It's not the day to emo!

It's not the first time, not even the second time.
Probably third or fourth already.
To you, maybe I'm just throwing tantrums,
I'm having mood swings.
But I don't get upset for no reason at all you know.
Maybe it may seem exaggerating or unnecessary
But I'm upset for a reason. Not for nothing.
Though it always ends in nothing.

I have always looked down on myself,
Especially physically.
Sometimes I see people who others call fat,
And I will think, but their skin is so smooth
Or their hair is so nice.
I see short people,
I'll think, I'm short too but at least they look cute.
Unlike me.
I'm like short and fat and tanned
And my skin and hair are both horrible
I have countless scars on my legs and face,
I'm dropping hair, my hair quality is really poor,
My tummy accumulates fats so fast
And my legs are fat too.

So I really don't need you to keep harping on it.
I know you probably don't mean it.
You're just teasing me, but can't you ever,
Like EVER think from my point of view?

And how many times have I told you
not to keep looking at your phone?
Especially when I'm already upset.
I'm like emoing and you're on Facebook
Or reading some articles or whatsoever.

Yaya, go ahead and ignore me then you ask me what's wrong.
..

You know when you kept calling me fat today
The thought that appeared was
I don't want to eat. Don't want to eat.
I want to slim down.
Yea so no lunch today.

Anyway it's not the day to emo because
I have rally later!!!
How to get my mood back?=/