haiz. tell me what u want. please.

2nd day, Wednesday:
Elaine still ignoring me
i dunno whats wrong. seriously
so small thing. i dun believe that's
the only reason why she's behaving like that.
but she won't talk to me and won't explainnnnnnn
how.

that day after sku.
CSE debate.
it was great!
ok la first one wasnt very interesting (TJ vs YJ)
then TJ won
after that is break!
wonderful.
food not bad. damn funny coz left a lot ma
then they kiasu sia all pack food leh
shubei pack 3 packets~!!!
i took photos hahaha of her with her mouth STUFFED with food
LOL and packing food
and sleeping during debate LOL all up in fb le hehe

anyway rewind rewind.
before debate started.
i walk into LT ar
i saw veron and elaine there le.
elaine had an empty seat beside her beside veron whole row empty la.
but i closer to veron side
wondered if i should walk to elaine side and take that seat
usu i would.
but i didnt.
i a bit regret also.
i should have. act normal. dumbo.

3rd day, Thursday:
first lesson. maths lecture.
i didnt sit beside elaine too
dumbo leh me zzz
coz cant possible stand there and think where to sit hahaha
so i just walk in.
2nd row. zhenyan beside empty seatS
and 3rd row, elaine beside empty seatS
i scared very weird to go sit with elaine
but after tt thinkthink.
maybe i should have sat with her after all.
show that im not avoiding her at least.
show im not angry with her at least....

CLL lecture. well test day.
usu me elaine wanshan will go the theatrette early de
sit there wait inside only 3 of us.
that day all 3 separated.
when i went in
there was only elaine there
2 more bags but the ppl nt there
elaine put her bag beside her
then the seat beside her bag had a broken table
so i sat another seat away.
2 seats in btw la.
so awkward. so silent. i didnt dare make any noise
i felt very upset can. haiz.
tried to conc studying la.
then wanshan came in
and elaine removed her bag........
i felt damn bad leh
very upset. so on purpose can -.-
argh. (*#%*&@^*&#%^(*#^%
wanted to scream. maybe will feel better -.-
anyway so like that. after test
elaine ownself go library do maths
so i was telling wanshan about it
coz she asked how are we. fei hua question.
yea so i was rly upset a bit teary
nth special i get teary often.
my tear glands dun listen to commands. but just a bit la.
just rly irritated.
must she do that?!?!!
what makes her so big deal la.
THE WORLD DOESNT REVOLVE AROUND HER!
why must she make a big fuss out of sth so small...

4th day, Friday:
rained very heavily today morning haha
went civics room
after that go pe lesson ma
veron and wanshan go put attendance book with elaine
i stand there dunno whether to go with them anot.
these few days
it always seem like no matter which choice i take
also wrong. crap sia.
in the end i just followed the class to sports complex.
after pe.
we walking to canteen
coz drizzling
wanshan and veron took out umbrellas
i didnt bother to open mine la so small rain.
wanshan just beside me so she shelter me lor
elaine turned over and saw lols -.-
then veron volunteered to share umbrella with her.
thankfully. lols.
aiyo. wanshan should have sheltered her
but she say coz she beside me ma...yea la. but. lols
ah whatever.

then we went canteen
kailun yingen went sit at a table
elaine say dun wan sit there
so she veron wanshan go sit at another table
WTH?!???!
THEN I HOW??!?!
i totally at a loss of where to go sia.
and that kailun still ask me go sit with her
say dun abondon them also.
then i even more dunno how la.
i should sit with the other group de...
but then...in the end i dun wan think le
just sit with kailun they all.

kailun say elaine probably waiting for me to 低头 first
she say we both very stubborn very 爱面子 lols.
kailun say usu is i take initiative talk to elaine de also wor
she tot i would this time but i didnt lols.
i say i not 爱面子 la i just scared i talk to her she ignore me
(after that i told char she say that IS 爱面子 lols -.- ok...fine.)
爱面子 then 爱面子 lor. whatever.
elaine is intimidating leh how talk to her lols.
haiz she see me only look unhappy le what u wan me do.

chem lecture.
today's chem lecture was interesting.
lecturer is simon foo. back from 6-mth course apparently.
nice and friendly and funny guy
he nvr teach at all! LOL
he ask us keep our notes haha
character development lesson :p
teach us reality and vision has a gap in btw that we need to cover
nce stuff he said.
he showed us many meaningful videos too.
1) martin luther king speech
2) martin luther king last speech
3) super woman with no arms (DAAAMN COOL. TOTALLY GREAT. GO WATCH!)
4) sleeping smiley. really cute. i think the underlying
message is really...cool. and very applicable to life. rly nice.
5) Mr Zap thing. quite funny. a bit crazy.
a crazy office man haha
it was a nice lecture.
after the lecture.
PA there got ppl say it's cassandra's bdae so
wan sing bdae song for her
sang 3 lines then no more le lols.
i think i noe which is cassandra...or maybe not.
not very sure la.
anyway i think mongchin much prettier LOL

anyway all these meaningful stuff...
there's a lot elaine can learn from them.
but she nvr really does.
she absorbs but doesnt apply them appropriately :(
haha. ah whateverrrrrrr.

mr ang say i should just try talking to her.
but she say she cant be bothered to bother...on fb.
why should i bother when she totally doesnt care?
sh doesnt need me.
to her only kahmin matters?
just now i told shuting just 1 line.
i say "my gd friend cold waring with me"
and wonderful shuting say: "wth! this kind of friend not worth it!"
lols. nice. i dun think it's that bad
but elaine has things to change.
i mean. i've been very nice to her as a friend leh.
she used to say she's touched lols.
kailun even called me her follower
elaine say it's subordinate! haha.
then some super small thing
and look what happened.
小气鬼!!!!!!!!!! argh.
irritating.
taking up too much of my tots. too much of my time...
THROW AWAY!!!!!