有朋友真好。。。呵呵

有朋友真好

刚才知道原由了后
我想了挺多的
虽然我会一直联想到她的缺点
但最后
我决定不想那么多
尽量改变
不是为了她
是为了身边每一个人
也为了我自己
绝对不会是为了她
我倒要感谢她告诉我这些
让我有机会变得更好(:

因为我发现除了她
我身边的朋友包括wanshan也是同意的
其实她没有说出来但她说她们并不介意
同个意思啦。。。
所以我刚才就在想
我从以前就一直这样做错吗？
于是我就sms给shuting和joscelin和meixuan
问她们我对她们而言是怎样的人

真是选对人了呵呵
shuting的答案真棒:P
她说：
You like to respond to things in your own way,
by showing an alternative to what your friends say
you make people feel dumb.
you behave like an auntie but you are quite easygoing
sometime thinks a lot but sometimes quite sensitive.
nice to a certain extent if you don't open your mouth
but that's what characterise you.
you are kind really. and smart.
hanging out with you makes me feel awesome cause i know
i have a ugly encyclopedia ard who always laugh a lot

I just love her answer
but anyway i ask her no bad pts meh
then she say:
Well you just like to talk.
it's been two long years having you suddenly barge in
with your act smart comments which actually make sense after all
and you are loud but i'm loud too.
just go for a plastic surgery
i might have forgotten your bad points. will try to recall.

SHUTING ROCKS :D:D:D
HAHA 真棒呀！呵呵
下一个回复的是joscelin
她说不知道要怎么说她问我为什么突然问
所以我就大概告诉她了反正她是知情的
她的答案也不错呵呵:P
她说：Huh like that also cannot? I thought very normal?
why she like that also not happy?
我说她很注重respect etc
然后joscelin又说：
but also cannot like that then angry with you
coz everybody is different...
i first time heard of this. angry coz she thinks u disrespectful...

虽然我不觉得我没错
但是她们的答案还是让我的心安定下来了呵呵
因为她们的答案
我觉得我有信心改掉坏习惯了
我觉得我能够更忍受一切了
我觉得我可以放下身段去跟她道歉
我觉得我可以再努力和她做朋友了
因为有她们的存在(:

过后我大概问上瘾了:P
就再问了carol 和 charlynn :P
然后carol回答了
她也说不知道怎样说但她说:
in general: you are a nice person
我现在完全不理会她们的话里有几分真实
但我相信她们不会说谎的啦尤其是shuting
shuting决不会撒这种谎的
carol问我为什么会这样问我跟她说
有人说我disrespectful嘛
then她说really meh? must be you too good in suaning le la haha...
:P lols :P

charlynn just replied le.
irritating girl la she i knew it man dumb reply LOL
coz i msg them starting with "eh pig..."
LOL
so she reply say
??! a bad girl who calls such a pretty girl a pig:)
pretty girl your head la LOL
so charlynn. hehe.
anyway im over it le
so dun bother
im now just asking for fun

but seriously.
i like to know what ppl think of me...
esp my friends coz they are whom im around all the time.
i always say dun gossip behind my back
got anything just tell me.
at least give me a chance to explain myself
IF there is a misunderstanding
if not then give me a chance to change...

there's so many sides to me already so sianz
everytime must treat everyone differently
tot i could at least be who i am
no need so fake when with my friends
no need force myself to be what i am not.
but whatever.
i dun wan let my other friends awkward or unhappy
because of the two of us le.
wanshan in btw us so poor thing.
dun wan give her more trouble...
she say just now after mr ang talk to elaine
elaine emo thru chem mass remedial
after that she told wanshan that
she not rly really hate me
just cant stand my character lols
and wanshan also mentioned
asking me we want continue like tt for 1 more yr meh
lols wont be nice if tt's the case.

veron they all also dun like it lols.
today after pe
elaine say wan go good news
i go sit with kailun in canteen ma
the rest all went with her
before they left i saw them
then lols apparently
they only go coz elaine wants to go.
veron was looking at me with a 'im sorry' face
then she was like cuddling onto me LOL
anyway she was saying im with you de but...
lols then i was like nvm la its ok
(oh ya ying en they all found her very touchy hahahahahaha:P)

lols tough being in the middle
but i nvr want them to choose
so better if we become friends again.
and anyway i used to think we can be gd frends
sadly she doesnt think the same.
well. even if not gd friends
at least normal classmates?
just not this.
lols anyway dun think le

but anyway 我真不明白我们为什么要活到这么辛苦
生活已经够累够惨了的还要顾虑这些
zzzz

不管了
反正I shall change as much as i can
with my friends' support hehe :P
and see what happens
let nature take its course
顺其自然！

oh well anyway cher say she said
she doesnt hate me
its just that she doesnt like it.
and knows i very nice
and she will speak to me if necessary
lols i dunno what to say.
still. 顺其自然