tt's what keeps me going.
the only way to study is being stress-free.
really.

coz just now my mum come ask me those
then she saw me watch show
come complain again
i rly felt so upset.
so tired.
mentally.
so i paused the show.
called her name slowly
turned to her
and said in an exasperated/tired tone
tell her.
u know, i studied for 3+ hours just now eh
and it's just after exams eh
MUST U DO THIS TO ME???

i scared i lose the mood to study eh
tt MUST NOT happen
but i scared......
coz she's giving me stress again
i very scared.
argh :(
:'(
i hate the feeling.
stress.
rly.
it's rly killing me sometimes.
and she didnt even have to say much

to me
the only way i can study well
is when I myself WANT to study
whenever they start pushing me
start pressing
and scolding me
i cant do it anymore
it's always like tt
since young.
but they just nvr get it........
:'(

rly feel like telling them
不要这样，不要再管我的学业，
我宁愿自己读，自己逼自己，
我还有朋友的帮助，
你们逼我只会让我更读不下去，很累。
这会弄巧反拙而已。。。够了。。。

no break

haiz.
before exam
i told my mum
that after exam
i will still be quite busy
thx to pw.

but these few days quite slack
i come home keep watch show lols
then just now
she ask why nth do de
keep watch show
no work meh
i tot u say u very busy?
so i ask her
u wan me keep do work dun rest at all isit
then she nvr say anything
she wasnt harsh la
but i was rly tired
i was supposed to go bathe
but i was rly tired
so just sit on the sofa and relax lols
i do work lor.
i studied in sku le lor...
i got study de lor
at home cant study de
might as well dun waste my time.
and i also wan some break la...
tired leh.
i am so not satisfied with my results either...
then she came in a while ago again
ask me
whether one A can go uni
i say dunno
she say go ask cher
i totally dunno what to say
so she expect me to get this for As
great
thanks
tt totally helps
tts sooooo nice of her
so encouraging
wow.
great.

my decision

well i wanted to post
another HOWHOWHOW post haha
coz i dunno wan drop chem to h1 or completely
but then i guess i have come to my decision.
i tot for a while.
and i talked to mrs low just now too.
after the chers' meeting
it was funny coz i walk past the doors
to lt3 or lt4
then all the chers swarm out haha
quite scary

anyway talked to her
she said the usual stuff la actually
she say content is really pretty heavy
she expected me to do much better than what i did this time
coz jct wasnt tt bad
but then. well. lols
she say i, like many others, lack practice
yepp i agree
i practically didnt study
wellwell.
she say if i can push myself to work hard
i can do it de
she say if i have the time and willing to push
then h1 is fine.
she's fine with me taking h1.
but if not and anyway no use to future course
then forget it. just drop.

well i wanna conc on other subs. rly.
actually i would gladly drop econs instead
but then it's more possible to come into use
so yea shall keep econs
and i will throw chem away.
im not sure of my decision yet actually
but more or less la.
i scared i sway still
but i know once i rly decide
i wont regret coz it's my decision in the end
i dun like regret
but before tt
i need to confirm my decision.

anyway tt's it.
bye chem. tt's my decision for now.
hope it doesnt change.
before it change i should quickly go get drop form LOL

I AM GOING TO APPEAL FOR H3 MATHS
SERIOUSLY
i dun care la.
without chem my grades are ADD/D lols
char AAAB/C wor
see she so pro haha
not bad leh she econs still B lols.
im in char's portal acc HAHAHAHA
hack her acc
coz i know her ic hahahaha
damn pro lehhhhhh
her physics is 98%!!!!
WA econs 94%!!!!
maths 92% i 95% :D:D:D
but all damn gd ehh haha tsktsk..
think she wan h3 too
either maths or chem i think
o.O
i told her take maths with me hahaha :D
then can everything ask her help hehe
and it would be nice to go lesson with her agn.
its been so long(:

OH YA
TODAY DAMNNNNN
i dunno is funny or scary la
at first it was funny
i laughed like crazy at them
but then it got so scary
i was freaking out LOL
sudden change.
well from the beginning...

pw op lesson
wanshan group present
today is MS ANG observe again! :D
i wrote comments for them again haha
before tt i was damn tired
oh waitwait rewind.

before tt was chem lecture.
i wanted to pon and stay in library study
or read my cll book
in the end they scare me say
scully mr tong come etc
nobody stay with me
in the end i went lecture too
slept for 75% of the lecture as usual.
i can never stay awake for a chem lecture seriously.
ok. once i did. actually did. lols
yea lor so i slept
then go pw lesson
still damn tired coz i just woke up LOL

yea so super tired.
so i ask ying en if still need write comments
she see i very tired
she say its ok tired then nvm
so i a bit softhearted liao LOL
was considering.
then kailun come say MUST WRITE MUST WRITE
i was like WTH???
so bu ke qi de tsk
i doing a favour here ok! haha
but thinking of the other 3 nice ppl
i still wrote for them ^^
i like being nice
although zhenyan keep suaning me
say be nice to them no use de
they wont appreciate
be nice to them still get bullied de
whats the pt etc
lols i tell her
be nice to others not to get anything back
it's called being NICE
it doesnt necessarily have to be seen as a favour
lols ((:

anyway.
after their presentation.
half the class gone
susan suddenly made a suggestion to us
she say wan bring our actual comic
and show to examiners for our op
zhenyan say no pt
she say no use
etc
then they started arguing
just light argument nth much
i tried to think
see which side i agree with
but i ok with both haha
so i shut up
listen to their argument
see who can convince me haha

then it got slightly heated
so i tell zhekang they fighting
i was laughing already LOL
coz actually not very tense la
just argument it's pretty comical
they werent actually fighting
it was loud and fast but light atmosphere relatively
then ms ang left the class halfway thru.
she didnt realise anything i guess haha
then become zhekang and zhenyan argue
i was still laughing quite badly
but then i saw shermaine using her laptop
with earphones and all lols wth
how can she 置身事外?? it's her grp members quarreling here.
so i shouted at her tell her they arguing
ask her make her stand etc
she seesee a while
say aiya just let them argue la
then went back do her thing -.-
ahhh ignore her la
i continued laughing at them LOL
after tt zhenyan tell me she wasnt angry de la
just playing arnd also
trying to get her pt thru at the same time
haha
yea still pretty light n funny atmosphere
slightly tense

then it got more and more heated
but still ok.
i was getting a little worried.
and everyone was staring at them
asking them cool down
they shouting over kim's head LOL
damn funny kim looked scared HAHA
then things got bad
when susan suddenly came over and joined in
she was damn agitated la
zzzzzzzzzzz
super agitated lor her.
practically shouting
so zhenyan got mad too
then well zhenyan got so angry she just took her stuff and left
she said they wasnt listening to her pt
and she dont agree with their pt either
then she left
nvr wait for me even :( haha
anyway by then i was freaked out
our group always had tt tension
but first time break out de.
i was scared lols.
anyway i went find zhenyan
and i heard miranda say "our group is kailun and wanshan.
they fight de lor" LOL
damn funny. i know about tt hahahahaha.
those two are practically enemies now.
LOL wanshan usu very nice
but when come to kailun
she rly can be sooo sarcastic i was shocked HAHA
but nice one man :D hahahaha

anyway i found zhenyan
we discussed
i think me n zhenyan much closer by now
and i think im a pro at dealing with her anger liao LOL
appeased her easily.
tt time zhekang made her angry
during pw meeting ma
i noe how de la
so i just continue discuss with zhenyan
she still looked a bit pissed but she will answer and help
tt insensitive zhekang still tell me
sth like later then do. she cannot do work with angry ppl
then ask zhenyan appease or sth
i was like LOL leave it to me man hahahahaha
no la i didnt say tt i tot that. hahahaha
anyway i just continued
and things were fine haha
zhenyan's an amazing person.
an all-work person.
she very serious about work de.
so its easy.
if ur serious she will be
and she will be fine ^^
she's a nice person. really haha

then after sku
i studied with her.
ytd too.
today did a lot
coz dismiss early ma
oh ya wanshan told us civics is at 1.20pm sia
so we tot still damn long time
so went library study
in the end
12.58 she call me
say civics is at 1250
she say wrongly LOL
then we chiong there hahahaha
but nth much
i just saw them all arnd mr ng's com
looking at grades
coz morning when i see
gp not out
but by then all out
mr ng say all promote worrrr
but shermaine say she maybe wan drop out lols.
i tot of sth horrible lols
i tot "then why come and join our pw in the first place"
LOL damn mean
but well not like she did totally nth
without her we will hve slightly more work after all
i should scold myself for tt tot hahahaha
whatever la.

so we ended at 1.18
and went library study cll
till 3+ i meet mrs low
then study again
till 4.50+
then left
but i damn slow
zhenyan completed one poem
i not even halfway thru my 古文
hahahaha but i feel accomplished
coz i didnt feel sianz at all doing cll just now
i was tired and i slept a bit in btw
20-30 mins i think
zhenyan did too. before me haha
but we rly did work(:
it was nice :D
sku library rly gd for studying
but then hols come bk so troublesome
i rly gotta find somewhr else tt's rly conducive............
anu suggestions?
shuting tt time de place would be gd............
but then dunno can go anot..........

should i? should i not?

should i withdraw from tip?
i need study eh...............zzz
i dunno leh howhowhow
SHOULD I WITHDRAW?
if u were me, would u?
with these results,
would u go on an internship for one whole mth?
well can learn things there la
but 1 mth eh..
can use to study eh.........

anyway im so happy with gp :D:D:D:D:D
i tot i off topic
i tot its ruined. screwed.
but well i didnt do extremely well
but it's gd enough :D:D:D

appreciation

first sth beside the topic

HOWHOWHOWHOWHOW
i never know how to say no lols
a bit too late leh how ar
but then actually i think ok de leh
but my friends say better not leh -.-
aiyo how sia hahahaha
suan le la i think....................
SHOULD BE OK RIGHT??!?!?! argh.
nvm. crapcrap. haha
ANYWAY TOPIC!

today pe damn suck!!!
ran to east coast and back
maybe coz too long nvr run le
maybe coz breakfast
i couldnt run
ran with carol there
walked almost half the way
reach there almost died
a bit nauseous
coming back
i 90% walk lols.
couldnt take it la
almost vomited eh
walkwalk still ok
when stop at traffic light
felt super nauseous
reached sku left a bit chiong back lor
walked to the bags there sat down
when getting up to leave
nauseous again
ugh damn ugh haha
stupid pe!!
stupid ecp!
felt so uncomfortable just now
still need change into uni eh! tsk.

gp ar i realised the ques i wrote
I WAS THE ONLY ONE IN CLASS WHO WROTE
lols i already regretted anyway
coz its quite tough
i think i off topic le tskk zzz

anyway my post title today
APPRECIATION!
today pw op
wanshan group and veron group.
i wrote comments for them while i listened
questioned a lot stuff
picked up stuff
commented quite a lot.
wrote down on paper ma
after wanshan they all finished
i passed to them
they looked so touched wow.
i just...wanted to do lols.
scared bored or sth ba or just suddenly feeling nice hahahaha
didnt think they would be so happy haha
i passed to wanshan she see le
give ying en
ying en call me and say thank you looking rly surprised eh!
LOL i was so touched by their act of appreciation.
i appreciate their appreciation haha.
veron's grp
i passed to jiaying
she look at it then looked 'WOW' too hahahaha
then she asked who write de
i say me
and she said tahnk you sincerely too! wow....
i was surprised.
i nvr tot it was tt big deal at all...
i was so happy hahahahaha
it really feels great to be appreciated.
though i nvr meant for it lols((:
glad they liked it. glad they found it useful
i still scared they feel offended or sth lols :P

cham

die la results so bad :(((

Haiz

Zhenyan angry again:(
She this few days also very bad mood
Easily angry
Esp coz of PW...
She's very intolerant of Shermaine already lols
Haiz what to do
But...
She angry ar like scolding me as well eh
:(

moody

I'm like already in a damn bad mood today
and my dad has to add fuel to it
wts.
today a lot of near-crying
and veryshort crying lols.
no real crying la
mostly just teary
pms la haha

maths was gd i guess
kailun didnt say anything surprisingly
i was worried coz she was sitting behind me
but luckily nth :D
zhenyan did well too((:

cll sucks
seriously.
i tot i can do ok for tt de leh
so damn disappointing
really.
result of not studying.
44/100. nice.
and so many 60+ and 70+ around
im worried even more moderation
can i pass???
i was relying on this to pass!
shit la.
hopefully plus jct de can pass la
since pretty close to passing.
h3 probably no hope.
but i'll still try.
no harm trying ma.

anyway was in a bad mood today in sku
got quite pissed a few times
coz we went library as a class during gp
cher say gp post mortem all go borrow books
there got 3 classes sia
so crowded haha
anyway we took books le
then go queue to borrow
so long queue lor
then veron behind me ma
she say she got lesson after lunch
we break ma
so i say let her go first la since we longer time
but then she going lunch with us anyway
then i say suan le lor
going tgt anyway
then she say i 假好心
wth ok lor whatever lor
then i just shut up lor
she know i not happy la
then keep pushing me from behind -.-
wan 撒娇 ar???
haha but i smiled la hehe
irritating ver haha
haiya
反正就是today keep mood swings la
a bit also unhappy
then next sec ok le -.-
pms sia LOL

i was upset about cll for a pretty long time
but anyway ms ang say i can still try
she will fill in anything she can
so yea try lor.

pw elaine group do op
mr ng watch
he damn critical
so scary
but actually its gd
with criticism comes improvement
but he last teacher to see ours leh
zzz we wont be able to change much le
by the time he see ours
hope its gd by then...........
but elaine grp so poor thing just now
he say their project like no project
only got pilot test wor lols
quite cham.
but true lor. a lot of grp also leh...

just now come home
i was still moody haha
then i forgot what happened also
just not very happy la then go into toilet
close door
cried a bit
just a liiiittlle bit
outburst. twice.
sot le me.
cut wrong wire -.-

oh ya before tt
i sit at my desk play monopoly on my ipod again.
play game leh also got teary once LOL
coz when ur in bad mood
nth goes smoothly
everything appears horrible
so i was losing what
then i scolded myself say why ppl can i cannot.
then i got upset
coz i tot about maths and cll and everything
i was thinking
why ppl could get 90+ for maths i couldnt
why ppl can get 60+ 70+ for cll i couldnt
and i got teary.
zzzz then i scold myself for being dumb
think of that for what dumb use -.-
i just have to work harder......really........
really really harder.................. :'(

then just now
~10 mins ago
our house phone line sot again
it's always like tt
suddenly like cut off like tt
cannot call or receive call
the line is DAMN lousyt
then need off the modem and re-on
anyway my dad did that
and he sot
go bang bang bang the modem on the table
i was using his monitor and my com ma
his monitor already more or less spoil lor
table shake a bit then ir black out
so when he bang ar
it blacked out again
then i was like wthhhhhh
bang what bang la
u bang will ok meh zzzz
then he went crazy
go reset the com
no rxn
he bang the computer -.-
still nth
and then he kicked it
WTH LOR WHATS WRONG WITH HIM
anyway he tortured the computer until it came alive la
i was telling him
my work tmr need hand in de eh wth
then i tear again
crap.
argh.
very bad mood today. really.
and then everything has to happen today.
i cant rmb if there's anything else...

shuting msn me ask me jy and i teary again lols -.-
i really owe a lot to my friends ((:

saw carol in sku
she very upset ytd about chem
she did very badly i think
she didnt say how much
but she very sad
she hugged me in the LT lols
so i was trying to comfort her
today saw her
she ask me about maths
i say ok lor
then she hug me again
say quite bad
i say got pass de right
she say ya la
then i say ok what!!
then told her must go j2 with me ar! haha
scully become i cant go...... -.-


CHOY :P

hope

today gave elaine her card and stars etc
and i realised
those who did the least talked the most and loudest
they are nice of coz
express themselves
but isnt it always just words???
o.O
anyway
i was thinking of the meaning of this thing
coz i dunno how effective it will be
it's definitely not as gd as practical help
but she's happy and touched
gd enough.
didnt waste my time folding stars for her
when i could have went for lunch.
didnt waste my time smsing everyone
quite a few helped
very nice ppl
some nvr do anything but as i said
talked the loudest
the huggy ppl lor
went hug her and everything lols
they werent even bothered at all at first.
but well
hope she's ok.
hope the class will be ok.
all the best to 3010(:

i keep telling my friends
i supposed to 和好 with elaine
but i haven't because the reason we split
is because our characters clash
even if we he hao i think will split again anyway
so i just left it as it is.
but deep in.
i wonder.
is that the only reason?
im not sure also.
i cant say what the other reason is
i also dunno what it is
there is just the little doubt there
maybe pride? or fear?
but i am confident
i do care for her
i do care my friends lor...
at least i tot i did to her last time
maybe i didnt do everything
but i did all i can and i can say
i did more than anyone else in class lor.
if we are friends again. lols.
things like her bag being left alone at upper gallery
wont happen de.....
i wont leave it there :(
if i saw it that day i would have at least
told veron they all or sth
but anyway what was she expecting???
i mean
she sat with kailun they all leh
FEI HUA
of coz they wont take for her
lols not everyone cares and kailun definitely doesnt.
aiya dun care la.
my attitude towards her is ever-changing
and complicated
before i sort it out properly im not doing anything
coz sometimes i feel quite irritated
feel like gurumbling and complaining bout her
sometimes still see her as a friend
and feel like helping her or sth lols
but well. she's not happy with me still.
tt day pw in KI room 2
our grp was pretty noisy
lols and well she was very annoyed lols.
not my fault la
there are ppl in the group who digress non stop ma
i tried my best to stop them la..........

anyway today got back econs 1 essay
and chem essay too
econs 13/25
cher was lenient if not part 2 sure get 0 or 1 mark
then die lols.
chem essay bad only 11/40
hongwen and jos got 10/40
carol said she did very badly and for mcq too
but i dunno how much
char got 31/40
lalala~i can only say
she's char after all.
she may not be the best like BEST
but she's always among the best ppl.
tt's her.
every subject eh.
she died for econs in jct la
wonder this time how.
haiz. she's so her
our clique's pride hehe

Sth to add

Cher say he also dun like kailun
Coz her attitude etc wor
Lols nice haha
Ok la I usu ok de
Just sometimes it gets really annoying only la..
Cher say I'm cheerful and easygoing LOL
HAHAHA nice
But I like to grumble eh
Always emoemo then grumble grumble
But after tt then ok liao
Haha :D
I made ms ang day today by calling her pretty
Haha coz she very pretty today haha
So funny
I ask her tell mr ang she very pretty is he no taste
Then she say later he cannot take it so better not
So I say ya he old man weak heart LOL
Then she told him and he come question me HAHA so funny la :D

Cher broke a lot rules for me ya?
Haha tts y his students all praise him
Saw weizong ytd he also say cher damn nice lols
He said too nice haha
Yea true la too nice
^^ thanks cher hehe:D

烦啊烦啊。。。

好烦啊
怎么每次这样就来打华语呢？
或许华语更适合发泄吧。。。
不过今天。不想那样
不知道为什么但是。。。
算了

My pt is I shall type in el
Damn crap day
Well it started out ok
I wasnt late for sku
38 came slightly earlier even
So I reached slightly earlier
Gd thing
Then after that got the news from Cher
I'm honestly not happy with it
But...wasnt very upset. Not for long la.
It was gd enough. Just that...
Still diappointing...
I expected more though I know can't reach my goal
But...whatever
This is insignificant compared to... I dunno what...
I can still jy (:

After tt
Filmed skit
Took quite a few tries
But anyway it's done
And I have to do editing...
Shit la
I'm worried I can't do a gd job
This isn't a casual thing
This is for OP eh
Must be gd...

I wonder how a DEAD NONLIVING thing
Like PW can be so damn irritating and annoying
And why are some ppl unaffected by it
Argh
Argh

Yesterday
Zhenyan grumbled a lot about Shermaine lols
Coz she was in a really bad mood
And Susan was not arnd (at first uncontactable)
Shermaine there equals not there
It doesn't make a diff.
Seriously.
I know. But what can I do?!!!
Haiz
And u know what?
She wrote us a note each...........
LOL??? When I read it
I totally dunno how to respond
I totally felt like rolling my eyes.....
But I controlled not to
Zk say I looked pissed
Then I laughed and say no la
Then I observed zhenyans expression when she read it
Lols nice same as mine.
Yea gd we felt the same.
Lols she apologized.
For being able to help much when her ahgong passed away
Say will do more though not much left
Say she can help edit wr etc
Lols ok. Well she always say stuff like tt
And that is the least she should apologize for
Her ahgong pass away is can understand de
Is other times tt is really annoying....
And she ALWAYS tell me she can help will help
But never see her take initiative before...
And her work also substandard de
For goodness sake
She CAN do better than tt de!
She really can.
When she actually helps when we arnd
Like researching some quote for us today
She can give gd work de
But usu it's just no gd.
Give me additional work only.

Just now we went KI room 2 for PW after filming ma.
Then she on her laptop I say I wan see if can edit usin her com
She tell me ok. Wait ar.
So I wait.
Then she say she do sth first then I org
Then she plug in her earpiece into the laptop
And shared it with zk
And watched I dunno what
For I dunno how long
I ask her three times while she watch she just waitarwaitar
Crap-.-
Then after tt I went dunno whr
Should toilet or lunch la
Come back
Saw her on her laptop on another table
I was like what's she doing???
Coz we supposed to be solving Q&A questions.
Then I strain my eyes a bit
Nice she on fb chatting.
....
After tt she realize I'm back
Then she turn and tell her what she found
Wth? Found le cannot tell first ar?
Wait for what? Wait tmr meh
Summore not even usable
Must we evaluate the source for her??
That quote is by an unknown person leh of coz cannot la
Then she go find another quote
While switching to fb few times in btw
Haiz.
I ignored her la
Then we just think for Q&A lor
Lucky I nvr believe her note ytd lols
Not trustworthy...

Then TIP interview
I was nervous haha
Could feel my heart beating really fast
But ok la
I didn't answer much actually
First question i dunno how answer
Then after the first person
I know what to say le
So I wanted raise hand
But too late
So someone else answered
Then the interviewer nvr ask if we wan answer anot le leh
So too bad
Second question hmm I didn't rly answer ba
But anyway he linked it to exp
So I did answer
Say my cca de mentoring etc
Then he check if we can commit or anot etc lor
29/11 to 24/12 wor. Normal working hours.
Lols I ok la.
Then somehow he say one of the companies
There's only two I think
The learninglab ar
Wan science students
I was like wth?????
Then I only left 50% chance??
O.O crap lols
Whatever. Good luck.

After tt went back the room where the class was
Everyone slacking
They say finished Q&A le
So I ok lor
Meeting ms ong at 245 so everyone just slack
Till 245 lols.

245 meet her
Get back our WR
lols well.
Quite a bit of problems
Ok quite a lot
And we already exceeded word limit by a loooot
Yet need add so much stuff
I can predict trouble.
Then cher say hand in by Friday
We were like HUHHHH
So short time!!!!
Argh
Totally wth
Throughout the meeting
Shermaine so distracted
Coz she got some meeting after tt
She was late so she SMS them
Then they called etc la
Then she left early
Dunno how much she listened
Her part largest problem le
Coz of her substandard work that I totally wan vomit blood at
That I didn't bother editing tt day lols

Yet she still like tt
I really dunno what to do le la
Howhowhow
Wan give her more work but scared she don't do it well...
Hope she do her chapter 4 evaluation WELLLLLL Argh
Don't they realize wr and op is 40% each????
Dun screw it up plz...

Just the thought of them handing it in late to me
And I'll have to look thru every word of it
For dunno how many times
To edit and cut short xxxx
They only need do their part for WR
I need do video editing while I wait for them to finish
Then I need chief edit WR in whole
and then probably find some way to put video into ppt
Haiz ppt push to someone else la
Just the thought of all of it is giving me a headache
I dunno why I felt so annoyed
Super annoyed
Whole trip home
Just annoyed
Angry expression haha
And I speed walk home annoyed lols
Till
I bought a drink
Then I stroll
Drag feet lols -.-
Haiz felt damn sianz I think
How can a NONLIVING thing be soooo annoying???
PW IS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME ANS EMOTIONS AND BRAIN JUICES!!!!!

hi peeps

yepp hi haha.
well.

i forgot to add in the previous post.
right before our cll exam
she still talking about chem ma -.-
then she say say le better
then i was like but ppl around her hear till very fan leh
then she was like 折磨别人比折磨自己好
wth????
so selfish thinking ya? o.O
lols anyway enough about her.
im not irritated about her anymore
just stating.

friday went with parents to see doctor
coz mum tt time leg injured still havent fully recover
still pain i think
now the other leg also pain wor
she say hands also start aching haha
i tell her ya old liao old liao...
we went very early much earlier than appointment time
near heartland mall
so we went mall and walked a bit
then mum went doctor
me n dad walk a bit more
nvr talk la nth to say to him
then he walkwalkwalk left the mall
i saw him walk into guardian ma
so i just stroll stroll
then went in
but he gone le leh
then dunno whr he go to
also dun care me
in the end i call him
then found him
then realised he was going to my mum there le leh
the clinic there.
it was the first time i there leh
so i dunno my way around
he going find my mum liao
i not with him he also dun care wor?
wth
i was thinking
i might as well just really get lose
sit there
see how long he take to realise im gone
then bother to call me
-.-
whatever. then just ignore him after tt.
what can i say...

oh ya when we were in the mall
we went cold storage i dunno for what dumb use
then i saw an...interesting? scene
3...siblings i think.
then the brother tell the younger sister to go find their mum
very fiercely
the sister look so scared and innocent
then blurblur de nvr say anything
the elder sister beside the brother tell him
wan go buy dog food
younger sister say also wan go
brother scold her
say cannot.
ask her go away go find their mum
say they are enemies
LOL????? so bully sia?!?!?!
lols -.-

anyway.

then today.
my group come my house for pw
shermaine not here AGAIN
im quite used to her absence liao -.-
this time she has piano AND ballet lessons
i wonder y she taking them at this age
but whatever.
always valid reasons. what can i say.
anyway so we edit ppt and script lor
went kfc eat
then continue
zk let us watch a video
damn cool
a girl called charice
go listen to her duet with Celine Dion
at the Madison Square Garden or sth
DAMN COOL
her voice.......POWERRRR :D
then halfway
suddenly my com sot
monitor suddenly off
pc still working lor
so standstill for a while
till about a while later
dad came home
change monitor for me
then we finished. at 4.30.
surfed net till ~5
then let them sing k at my house!!!
till 5.30 zk left
the rest sang till 6.15 haha
they all can sing so well!
then i dun dare sing with them
coz i sing not nice haha
but i did la a bit. haha. :D

Well well...

Promos just totally suck lols
ok other than maths. ok no.
including maths.
especially chem
DAMN SCREWED FOR CHEM:(
argh.
i left soooo much blanks that i had time to 'finish' the paper
see. dunno how do. skip
next. also dunno. skip.
and hence i ended up trying everything in time
but there are just sooo many blanks
i dun see how i can reach >45. seriously
im 100% relying on moderation. i just want to pass.
MAYBEEE can get 30++ so yea gd luck gd luck gd luck.

after chem
was with zhenyan and kailun
i really really really got damn super irritated and annoyed
at one point la
other than that i was ok. i just ignored what she was saying.
but it was really...........
she kept harping on how badly she did.
and she doesnt believe when we say we also screwed it up
she INSISTS for a few hours HOUURRSS till the next paper
that she screwed it up terribly
and she's the ONLY ONE
that we'll do well still
wth.

i was so upset leh
i ALWAYS mean what i say
when i say things like i REALLY screwed it up
when i estimate what i think i will get.
i dun exaggerate lor.
although i wasnt happy with my maths
but at least i can still tell them honestly that
i think i might get A. that i think it should.....be ok.
if nothing serious goes wrong la
anyway. i dun see the point of faking it what.
i always tell them i nvr study.
as in i tell them the actual situation de leh
exactly how much i studied
and how little time i used to study
its true what. ive always been a slacker
my gd friends know it
they dont believe when i say i studied lor lols
ironic.
wth lor
always thwart whatever i say
not like i lie to them then i will do better what.
so since i say i nvr study
i must score badly to prove to them meh.
not my fault they are not learning the right way
so they dun score well what.
im not even comparing.
what i say is in my opinion only what
i dun compare with them lor.

damn irritating
she kept going on and on
that one line
"怎么办？essay没有时间做就lose30多分了leh！！”
okok fine I GET IT
can you please stop it -.-
she say nvm la its ok
BUT NOT FOR A FEW HHHOUUURSS RIGHT
argh
and we also did badly eh
and she can ignore us and go on about herself
though we stopped her quite a few times
argh couldnt she just conc on the next paper...???
we were trying to do last minute studying eh
since we all didnt study the previous night
lols. all do chem only.
then she keep saying
i no need study also can do well etc
we studying cll ma got one part i say i haven touch yet
then she was like:"等一下成绩出来又不像没有读过"
.........................
but it's a fact that i nvr study what.
i dunno what are friends for anymore
or are they even my friends -.-
coz i have to watch my mouth SERIOUSLY around them
too bad veron doesnt take same combi as me....haiz.
haiz i dunno how to explain la actually
but for me.
i really couldnt take it.
so i messaged char n veron about it
say they dun believe whatever i say.

VERON WAS EQUALLY IRRITATING LA
she say sth like "i bet you spend the whole night studying for cll right"
for goodness sake i JUST said i didnt. crap.
CHARLYNN ROCKS(:
i really love them. my gd friends.
coz i say they dun believe me and that i screwed chem terribly
that it was the worst paper i ever took.
she replied me:"I believe you (: and hopefully wont fail la."
sth like tt.
so heartwarming...............
just a simple "i believe you" was great lols
coz they know im a slacker hehe.
my gd friends rock(:
that day i actually dropped a tear lols
when kailun suddenly say the "思慧不用读也可以考得很好的"
please define 很好...
anyway they didnt see. luckily.
was in a terrible mood argh.
but i was still all smiles with them
i wonder how i did it.
the bad mood flew away as fast as it came la.
couldnt do anything about it anyway.
tt's how she is and i will tolerate it. or at least i'll learn to.
haiz.

anyway after cll
went macs with godwin and veron
i bought icecream
veron also plus a burger
godwin only fries
then we talked and laughed a lot
gossiped a bit i guess? o.O
anyway it was damn funny
me n veron suan godwin A LOT HAHA
coz he has an ego larger than the whole Earth-.-
so we kept shrinking his ego hahahahaha

today went out with my gd friends
love them hahahaha
it was really...great to have fun with them again.
with them there's no end to laughter.
we just kept laughing hehe
belated celeb for char and shuting too hehe
we were soooo NOT discreet in the card writing HAHA
but anyway cake was great
lunch was great
and KBOC WAS SUPER ULTRA FAB
everytime also damn fun when go kbox
shuting kept shouting
and we all did too at high parts
DAMN FUN
hahahaha
they all say voice sure no gd le
but i didnt feel any strain eh
coz my voice was loud in the first place hehe
so didnt have to strain hahahahahaha :P
anyway it was just so super fun
coz i got 1for1 discount card for today
so it was the cheapest time at kbox yippee!
i was afraid to go there today
coz damn ex
lucky got that card! :D
ahhhh i dun wanna come home.
haiz.

promos was terrible
then ytd JUST finish promos only
then dinner.
then havent even got to have a break leh
dad ask me wash dishes.
tt's like his ONNNLYY job leh
all he do is slack in front of the tv after work eh
only thing he do is wash dishes ehhhh!!!
then always want to shirk even this job -.-
come on la give me a break.
i couldnt wait to sit down in my room and have a good rest
and watch my show, relaxed.
after so long.

today come home.
aiya only he home ma.
i dunno why. i always get super impatient at him.
he just keeps on saying unnecessary stuff
damn crap stuff
i came home he ask me eat already?
i say no. dun wan eat. not hungry.
then he ask what i eat just now
i say nothing
then he say dun anyhow drink what ppl give u
later ppl drug u
do i look like i went to a club or sth -.-
so i say we went to a ROOM with ONLY me n my friends.
then he say ya. dont anyhow play with strangers. etc la.
i just walked into my room
...trying not to show too much irritation
then he was like say a bit u also unhappy ar.
so i tell him:"fei hua what. why would i talk to the strangers??"
thn he nvr answer me.
come on. i got brains to think.

anyway after tt he unhappy with me dao me
so i go switch off the charger
coz he charging his phone using mine. hmph
it was childish but whatever
just felt irritated. a bit 示威 la :P
anyway after tt we both not happy la whatever.
and go bathe then got stuff to wash eh.
damn sianz.

haiz only break i have is that few hours i had today...
haiz.
coz after bathing
zhenyan msg me ask me for tmr meeting plans.................
argh i just didnt want to think about pw...........
sick of it
totally sick of it.
today meixuan suddenly say be pw leader so relaxed
coz she is one too
i was like WHAT?????
relaxed ur head la.
but well she's a domineering person
so she probably can control her grp
haiz. i cant.
but now better le
zhenyan is very hardworking at pw now
mmuch more than me coz i just feel like slacking now hehe.
i wan to let them do more now.
i've had enough. really tired.
ok i just wan to be irresponsible for once la lols.
these few days very mood swing
dont want do anything
just wanna do what i want
thats all.

OH SHIT.
mum just came home and......
OH it's my dad's bdae today~
right right right.
well it's his chinese bdae
and i nvr knew when his chinese bdae was.
only know his el one.
they forgot mine before also lor
and they NEVER really celebrated mine before anyway
only...when i was...5?

my mum like to get presents from me
though she also says otherwise -.-
but she NEVER gave me anything.
never lols
but i treasure my bdaes eh.........
haiz
nvm i dun like to expect anything from them anymore
i just hope they wont expect anything from me........

they always make me sound like a bad daughter
who doesnt care about them at all
and who will not support them when i grow up
but.
actually i tot about it before
i dunno why but anyway i did.
i tot about after i married hehe
coz im their only child.
although married le should be like go to the guy side
but i hope they can live with us.
coz they very old le ma even now
by that time even older.
i cant leave the two of them alone what
i not that mean.
they are still my parents
and im always generous with my money hehe
its not a gd thing
coz im quite a spendthrift
but anyway
i will give them money de lor
and im hoping i can earn enough
to give them more and still have enough for myself hehe
anyway tts the future.
the three of us just totally clash.
diff to have peace at home.
characters totally clash.
cant tolerate each other haha.
but not that we dun care for each other.
its just bad temper.
haiz.
ok. whatever. dun wan think. i shall go destress.
haiz. today was so wonderful till i returned home...............

Damn dumb

I dunno why but I'm in an ultra bad mood lols
Ok it's bcos of maths
But they all will kill me if they see this
I can't say anything to them :(
They will hate me lols
Veron was telling me
They worrying for their pass yet I worrying for my A
Thing is I can get A I not worrying
I'm just ultra upset that I didn't reach 90
That I didn't reach my goal

Well but it's a nice experience
Thanks to mr ang
Who encouraged me a lot this time
I actually felt like I can do it
First time I rly set proper goals
But looks like it's still too high.........
Wanted my name to be up there on the list
But not just there but on the first page
Asking for too much right?
Hope jos won't kill me after seeing this but anyway
No one to tell to le
They don't understand...

To me maths is everything lols
I always do badly for a lot subs
Usu maths best but not 100% all the time
But yet I still feel worst for not doing as well as expected for maths
P6 78/100 I cried in class and got hated more than I already was
I rmb last yr think is prelims or sth
Coz I usu will know an estimate of my marks de
I finished the maths paper
And I was damn depressed the whole trip home
Almost cried on the bus
I didn't do very well
Though better than a lot of them
But it was really upsetting:(
I always say
If I can't even do maths well
Then I have nothing left

Veron asked me this afternoon
Why my maths so gd
Then I say coz the rest not gd
But she n wanshan disagree
Wanshan say I quite balanced what
I didn't say anything I think
But I disagreeeeeeee
Is passing everything considered gd at the sub already????
Sorry I have higher expectations then...

Just now the question 5 REALLY CAN DO DE EH
SO SIMPLE DE LEH
WHY I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO DO???!!?!??
So irritated at myself.................I could have gotten 90 de
Might have
Not so sure about the pnc question either
But at least I squeezed an answer out.

Dumbdumbdumb la

I really will doubt if I can handle h3 le leh...
Although it's much better than handling chem
Well I like chem but it's too heavy for me
Anyway although h3 is better but it's not a h2 subject after all
If any h2 die how????
So I must do well for my h2 subs and my h3 maths!

Shouldn't we improve every time? :(
I did promo 09 and got 86 while ms ang was lenient
I should improve :((( but I doubt I did....

Anyway this is a good lesson
I told myself to buck up and do better the next time
But I'm in a super upset mood now
Wanted grumble to my mum
So I bought bubble tea home though I know she will scold
I wanted her to ask y I buy
Then I will say I'm in a bad mood
But I came home and house got guest-.-
So I didnt say anything n got scolded
After tt she ask again haha
I say I'm in a bad mood
Wanted her to say sth nice for once JUST ONCE
She never did before and so she didn't today
She asked why then I say coz exams
Then she didn't ask le
All she did was say things like
Exam then must buy bubble tea meh
Don't u know it's not gd for health? Etcetc
Super irritating
I gng bathe ma so I quickly close the door and I somehow started crying
Crap!!!!
I was already moody
Just this once wanted to hear sth nice from her
Another too high expectations....
I just said I'm in a bad mood
And she started nagging wth nice...
Upset sia.

Should be studying super hard now
Since I didn't prepare much for cll and nth for chem
But I rly can't make myself read it eh
I feel like taking out some maths and do lols
Argh since I can't get 90 for maths
I probably have to get at least C for the rest of the subs?
Try.
But hopeless lor
D or E I happy le lor
It's not maths

It's ironic
Those well not like I'm happy with a pass
Just that I know I can only manage near pas or sth
So I dun care
Maths I A still 100x more upset lols
Actually usu not so exaggerating
Probably hoped too much ma
High hopes high disappointment
But I'm not giving up yet.

It's been damn long since I got a 90 n above score
For any exam
I wanted this to be that once
But it didnt happen
Next time mct or maybe jct
I want to make it happen...............
I hope it won't be too high hopes again.
Well today is pretty demoralising I'm not sure why...