wow 7 mths :D

It's been so long since I posted here
I forgot about this blog actually hahaha :p
but anyway im totally talking to myself so whatever :P heez
haiya...hmm y m i here again o.O

nothing much la just realised that
i never posted anything since i started work at bossini last dec
nth posted anything about weipeng either...

tt time i did feel a little bit for him AT FIRST
but well im young n dumb la
that feeling annot be trusted at all :X
it passed as quickly and suddenly as it came...
life sucks eh?
coz when i was having fun with him around
i don't think i did actually felt for him THAT way...
im not sure since it was 3 mths ago o.O
and well my feelings cannot be trusted la.
i had thought i might like him de.
but at least i knew that it wasn't a strong feeling...

but then when i saw on his fb that he thinks he's in love...
i asked of coz.
i didnt actually think that it was me la
i mean...i actually thought it was impossible haha
i mean...seriously...who would like me lor.
till now, those who actually really said they like me ar
is all online de ar
real life know de...didnt have any de...
till him la.
he told me he like me o.O
well i was asking joyce about it
whether he was joking etc la
then joyce ask me say i like him too (coz he asked)
in case he joking then i can say me too
haha but then he was serious...
so basically it was 'accepted' that i like him too
but...it really wasn't that strong a feeling..
he...really did like me that way i think lols
feels weird to think about it that way coz
no one actually does...

i was really happy though...
then for the next few days it was a bit ps la hehe
but i left bossini soooon after
on the second last day of work
he off day ma i morning to 4.30pm.
so...he come fetch me :P
well he take mrt with me to tampines lor
haha...im not gd with words la
dunno how to chat well
but he's ok with it
as in he can chat la hahhaha
so he talked quite a bit lor
i joined in here n there
talked talked lor till tampines
quite an achievement for me hahahaha
coz well, me alone with a guy on a mrt ride
approximately 22 mins leh.
haha quite an achievement

summore ar after tt he go t1 and tm with me
nvr shop la just walk through
i wanted go t1 find joan in bossinistyle but she lunchtime
so we left then tm just walked through
haha he say he second time there only sia! amazing -.-
hahahaha anyway we casual talk a bit also haha :D
not bad leh nvr really silent silent de

after tt he walk me to interchange where i wait for bus.
then we talk talk lor
i asked him about his sec sku stuff and his family a bit.
yepp he was nice enough la told me a lot stuff :D
it's...comfortable around him. seriously.
it was nice lor. but i dunno la...tt time didnt think so much.

then after tt i went home.
we sms ma then soon after on that day we...tgt le la hahaha
it was 1-23 (Jan 23) haha :D
haiya...then next day is my last day at bossini le...
we nvr talk at work de hehe ps la XP
he so big guy etc ar so shy de sia -.- hahahaha
seriously lor. tt's totally unexpected
but he so shy la hahahaha sometimes only la though o.O
tt day after work
all of us staff went for dinner
since we last day of work ma
then eat le they play truth or dare sia wth -.- hahaha
then tio me first. totally on purpose can hahaha
but i wasnt able to answer much la hehe
i chose truth
they ask us we tgt how long le.
i ask pris help me.
she say 1 day
then they were like it's after 12am so should be 2 days
since i say wrong so need punishment -.-
hahaha wth can so on purpose
aiya then they make us hold hands la.
that weipeng ar so irritating can
GUY LEH SHY WHAT LA
he so dun dare how am i supposed to dare -.-
then we touched hands for like 1 sec only la anyway hahaahaha
wadeva then after tt continue play
reach him he choose truth
they ask him why he like me
he say everything wor :P:P
hehe quite sweet la but hai hao la
i wasnt specially happy or sth leh...
i really didnt feel much for him eh?
i dunno why also or im just unfeeling...hmm it's possible.
haha then anyway mattheus say he like pris!!
and sth extra. matt totally woo pris after tt lor LOL
then they tgt soon after and till now and still counting :D
so sweet can so envy them la :D
but pris pretty dominating in the rlship hehe XP

anyway!
after they tgt ar
four of us went out tgt
it was the first friday since start of sku. ((:
we went tm walkwalk
then ERHEM hahaha
we held hands la
and they also la
they totally sweeeeettt de lor
hahahaha stick tgt like tt de
matt keep say sweetnothings to her like tt
i dun wan tt anyway just...it was a bit...hahahaha nvm.
anyway we walkwalk lor mostly in toysrus.
pris damn cute la childish can hahahaha
had quite a bit of fun playing around in there
very dumb de la. xP
oh ya. i think weipeng too tall la
i hold his hand ar hand cannot hold straight lor. xP
so stand a bit more apart or swing swing a bit
if not quite weird haha xP

then hmm went home. he sit bus with me (:
but i didnt let him walk me to my block la
the bus go back interchange directly
so ask him dun get down just sit back la

after tt ar we wanted go out again de...
but then no time :X
he work i school ma so ya lor...
not like pris and matt
almost everyday meet de
then they damn sweet de
hug la carry la kiss la hahaha :D

anyway me n weipeng just everyday sms lor
then not even 1 month tgt only leh
then my mum found out.
coz we dinner that time got take pic
then got me with him his hand on my shoulder la :P
so yea fb ma my status is rlship with him
then last time i mentioned him to my mum b4
say he from ite and broken family
so my mum lectured me quite a bit la
then ask me break if can say break early better etc la

i...was already thinking of tt...
coz as i said.
the feeling wasnt strong ma..
i scared hurt him more if drag longer.
so broke la.
but i think i stil hurt him...but he didnt show though
so im not sure.
i really sincerely hope that i didnt hurt him...
after all it's barely a month...
:( i really dun wanna hurt him de.
i did treasure our time working together
it was really fun and wonderful!
our short time tgt was great too...
he was really nice to me...
tt's was y i broke too i guess
coz he very nice make me pretty guilty?
dunno la anyway i felt reallyreally bad
still feel bad...

i really appreciate him a lot.
it was GREAT fun :D
i miss the times...
the times working together especially.
fun leh haha ((:
it's been long since i can have fun
chatting and arguing with a guy hehe
usually few actually acknowledge me?
dunno la coz at work ma so yea
summore he sorta junior coz he join later than me ma
so yea teach him a bit lor
and i was one of the first few to make frens with him de :D
anyway it was a great time...really...
i want to be his colleague again
be his friend again. it's very comfortable around him de
but i guess he's still just a friend to me?

sometimes i really feel like telling him
im sooo sorry
i didnt mean to hurt him if i did.
even though i don't have romantic feelings for him
but i really appreciate him de.
i really want him back in my life...
as a gd fren though ((:

well we still frens la but..
it's different le ma lols..
we seldom sms le. sms also shortshort
dunno say what o.O
only saw him twice like tt since then
well he did say hi and smiled la
me too haha
but tt's all ((:
i was with weijie so they started chatting
then we left. haiya...
dunno la :X
i just want to tell him thanks for liking me
thanks for being there for that 1 month
thanks thanks thanks and sorry sorry sorry.
i really owe him a lot.
i feel like i hadn't done anything for him wor.
hmm is not feel. is a fact.
tt time his wallet lost ar
i wanted to buy 1 for him
but too cheap like no gd wor
but i no money...
after tt wan buy ar also too late le
coz break le...
was thinking if i should still get 1 for him
but like very weird o.O

after quite long i saw his fb say he wan conc on bball
just bball alone. nth else...
bball is his life la seriously haha ((:
i dunno whether to be happy or sad to see that sia lols
he totally went dead in msn n fb de at first
fb nth happening everyday
msn nvr see him online
till tt post...
lols. he's fine already i guess. i hope.
but...
but..
but...
there was a period when i really missed him a lot.
coz he was totally there at that time lols.
i didnt really like to be without him again.
but...i knew i only wanted him as a friend.
getting tt status back is not as easy...
we wont be as comfortable anymore right?
T.T
i so regret what i did leh..
if i hadnt said i liked him.
if i hadnt agreed to be tgt.
maybe we still can be gd frens...
he wouldnt be hurt if he is.
none of these would have happened...

he is entering army soon...
he leaving bossini and going find another job
say bossini boring without us o.O haha
yea then after tt go army le wor...
long time wont see him haha

my birthday coming
going dinner with pris joyce matt
but dunno wan ask weipeng anot...
i did ask weijie but he like dunno wan come anot la -.- sianz
he say schedule not out
but he wont go ask got leave or sth de lor zzz
weipeng...he will if he wants to but would he?
and i dunno if it will be weird if ask him go leh
dunno he wan anot anyway la.
haiyo
SHOULD I ASK HIM??? :(