what

Not I not gd girl
Dun wan listen to u ok
But u must make reasonable requests
Before I can abide right.
I'm not doing what I dun agree with
So leave me alone thx

CRAP

My parents are the ppl
Who understand me the LEAST
In the whole world man.

I'm damn irritated now.

Already cold war-ing with mum liao
Then just now
Dad see me use iPod
I was on words with friends lols
Then he was like '又在msg'
I was like WTH?!!!?
What's wrong with them
I do what they also say I keep msg
I also no one message all the time la
Phone n iPod got a lot uses u know
Who says I'm smsing-.-
For instance I'm blogging now
Zzz...

And worst is.
I told him in an exasperated tone
I wasn't even loud
I was suppressing myself
Tell him I'm NOT smsing
Then he ask y I talk so loud at him
Say he got heart attack
Wth la u think u funny arh
I wasn't shouting lor
SERIOUSLY

They live me for at least 12 years le
Since I have no memory of whatsoever before 5
And doesn't he know I have a naturally loud voice
-.-
ALWAYA accusing me of shouting at him
Come on la
Tts NORMAL liao lor
Not even easy to not shout le
Still accuse me when I'm trying hard not to...zzz...

hiiya~lots stuff...

its been quite a while since last post right...
1 week plus isit? haha
quite eventful ar
got few tuff to write........

anyway today no civics n contact time
AGAIN!!!
so we weer dismissed at 1230
but coz later got gp lesson
the learning circles thing
(that i honestly think
godwin/ver/kim deserves moer than me...)
i went the classroom check the cher say
prob around 350 start
so yupps i come hub post first hehe
coz just opposite only XDD
yupps 7 mins moree ahhhh
okok

first thank you to ALL my wonderful friends
who gave me a fantastic bdae this yr!!
So many presents can!
got headphone from cher
lip gloss/balm from zhenyan
earphone from liou jing
carebear from jos
and a surprise lunch + bag from suaning clique!! XD
it was so surprising! totally unexpected!
wonderful day haha so long nvr meet up leh!
char gave me a hairband too!
and wanshan gave me a squishy thing
very gd for relieving stress
hehe
but a lot say its scary
LOL i was having fun scaring ppl with it
esp fanye LOL
wanshan say scared i dun like
soo she actually gave me a notebook along with it XD
yupthen this week monday ar
ver gave me another soft toy
DAMN CUTE CAN XD
its a bee!
yellow of coz
with a huge head
and very small body
AND SPECS
she say look like maths genius so give me
she say she like it a lot
wanted buy one for herself
but last one liao
whole thing keep repeating
then ask me get her sth cute too for her bdae LOL
recoup losses ma XD

yea so is 1 whole week of prez! monday to monday
haha XD
yupps...

and next.
im sick for the 4th time this yr sia -.-
went docs again on monday
got the horrible disgusting med again
ugh.


and there are so many hols recently can!!!
gd la actually...
PROVIDED I CAN MAKE USE OF IT PROPERLY

i still haven't tot of how to ace 'A's
when i get scolded for staying back late everyday
and not allowed to get out at all...
oh well.
can i quit sku?
i mean...better than getting a horrible cert rightXP
ah sianz la
at home cant focus also
till now also nvr do much yet
I HOPE CHERS STOP GIVING HOMEWORK!!
THEN I CAN FOCUS ON REVISION!!!!!!
argh.

and mum scolded me ytd night.
coz she 1+ wake up check on me
i was still awake at my desk
apparently she caught me using my phone~
scold scold scold
then today i couldnt wake up
she use cane hit me to wake me up
then scold scold scold again
say see la sleep so late then cant wake up
body so weak dun rest earlier etc
say whr got so much to do till solate one
then ask me stop using my phone all the time
catch again she confiscate
ask who i msging if is bf bring home la! -.-
but i wasnt even smsing when she caught me
ANYWAY
then gave me damn long lecture at breakfast
i cried damn hard la -.-
zzzz
ANYWAY IM LATE SO BYE-.-

Any hope?

There's still hope right?

I can still do it right?

Please tell me it's not too late yet...

Really.

wow XD

this yr bdae is one of the best i have ever had!!!

i dun rly rmb like every yr de bdae
so i cant say for sure
but its definitely one of the best<3
because the prez was awesome
and i had a lovely chat with fren afternoon
then had awesome dinner with parents just now
my mum actually suggested ice cream
and let me order sashimi etc
was very peaceful and harmonious
with my laughter LOLXD
so fun<3

awesome bdae...
though its not even my bdae yet!!
THATS Y ITS AWESOME XD

tyvm XD

So surprised when I saw it!!

TYVM MR ANG!!!((:
Reallyyyyyy
Thx for bothering to get one
That actually fits my description hehe XP

Ahhhh it's so niceee^^

And the stats paper too!
The proofs are interesting! XD
They actually make sense!!! LOL XD

And anyway is it very ex?
Hopefully not.............o.o

Another thing...

Adding on...

Eh-heh...
What to type
Erm can't write explicitly
Due to all sorts of reason-.-

Not feeling very comfortable with sth...
But can't say...can't tell anyone-.-
Coz it's quite crap
I'm sortof over reacting LOL XD
But...still...
It's not baseless...XP
It's reasonable ok!
Oh well.
I will not tell this crap to anyone-.-
Coz whoever hears will wave it off with sth like a chey
If not then add on to it
Yea
So what's the pt of this post?
I'm not sure. Just...feel like putting it down
So yea...

Just some opinions.

Yea some opinions.

I think that
Being generous is a gd thing
Esp to friends. Gd friends.

But.
Maturity is essential....
To judge whether u CAN
Or is ABLE to be generous
And HOW generous...
Seriously.

Good to be nice n all to ur darling gd friends
But then sometimes I think
We should think of other stuff too...
Like where the money comes from
Does it affect anything else
Is the spending necessary
Etc
I mean
ISNT CLEARING UR OWN DEBTS MORE IMPT??
no logic leh no matter how I think-.-

Aiya
Just commenting la
Coz I see some ppl being too generous
With money
Easily taken advantaged of.
No sense of finance management as well-.-
But oh well.
JUST VOICING OPINIONS XD
that someone don't take it to heart...
Wait.
Ok maybe u should.

Suffocating...

Shes making my life stifling...

I dun like feeling like a caged bird
Coz all I want to think about
Is how to get out.
Nothing else.
Wts.
.......

If u wan someone who lives the way u want them to
Go get a robot.
If you want to control someone tt badly
Or boss someone around
Go get a maid or sth
Let me live my own life....

What do ppl live for?
If we are to put ALL our efforts into achieving everything
Except happiness
And do what we dont like
For our whole life
What do we live for?

If we are to live tt kind of standard life everyone does
Following sth planned for us
Without our own opinions...
And then die with lots of regrets..

Then might as well die early
And save the regrets....





I WANT TO GET OUTTTTT

lols

Even the QUEEN's friends say they can't stand her le
Lols...
Tt double standards queen.

Apparently she was walking back to the bags
After pe today
With Sarah
So her dear friends left without her
Since she has company
Then she scold them for not waiting for her
Then come to the table whr our bags are
Ask whr she sit
Her fren ask her take another chair
She stormed off lols
Oh well.

What's wrong sia-.-

shopping list

Got quite a lot things to buy~

Got money from my dad
as my bdae present
to buy SHOES! LOL
cannot be go out keep wear heels right!
i dun rly like it and it's weird sometimes.
slippers no nice one
tt can wear to mall...
if not then need wear sku shoes aka sneakers.
sianz.
i need go get mall-shoes LOL
like flats...yea...$50.
hope can get two pairs!
dun care liao
come bk let mum scold lor big deal XD
I NEED SHOES MA!

My skubag the side ar one side long time ago torn
now the other side also tearing zzz
but aiya last yr le hope can last till end lor
next yr dun need liao!
then can get new nag to bring to uni liao
HAHA XD

and gotta buysome nice clothes too
i do have a few not bad ones
from new yr etc
but very little leh
not much variety...

And lastly
I WAN TO GET EARPHONES!!!
have been wanting to buy
tt time coz mum got robinsons vouchers
wanted get a $80 one
but dun dare ask her LOL
doubt she will let anyway -.-
then buy lappy tt time saw one
DAMN NICEEE
its tt time the over head thing thinthin de
wire thin like tt
then the earpuff is softsoft round de
pink de XD
DAMN NICE ONEEE
$30 i think
dad ask me wan anot can buy
but i ps leh dunno wan anot
also dunno quality how
then in the end
left without buying...
awww but rly wanted it LOL XD
i should go get a nice one soon......XDDDD

ok back to my work XD

maybe...

maybe i wasn't tt calm about pw after all?
i totally felt nothing eh b4 during n after.
ok maybe a bit
but not much la.
a bit toooo calm
very weird.
wonder if i was just trying to think positively
forcing myself to not care
though i actually do
oh well. i dunno myself very well after all...
maybe i care about pw after all...
care tt we didn't get tt A
though we put in a lot of effort.
but i do know its not rly gd
lack creativity n stuff.
and shermaine same score as us.
if she A i will be pissed xP
maybe i'm feeling upset like how elaine was..
maybe im not...
maybe i really cant be bothered about
my h1 pw score...
its just 1.25 away anyway.

my better guess would be
i am a trueblue sore loser -.-
just now play ar
lost everything lor practically
then got into sianz mood
but it lasted so long is weird
nothing big to raise my spirits la i think.
but i doubt its tt big a reason lor
whats wrong with losing
i lose very often de anyway~

so my biggest guess is.
pms -.-

Another nice song!

I think I will turn out the same as avrip lavigne
Shouting WHAT THE HELL
If my parents get tooo overboard LOL
AWWW I LOVE THAT SONGGG
not rly coz lyrics la just love the tune
So damn nice so catchy XDD

Tyvm. Really.

Just read shuting's blog...

And I just wanna say.
Thank you so much(:
You're the best friend one can ever have XDD
Tyvm XD
You're appreciated okay! XD

Lala~

Mum say she very angry with me
She say she will hit me if I still 不听话
-.- why I so sick liao ar
Feeling so awful ar
Still must get scolded nonstop sia~zzz...

Anyway nice day today((: thanks guys((:

Sadd

They never did give me some emotional comfort before..

When I was injured
Or sick
Or sad or anything
All they do is nagnagnag
Scoldscoldscold
Making it worse...

Sometimes I just hope
My mum would come and
Give me a hug
And tell me everything is ok...
She never did...

Awful...gng mad...

Feeling damn awful now...

Feverish
And crying eyes sore even warmer
No flu also become have la-.-

I gng mad le la
很烦eh!!!!

I know my mum cares but come on la
No point nagging non stop right
Went on and on and on and on
I couldn't take it la seriously
Really had the urge to throw the spoon
Or the medicine
An shout at them to shut up la

It's not like I'm feeling good eh
I'm like emitting heat all over now
Dunno fever or anger-.-

I think she only decided to stop going on
When she saw me cry

Oh well I can't shout at her
So I clenched my fist
An closed my eyes
Trying to calm down
Then started crying
And it's tough to stop

I'm really...gng...literally mad...

She keep saying same stuff over n over again

And ask me dun stay back in sku for the next 6 mths
Dad also joined in sia wts-.-
Then ask me cannot go out also for this half year

OH YAY LET'S JUST FAIL 'A's!!!!!

They also ask me
Cannot do thisthisthis
But still must reached their goals zzz

U SO PRO U GO TRY LA...

Zzz

Why am I always sick!!!?!
Last week just sick only leh
Today not feeling well again...

Sore throat...
Slight slight fever for now
Should be fine soon though...
Zzz my mum sure nag nonstop
If I tell her sick again de
Zzz hopefully I'll be fine soon
Then no need tell her

Argh
My throat hurts...

Anyway ytd was another wonderful day XD
Although another day gone nvr do work :X
Argh...
Haiz.

Kk stop here...
Go do work le...
Bye...