Hello

So long since the last update huh...
Guess I've been pretty busy what with all the working and stuff.
First SITEX then Admin+tuition...
 Today another day of work. Most slack day alr haha coz I keep going Spatchy.
Oh well coz I need start mafia five going ma...to all readers of my blog, if any, do join spatchy(: it's an awesome place^^
Anyway today come post...because emo again haha.
Standard one. Come here write stuff when I'm emo. This blog for me vent one anyway:p

Today supposed to meet shuting they all for lunch then after tt they going sing after I go bk work.
But those lazy pigs lazy walk from marina square to Suntec.
I not enough time go there n back summore at justacia sia take damn long de...sianz.
Lucky got Joseph eat with me.

3pm got Christmas party in office but I dunno anyone else from other offices so I didn't join but Santa Claus come knock door so in the end I went la. Stand around smile smile dunno what to say, eat some stuff shake hands a bit smile smile. Eat finish sneak back lols. So antisocial right lols.

Yea I'm noisy I have a loud voice but no I'm not a social creature deep inside. I never know what to say. I'm always out of words. I just can't click with people lols. After work I went Carrefour find envelopes/paper stuff that boss need.

Wanted meet shuting they all at paya lebar since they dont want come over. But though we same time reach paya lebar I had to walk there. And those pigs dun even wan to get down mrt to catch next train with me. I rushed up 2 flights of staircase coz escalator too full need queue summore but I dunno what for.

Shuting send me 'Sihui is disappointed with us. Hw: she doesn't know how hurt we feel...' I dunno what she talking la but whatever la. I just felt so lonely just now coz I felt so insignificant to my friends. Felt so useless, so antisocial. Can't make best friends.

Yea I still have no best friends har? Sad fact sad truth. Not angry at them just upset. Coz I would have walked the distance and waited for them if it was them. And coz I working and they going strt work soon also, we really no time meet de...meet a while also cannot...haiz. Dunno what to say la just a bit sad ba.

Joseph thought I may not end at 6 coz i wasnt very sure then he also didn't come down...so emo on my way back. Teared a little again lols so weak right yea i know. I really think I have become so much weaker than before la. 

When I was young, I cried a lot too. But I was much stronger. I could control myself better. I never cried in front of others of I could. I get over things very fast too. I dont really emo easily. I guess I didnt think that much? But as I grow up ar I cried more n more and there were many times I lost control...I started crying in class in upper pri. Sec sku I think didn't la.

Then this two years...I started crying in public even. Wts what's wrong with me. Feel like a weakling but I can't help it. Really can't help it. Sometimes I'm very sensitive I get affected by the tiniest of things and then I think a lot. The more I think the more upset I get then I start to tear. Haiz suck right?  Aiya just now just felt so lonely and a bit emo la. Coz today end early so I'm now sitting downstairs typing this...go home then post...feeling better now le I guess.

Oh well though I lose control more now I actually cry much lesser I realise(: and I get over things quite fast too lols^^  TO MYSELF: SMILEEEEEEEEEEE!!!^^