how ar?

haiyo
i dunno what do do eh how sia...
actually also nothing much de la
im just a bit worried
WHAT IF...
but should be........nothing de right?
argh.
whatever la. let nature takes its course haha
hopefully all goes...well.

anyway merry christmas...eve everyone!! :D
i received a card from someone today
she say cannot tell XXXXXXXX LOL
i personally think its ok
but anyway i was SOOOO surprised and damn touched leh
when i got it today! :D
SHE DAMN NICE :D LOVE HER SO MUCH :D:D:D:D
hehe

cleaned my room today.
wipe walls floor windows
tiring sia hahaha but ok la
chat with friend a lot today
quite fun hehe :P

PPL HAPPY COUNTDOWN TO CHRISTMAS!! :D:D

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argh

no matter how gd mood i was
when i come home ar
a while gone le.
immediately turn into terrible irritable mood -.-
argh.
i was soooo happy just now de leh!

today was so fun de leh!
met jiaqing
supposed to study
but quite fail la
he say he forgot everything le
then he didnt rly study
then we talktalktalk LOL
then 3+ started listening to my ipod de music
he browse thru see what he know ma
then he play some sing a bit etc
then like that until 6 eh LOL
then go home.
i only managed to go 1 essay outline today...
but it was fun...
so long nvr talk to casually with someone
esp is guy. even more rare.
was rly nice coz he super chatty
but then come home then sianz le. haiz.

i rly cannot take it leh wts.
cried again little bit only la though
coz i was telling myself not to cry
not worth it
sheesh.
although i keep thinking i shouldnt mind
it shouldnt affect me
but.
argh.
idiot.
im scolding myself la.
dumbo eh.
haiz.

i wan to grow up.
i wan to do what i wan
i wan to live as "FOO SI HUI"
not just as their child.
i don't want to live their ideals
i wan to live my own life...
but even if i grow up
they probably wont stop controlling me
...
it sucks eh
i rly dunno what im living for eh
according to what they wan me to do/be
im supposed to study hard
and not get too involved with other stuff
don't waste money don't need have too much fun
relax once in a while can liao. playing com is probably enough.
then study hardhard go uni
maybe study even more
and take high degree
and get a gd job tt pays high
even if i hate the job
dun care. pay high can liao.
and then what else???
married got kid raise them up then leave the world soon.
whats the pt of a life like this?

two days ago
tt night i also cant rmb why i was thinking of this la
i wasnt in an emo mood
it just suddenly came to my mind i think.
i wsa thinking sth tt i've tot about a lot of times...
whats the meaning of life haha
i since damn long ago will think about this once in a while de la
but i nvr found my answer.
the life described above is the only thing i can imagine.
but life is just this one try
there isnt a second chance.
its just these years..
i just want to have no regrets and
do whatever i want to do
not that dont study la
i wan to survive too...
but...
argh.
i think i dont fit into this world.
it doesnt suit me...
why is everything about being better than others?
whats wrong with not being the best?
im not an ambitious person
i never was
and i dont want to be either
its so tiring...
im a lazy pig
i just want to go what i wan
and enjoy life
and be happy.
tt's more than enough.
but i guess it would just be a dream.......

(btw just add a little thing
ytd went udders with mr ang and veron
eat iceee creeaaammm :D
it was great
quite fun
coz veron was amazingly amusing hehe
then when we on the bus
we were saying tj no shuai ge
mr ang say cannot be so shallow LOL
then i say "you also what"
veron copy me haha
it was comical LOL hehe
aiya eye candy only what
also not like looking for bf haha... :P)

Contacts

Bought contacts le! Last weekend(:
Gng get it tmr
Ive been bugging my parents damn long for it
Haha but now ar
My eyebags look obvious leh haha
Got dark eye circles
Coz I almost every day sleep after 2 this hols hahaha
So ar I scared wear contacts very obvious-.-
But I bug them so long
They finally let me buy
They sure kill me if I say dun wan le haha
So nvm lor
Wear lor:D

Bought lots clothes previous weekend too!!!!
Bega at century square
So many very nice clothes that day!
They every week got new stock de
So see luck also
Coz not always got suitable clothes
But I recommend girls go take a look
Can fit my mum age also hahhaha
Fit all ages :P
Nice leh the clothes
Me and my mum spent 200++ there almost 300
I bought 3 tops 1 skirt 1 dress
The dress is nice
Looks like top+skirt but is not hahaha
My mum bought 2 tops and a pants I think o.O
But she want share my clothes -.-
She say she also can wear
But dad say I wear nicer
She wear weird hahahhahaha
But she insists on sharing
So whatever lor hahhaha
I want wear my new clothes sia
So nice!
I so long nvr buy new clothes de leh!!
But mum dun let
She say new yr then can wear!!!! -.-
I can't wait!!! Hahhaah

HELLO

ok haha
it's been veryveryvery long since i last posted...
i think...

well there were a lot of days
when i had stuff to post
when i really wanted to post sth.
but then i didnt la
i guess i was lazy... :P
anyway.
here i am again.
doubt i will be very hardworking blogging la
but once in a while ba...

mum caught me with my ipod this morning
coz i forgot off it ytd night
when i listening music :(
she scold me again
now she bad mood again.
our house very take turns de
me n mum
dad and mum
me n dad etc. -.-
anyway mum say every night gng confiscate my ipod
morning then give me back
crap eh!!
i feel like hiding it every night -.-
but i will probably get nagged at even more.
whatever la
take then take lor:(
AHHHHHHHHHHHH my dear music!!
music is my LIFEE
i CANNOT survive without it.
seriously.
lols.

just watched KO3anguo.
damn long. took a few days.
damn nice haha.
i actually tot it was a dumb lame stupid show
but i realised its not :D
anyway.
im addicted to a song in the show.
the main song for the main characs la.
够爱!!! :D
im seriously obsessed with it LOL
and im in love with the couple in the show too
this happens sometimes
with some show.
like ur beautiful.
i was in love with that couple too.
so anyway i saved lots of photos of them on my com
and my ipod ytd.
LOL :D
damn rock!
now my wallpaper on ipod n com
all them liao hehe
THEY SO ROCK :D
anyway ytd night downloaded all the theme songs ma
till now...played...45 times liao.
and still playing ^^
it wasnt on replay in the day la
but now it is hehe
i love the song <3333
够爱！ :D:D:D:D

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没想透 你好像说过 你和我会不会有以后

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OS：你听见了吗？我为你唱的这首歌
是为了要证明 我为了你存在的意义

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yepp theres the lyrics.
i shall go search for the song to post on the blog.. :D:D:D
im sharing my obsession LOL.
got another song from the show also damn nice :D
same person sing de
曾沛慈 ROCKS :D:D I LOVE HER LA HER VOICE DAMN NICE
AND SHE ACT DAMN WELL
AND SHE QUITE CUTE QUITE CHIO HAHA :D
:D:D:D:D
the other song is 泪了
the other songs not bad also of coz
these 2 best ba to me :D:D:D

ok i think of sth else then come bk haha
for now see u :D:D
and IM LOOKING FORWARD TO UDDERS
AND I SHALL GO LOOK AT STREETDIRECTORY NOW......