:( I HATE ECONS

So pek chek!! :(

this morning had scholarship interview
I FORGOT WEAR UNIFORM AND BRING TIE!!
DAMN FORGETFUL CAN!
so i exchanged shirt with fenghua lor :D hehe
thanks a lot to her sia
if not i no need go interview liao :D hahaha

then at the MOE HQ ar
i was freaking out haha
i get nervous really easily as always
me and elaine reached suppperr early
so had to wait for an hr or so
HENCE i sat on the oh-so-comfortable sofa
and fell asleep
elaine told me afterwards that my sleeping posture
was very unglam
those who were waiting for their
teaching scholarship interview kept staring at me
lols -.- zzzzz
wadeva not anyone i know at least hehe :P
mr ang was sort of encouraging me la
he say they are just humans so dun need scared HAHA
yea it worked for a short while...haha
the interview was crap
tough.
haha. stupid random ques haha
"how long have you been waiting outside?"
"erm..about 1 hr"
"wow that's long...what have you been thinking about?"
"er...about questions that might be asked"
"so what do you think we'll ask? name 3?"
"why i chose clep, why i like chinese....er..."
"ok these two questions...im sure u are very prepared for them
so we shan't ask you those two questions."
WTH RIGHT what a dumb start to the interview
shant elaborate the rest.
i said the story a lot of times in sku le
lazy type hehe :P

anyway main point of my post today
juz now in sku ar damn pek chek la
dunno y very bad mood lor...
before maths lesson
i was trying to do econs
but I HATE ECONS!!! zzz
i see the questions i stone
i sianz i irritated i pek chek haha...
damn sianz can
I HATE ECONS!!
it takes away my will to study
takes away all interests
ECONS MAKES ME FEEL DUMB
LIKE REALLY REALLY DUMB! :((
and they keep telling me it's common sense
FINE LA
I DUMB LA NO COMMON SENSE CAN?!??!?
zzzzzzzzz
no one's helping man. gets on my nerves totally.

oh and kailun gets on my nerves sometimes
she ar keep harping on wanting to drop maths
i sense no fighting spirit in her at all lols.
not that it's my problem but i really dun like her attitude
it's not one day lor
it's EVERYDAY.
keep saying wan drop wan drop
very bad la etc. ver also but not tt kua zhang la
ver wont drop coz she say she lousy is anyhow de lor :PPP
yea la juz dun like kailun's attitude
she tt time go join 2 pdps
eclub n leo club
then kept pon both!! wth la?!?!?!
i was quite pissed la
now she got go eclub le
leo club she sort of got go le la
events she got come
general meetings she tt day come halfway then left -.-
anyway got big improvement -.-
but wth la no commitment then dun join 2 la~
nah not my problem.

i last time very anything de
dun care about all these
dunno why recently more and more easily bad mood -.-
haha sianz de lor.

maths lesson still pretty bad mood
only once in a while
got mr ang damn funny HAHA so i laugh with them :P
cher gave back test papers.
then they were at it again
damn wth can zzz
coz they scored badly for the test
but i didnt say anything ok.
usu people dun like those with high scores coz they brag
i kept super quiet as usual.
but they were just damn irritating beside me.
kailun was telling wanshan: ask that 神经病的 lend me her paper
zzzzz
then elaine and wanshan exchange scripts see scores
elaine was saying wht dun let me see etc
wth la.
what's wrong with them la.
im not an alien and i wont laugh at them
i didnt even ask to look at their scores in the first place!!
i wasnt in a gd mood le
and they had to add fuel. -.-

last time ar in sec sku clique
my frens belong to the 自恋 type HAHA
so they wont like tt de.
even if we score better, the others also wonrt like tt de
maybe they will like: walao... etc a bit
but they all okayokay de...
and char always highest anyway hahaha
we learn from our mistakes together.
we borrow char's papers and analyse our mistakes
we learn together.
that's what good frens are for.
zzz
i should stop comparing
i really miss my frens :(( haiz...

recently losing the fighting spirit that i need le.
losing my will and spirit.
for studies. everything. maths sometimes also.
maths ar...i get damn pek chek when i cant solve a ques haha.
but it's 100000000000000000000000000000000000x better than econs
seriously. haiz
i wish i can juz keep doing maths
and score A for JCT and Promos
but i can't neglect the others!!!
tt's the problem. it's sooooo irritaing la!!
haha...

juz now bad mood ma
then i totally got the give-up feeling la
zzz...feel like i can't do it.
juz now maths lesson was over there thinking too much
then suddenly rmbed sth that spurred me a bit :D
well i was reminded that there were ppl
who really believe i can do it -.-
people who really enrouraged me.
i dun like to disappoint ppl
and i definitely do not want to disappoint them.
so i told myself that i have to work harder.
though i damn slack recently
....i must.
i have to.
i should.
i want to.
but dunno whether really will anot la.
my will dies off damn fast all the time.
but this time there are people spurring me on.
so it's revived.
hopefully it won't really die off one day.
then im so dead.
wan work hard....but dunno how la.
feeling so pessimistic about my studies recently...

I SERIOUSLY HATE ECONS!!!! :(
juz now cher went thru data response questions
everyone seems like they are fine
all okay
only me having trouble following
struggling.
zzz damn sianz.
then got data response ques test.
damn it la
I CANT DO!
i did first question then behind all stun le
then anyhow crap
i got a super strong feeling i'll fail it
AGAIN zzz damn upset la
stupid econs!!
when doing last question
i was so tired i was nodding off la hahaha
totally tired and irritated and sianz by econs!!

ECONS SUCKS MY LIFE OUTTA ME :(