confidence?

What's confidence?
o.O
after talking to mr ang ytd
i thought.
yea i should be more confident.
but then.
how to?
well he say his results boosted his confidence
but then.
mine doesnt.
i dun see ability
how to feel confident? o.O

today was quite fun i mean BP mentoring la.
but then when going home
they were talking about the recent chem test
argh like only our class did badly.
i did soo badly too.
haiz.
char is still coping SO well with EVERYTHING
argh.
why can't i do the same??

i tried keeping awake during lectures le
im doing fine. more and more awake
but today chem rly cannot take it la
and it's not just me.
a lot ppl sleep during chem today hehe
that teacher cant teach
and she's pretty boring apparently.
im not sure coz i wasn't listening
i was REALLY very tired.

haiz.
i also wanna feel confident
i wan to work hard and do well!!!
nvm forget it.
i'll try my best.
i will.
hope it's enough.

just now ate dinner at mac
with yongliang and tengping
apparently yongliang de maths gd de wor
he say until so confident o.O
then i say i only want 1 A for JCT
for maths la.
then he say i must work extra hard
coz he secured a place le
LOL. hmm.
why cant i feel THAT confident? o.O
but then after that he say.
scully i stronger in maths than him haha
i've no idea.
i dunno how well he does...
but the unknown is scarier...