hope

today gave elaine her card and stars etc
and i realised
those who did the least talked the most and loudest
they are nice of coz
express themselves
but isnt it always just words???
o.O
anyway
i was thinking of the meaning of this thing
coz i dunno how effective it will be
it's definitely not as gd as practical help
but she's happy and touched
gd enough.
didnt waste my time folding stars for her
when i could have went for lunch.
didnt waste my time smsing everyone
quite a few helped
very nice ppl
some nvr do anything but as i said
talked the loudest
the huggy ppl lor
went hug her and everything lols
they werent even bothered at all at first.
but well
hope she's ok.
hope the class will be ok.
all the best to 3010(:

i keep telling my friends
i supposed to 和好 with elaine
but i haven't because the reason we split
is because our characters clash
even if we he hao i think will split again anyway
so i just left it as it is.
but deep in.
i wonder.
is that the only reason?
im not sure also.
i cant say what the other reason is
i also dunno what it is
there is just the little doubt there
maybe pride? or fear?
but i am confident
i do care for her
i do care my friends lor...
at least i tot i did to her last time
maybe i didnt do everything
but i did all i can and i can say
i did more than anyone else in class lor.
if we are friends again. lols.
things like her bag being left alone at upper gallery
wont happen de.....
i wont leave it there :(
if i saw it that day i would have at least
told veron they all or sth
but anyway what was she expecting???
i mean
she sat with kailun they all leh
FEI HUA
of coz they wont take for her
lols not everyone cares and kailun definitely doesnt.
aiya dun care la.
my attitude towards her is ever-changing
and complicated
before i sort it out properly im not doing anything
coz sometimes i feel quite irritated
feel like gurumbling and complaining bout her
sometimes still see her as a friend
and feel like helping her or sth lols
but well. she's not happy with me still.
tt day pw in KI room 2
our grp was pretty noisy
lols and well she was very annoyed lols.
not my fault la
there are ppl in the group who digress non stop ma
i tried my best to stop them la..........

anyway today got back econs 1 essay
and chem essay too
econs 13/25
cher was lenient if not part 2 sure get 0 or 1 mark
then die lols.
chem essay bad only 11/40
hongwen and jos got 10/40
carol said she did very badly and for mcq too
but i dunno how much
char got 31/40
lalala~i can only say
she's char after all.
she may not be the best like BEST
but she's always among the best ppl.
tt's her.
every subject eh.
she died for econs in jct la
wonder this time how.
haiz. she's so her
our clique's pride hehe