cant bear it de..

i dunno la
but i dun think i cant bear him leaving yet...

coz heart is sorta empty...
lonely...
so i dun wanna let him go...yet
but tt's irresponsible and...very bad leh..
coz it's him so it's very bad lols
any rlship wont be normal wif him lo haha

juz now ask him what am i
he say ai ren lols
then i was lyk...when did i agree to tt...
but i didnt reject him directly...
aiya so is didnt rly reject la...
but i didnt agree either laaaaaaaa
dilemma
it's something tt wont last...
i hate it. i hate knowing tt it'll not last.
tt's y i dun wan to start...coz i know it wont last...
so why start rite?
but then...how leh
well currently still ok la
juz hope nth much happened le la

juz cant bear it when he ignores me..
even for a while...always worrying when he will be sick of me...
only 5th day since i know him leh..
and im already so affected by him already...how?
keep thinking of him wor haha
but well tt's coz as i said...i hav no one to think of le ma..
empty.
so once he entered my life...
juz as a fren...
somehow even though i know he's not tt nice but...
well he's not chased away la haha

now nth la so erm...see how it goes ba...^^