updates ^^

he asked me to be his wor
haha but i avoided it somehow...again
but he calls me dear.
and he is still as usual all the muacks~
of coz i return the muacks la..
so the prob is...what are we? haha
i honestly have no idea
nvm la...although it's not very gd to remain lyk tt
but...then..but then..
if with him i muz prepare myself
for the day when he found someone new
or get sick of me leh...
tt's quite...lols so eh...i dun rly wan haha

anyway...forget abt tt.
juz now talked to shuting on the phone for damn long
till dad keep scolding me.
he's in a bad mood recently again
very very irritating...
well shuting n me talked abt quite some stuff
mostly gossips la.
but then not tt type lyk...say abt others ba?
hmm hav la but not very...gossipy haha
juz analysing i guess?
and she heard a lot gossips from others b4
so i ask her tell me lor xD
got about me de...

haiz...well...
it's no surprise AT ALL leh..
usual stuff ^^
since pri sku already lyk tt le
so ehh im not happy abt it of coz
but not rly sad or angry ba...
mainly two things la
1) ms chan's lessons...
shuting say she used to find me irritating for this too
but...why~~~im lyk tt de ma...
what's wrong with shouting answers to teacher's question
and asking her questions?
but coz ms chan always say stuff lyk
me n char are her fav students etc ar...
im even more hated -.-
but well i know abt this de la~
zzz now i dun do tt le...not much le la anyway...

2) they say i complain abt tests/exams being difficult
or that my results are bad even though i scored better than them
la~~~~wth la~
to them it might be gd
but I FIND IT BAD.
REALLY BAD.
what's wrong with that.
someone tell me.
some ppl might say i shld not hav said so loudly...
but MY VOICE IS VERY LOUD DE MA~~
what u wan me do..
tok to frens also need whisper wor?
so totally no freedom wor?
haiz...

why ppl actually go waste time n effort to hate ppl?
i dun tend to hate ppl...
maybe i used to. but now i dun.
but i used to sociable.
now im not. totally not.
i feel anti social actually haha
haiya...dunno la...time does change ppl doesnt it? ^^
well...the only thing i can do is overlook these
and continue as usual lo.

sometimes i really wan tell them ar
if they got anything they dun lyk abt me
plz tell me rigt straight to my face
not behind my back.
not because i dun lyk ppl to gossip abt me
it's juz tt
I WAN TO KNOW!
i wan to know what ppl think of me. and why.
i wan to know who dislike me. and why.
i wan to know who finds me irritating. and why.
if possible. i would change. i rly would...i had..
i had changed lor...
but i prefer last time de me...
more sociable etc...
because pri 5 n 6 that time
most of the classmates dun lyk me
so well i become less n less sociable
and then i only stick to my clique
anyone outside of my clique....well..
i dunno them well
seldom tok to them...

anti social huh?
whateva la...