im so busy~

feel so busy sia
lots of things on my mind
cannot squeeze more le
if not sure start forgetting a lot too...
haiz. usu i like being busy
but not THIS type of busy la
and not THIS busy la
sianz de leh.
it's so irritating to be leader sometimes...
when there's nobody to do,
you just have to do it.
i feel like resigning
but i cant haha :P

yesterday...
i saw lowe in school lols.
it was...weird
haiz i didnt smile at him
I WONDER WHY -.-
i think i was just slow la
it didnt register in my mind that he's lowe
that he's my friend
that i should acknowledge him by smiling
then see his reaction...
i was thinking about sth i think
so when i saw him it just didnt register
so i just looked down.
my eyes did see that he's lowe
but my brain didnt see any link to anything then.
haha...so i didnt smile at him
i just looked down
lols. WHY DID I DO THAT MAN!!!
damn it.
i always ruin things la
we can be friends de lor
but then everytime also like tt
it gets worse all the time.

at first
he totally ignored me
i didnt bother him either
we didnt acknowledge each other
but he got over it after a while
and told me what we are still friends
so we were better le
we wave and smile when we meet
well it's a bit awkward and it makes me nervous haha
but well at least we sort of say hi~
after that. the wave gradually disappeared
we just smiled a bit
tt's still acknowledgement
then once i accidentally didnt smile at him
haha then erm well
it got worse lols.
sometimes we still smile sometimes we don't
we became more and more stranger-like...
gradually gradually gradually
we are strangers liao lor
SO SAD :(

that time
it was 4 years ago le.....
sec 1....sec 1 is a special and memorable yr for me
it wasn't pleasant for most of it
but there were so many things tt yr...
it left a deep impression in me.
lowe that thing till now 4 years le leh
still like tt
nono i should say become like that.
sianz. we could have been gd friends de
why did i just have to ruin it?!?!?
im such a pro at ruining things la :(
nah shant think about it le.
i got a lot more things to think about
to care about sth tt has past 4 years le..
it's a regret but well it's over.
i shall try my best to rmb to smile when i see him again
but i think he will be shocked LOL
maybe he won't return my smile
and i would be upset...i guess
but tt's not surprising
so whatever.

today college day
clep de went back sku help out
coz this yr is clep 20th anniversary too.
I WAS LATEEE
supposed to be 8.30 reach ma
like 15 mins late or sth la lols
and my tie was untied!!!
zz z must be coz put into bag
so ruined it la zzzz
lucky zhenyan helped me
it was so boring la
coz my 'station' there nobody de
since it's reception area
refreshments de or i should say lunch.
so until 10.30 like that
then got ppl go eat
after that huimin tell us we also can eat le
she say once they start
we can start le actually
but then we dun dare go in
then those stationed upstairs came down after a while
think huimin told them can eat le too
then the whole group of us stand outside the room
and dun dare go in
wanted wait those inside finish first
coz a bit ps la there's quite a lot alumni inside

so we stand there and STTAARREE inside the room HAHAHA
it was comical la
the ppl inside noticed us
and one teacher started laughing HAHA
then wu lao shi came out and tell us we can go in eat
dun stand over there
they felt like polar bears on exhibition HAHAHAHA
it was so funny
then junle tell her
it's ok it's ok we nvm de
HAHAHAHA then she say u say de ar
dun wan then suan le HAHA
in the end we still went in la
ps to eat inside though and no space
so we take le sit outside eat LOL
like so poor thing can eat outside hahahaha
summore we all want second serving LOL
so in the end we went in again
but stayed inside this time
just eat inside la.
more students came for lunch too
they were helping at acope previously ma

after the whole thing was over
my pw group minus zhekang
was at clep room
then we discuss gpp lor
coz we changing idea ma.
till 1+ then go meet zhekang at cafe.
shermaine and susan had to leave
so left me zk and zhenyan.
i was SO DAMN SLEEPY by then la
in lep room i was still energetic and high
but by the time go cafe
i was pretty low and TIRED le
so well i nodded off LOL
sianz de lor.
but coz it's saturday
we heard the college is going to be locked up...sooon
so we packed up and left.
zhenyan went home
me and zk went bedok macs to eat icecream
and continue discussion
2 ppl group discussion
how wonderful.

we didnt get much done there
but ok la
i planned a bit stuff
arrange things for the rest to research on lor.
but well there's a lot to do
and I HAVE TO COMPILE THE GPP AGAIN!
wth lor leader big deal ar
why must i be so responsible HAHA
no la but aiya they always tell me busy busy de
like i very free like tt lor
then i bo bian la.
ok la i do la i do la.
then other stuff also not like they will help me more
)((*^(#^%*#&%
i seriously NOT free ok!
i still got csc till now not done leh!!!
and coz monday meeting up with mr ang for...erm
how should i call it
mentoring? haha whatever
so ar i need to prepare stuff to ask him ma
so i need do maths!
next week maths n chem test summore...
and anyway i cant find my black file!
all the ques i had done previously from the chall Qs book
ALL INSIDE LEH.
i was halfway thru a ques summore sianz need redo ;P
cher say can lend me zap his solutions though.
tt's nice of him as usual.

today i very guai le lor.
morning clep duty ar
i brought notes to read
mainly was reading chem notes la
but not much done
i didnt reach the most important parts
but i did absorb much more than during lectures :P
so yepp not bad la.
got improvement.
after everything
i came home
and well i did read breaking dawn a bit :P
but i got start on maths.
took out book 2
and started from first page.
read read and see if there's anything i need ask mr ang about
i must irritate him with lots of questions on monday HAHA
no la. but i felt damn guai reading it closely
and really trying my best
feels weird being good HAHAHA
but yepp tt's a good thing.

but being so busy makes me irritated
so i keep telling my dad to not bother me
i got so much research to do on com
he still ask me help him scan and print a paper
so i just keep say i very busy lor
summore my scanner lousy de la
coz my com is lousy de ma
so ar when use scanner have to close everything else
which includes my research progress
if not com sure lag like crazy when i scan
no. it would probably not work even.
so i didnt help him la
aiya cant be bothered now la.
i got better things to do.

he also asked me go the ipad website again
he say wan buy an ipad
WTH LOR WHOLE DAY WASTE MONEY
then my mum going scold him again
then he will bad mood and argu back
then the atmosphere will fluctuate between
north pole and volcano eruption.
it's rly irritating
coz they tend to channel anger to me too. -.-
then i will get upset again.
so predictable all the time
moreover. the main thing is.
he keep wasting money la seriously
keep say very poor la very poor la
wan save money for my uni la etcetc
then why buy so much crap??!?!
if he got use them often
if the things are of good use
then fine. i cant say anything
BUT THEY ARE USU DUMPED THERE
AT ONE CORNER AFTER A WHILE!!
it makes the room messier and messier
as he adds new stuff to his collection
wth lor. it's seriously look more like collectibles la
waste money.
buy dunno how many cameras le
new ones come out he would be interested
apparently the previous ones keep spoiling
but he don't even rly need a camera.
well sometimes he does.
but it's not tt impt.
camera still ok la
but then hor
he still go buy mp3 and mp4
tt type of stuff
use a while dump one corner

when mum starts packing up
like cny or sth ar
then she will upset by the mess again
and they usu will start arguing.
it's always like this...
anyway im too busy to help him
with useless stuff currently.
not like blogging is useful now but whatever
it's essential :P
i need a channel to vent everything after all.
im not like the rest who has someone
to share EVERYTHING with.
oh well tt's my blog's use ((: