anger

see la
anger management
worst eva
can nvr manage tt when i wif my dad
or simple...my parents
haiz
just got super angry wif my dad
and of coz...in turn, he also la~
wadeva
lyk i care
i feel myself becoming more and more lyk pai kia
when i wif my parents sia
so diff from when i wif my frens
seldom feel my anger at sku rite...frens reading this? (= nobody)

anyways i rly gotta learn that well sia

will i be able to manage that eva? if my dad doesnt change at all?

I SERIOUSLY CANNOT TOLERATE TOO CHILDISH PEOPLE
eg. my dad
haiz
he sure knows how to throw tantrums lyk A CHILD
more chldish than me, the child, most of the time
and i simply CANNOT tolerate that
is lyk wth
he's almos 60 and a male
and he's behaving lyk this

he see me play he will say 1-2 sentences and dun care me de
then he go COMPLAIN TO MY MUM
wth
that months ago
now ar he wont tell liao
now become
he wont say when he happy
once u make him angry (i dunno how i dunno why)
the he go tell-tale
that's such a childish act...
don't you think? haiz...
I seriously dunno wad to do wif him...nono
wad to do wif myself
i dun wan anything to do wif him sometimes
i can spot SO MUCH diff btw us...cant spot similarity much though
he my dad ar?

oh no going that direction agn
nono cannot
he is my dad
...cool down~~
juz wan relieve anger la...done and im...quite fine i suppose..........

o ya shuting family also not gd...sad
find her so poor thing sometimes
but she still so cheerful...sometimes
and crazy...many times =P
lols we very similar lor, shuting and me
our personalities
quite cool lols 2nd person that's similar to me
but she more similar than the 1st person =P haha

not lyk char...lols
we're very different
lols
main: she's too clever =.=
ok fine that's not a personality difference
and of coz im not blaming her and im not hating her or sth...
juz stating a fact

it's juz that im getting jealous
not over her results...no pt...
is coz
she and meixuan~
why gng so close now le
that day in class
i tok to her she didnt rly listen
then she turn to meixuan then i said sth agn
she turn over, no reply and turn back then she keep looking there =.=
i think she was juz dazing at somewhere but still...

im being quite unreasonable rite?
char prefers to be wif meixuan ma...nth to be jealous abt...rite? rite? rite?
haiz juz that
since last yr, my best fren wanted to be CHAR's best fren...
and i also wanted...
but char doesnt make BEST FRENS easily de...
gd frens super easy though...
then this yr come into this class ar
she's the only person i could tok to...not those seriousx10 talk but at least..
we can talk! and chat! and joke! and be lame!
she was the only fren

but she can make frens rly eaily...
i cant coz im juz...dunno
shy arnd new ppl? i always am although no one actually notices...
everyone sees me as high 'I' but i am SOOO NOT!
but i have to act lyk one in front of everyone...
but used to it le...did this since primary sku...wads so tough?
better than emo mode at home ma~
sianz
i told my online kor abt not being myself then he told me to
i mean to be myself la
but
now
i dun even know wad's the real me liao
how to be myself?
i guess im quite fine wif the me now ba?
i dun rly wan to find the rl me liao since i seriously dunno how to~~~~
who am i
wad am i
and where i come from~
i dunno~~~~
haiz
want tell shuting this blog leh but dunno should anot...

Should I?
Should I not?