haiz

my mum always so bad mood de...
ytd went wedding dinner then come home le
she talking to my aunt ma then she toktoktok and then she say my leg very big (dun laugh!)
lols anyway the pt is i dun wanna hear her tok abt tt AGAIN
so i walked away
then she say "see la so fast angry agn le!"
but i wasnt angry
I REALLY WASNT ANGRY
i rly wasnt
rly wasnt...

then SHE bad mood le! haiz
i dun get it la
shldnt i be the one upset? why become she angry?
and why is she angry in the first place?
she keep saying my bad pts to others de lor!
summore say in frnt of me?
can't she think more of my feelings?
and the worst thing is
i am NEVER allowed to hav my own emotions
or at least not supposed to express them at all with them arnd
haiz...
everytime i get irritated with their nagging
im not rly angry or wad just...u cant expect me to smile still rite
then they will scold me for getting 'angry'
they always lyk tt de
i cannot be upset wor?
i also hav sad times de ma and angry times la
they both got bad tempers de and SO DO I
but they can get angry whenever they wan and keep nag and scold
I CANNOT EVEN EXPRESS IT
LIFE IS TOTALLY UNFAIR
whr did the saying of making frens with ur children/parents come from?
they whole day use their authority of parents de~
T.T
then now hav to tolerate my mum's temper agn while i cannot
CANNOT (muz remind myself)
flare up
if not things will get worse
im always the one tolerating
why?? T.T haiz no choice la~
aiya dun wan say them le...

ytd went wedding dinner then it was special sia!!
b4 the waitors came in, they played 'accidentally in love'!!
then the waitors and waitresses hooked arms and 'danced' in!! so cool!!
lols it was cute and quite fun to see haha

then after that the bridesgroom had to read a 'love letter' to the bride!!! (sabo-ed by frens)
then he further sabo-ed by everyone and had to kneel down while reading haha
then after that the emcee tell us to keep clapping
while we clap, the couple gonna french kiss!
the longer we clap the longer they kiss! haha it was quite funny
they stopped b4 we did obviously coz cant not enuf breath haha
it was unique sia very special ^^
then the bride looked rly rly blessed and happy ytd
it make me rly...i dunno how to say
just tot abt myself haha =P (no laughing)
i was thinking will i ever be there one day
will anyone even lyk me lor...
lols a bit childish? lame? anyway no laughing
coz she looked rly happy so these just popped up ma =P

it was rl nice to see them get married!
the day will come to everyone rite? ^^
hehe long way to go~haha